hello I’m Ali Miller Oh hold on sorry I have to get this really
sorry I have to get this really
sorry I have to get this really important and I promise that was me ten
important and I promise that was me ten
important and I promise that was me ten months ago I was a 15 year old girl so
months ago I was a 15 year old girl so
months ago I was a 15 year old girl so eager to be accepted by her peers to
eager to be accepted by her peers to
eager to be accepted by her peers to this digital world it all started the
this digital world it all started the
this digital world it all started the summer for my sophomore year of high
summer for my sophomore year of high
summer for my sophomore year of high school when I got the text I was on a
school when I got the text I was on a
school when I got the text I was on a vacation up to the Upper Peninsula with
vacation up to the Upper Peninsula with
vacation up to the Upper Peninsula with my family and when I swiped off my phone
my family and when I swiped off my phone
my family and when I swiped off my phone my eyes lit up with the words that it
my eyes lit up with the words that it
my eyes lit up with the words that it said I turned to my brother was saying
said I turned to my brother was saying
said I turned to my brother was saying right next to me it’s like I’m in I’m in
right next to me it’s like I’m in I’m in
right next to me it’s like I’m in I’m in I am in probably borderline looking like
I am in probably borderline looking like
I am in probably borderline looking like a madwoman at this point but that’s
a madwoman at this point but that’s
a madwoman at this point but that’s besides it because what that text said I
besides it because what that text said I
besides it because what that text said I thought was gonna change my life now
thought was gonna change my life now
thought was gonna change my life now this text was from someone who I usually
this text was from someone who I usually
this text was from someone who I usually didn’t talk to so I kind of was taken
didn’t talk to so I kind of was taken
didn’t talk to so I kind of was taken aback by it and it was an invitation to
aback by it and it was an invitation to
aback by it and it was an invitation to be added into a group chat with most of
be added into a group chat with most of
be added into a group chat with most of the people that I had strived so hard to
the people that I had strived so hard to
the people that I had strived so hard to be accepted by in my grade these were
be accepted by in my grade these were
be accepted by in my grade these were the people that were envied and looked
the people that were envied and looked
the people that were envied and looked up to by most of my peers and I was so
up to by most of my peers and I was so
up to by most of my peers and I was so excited for the year to come that I
excited for the year to come that I
excited for the year to come that I didn’t even feel the usual paying of
didn’t even feel the usual paying of
didn’t even feel the usual paying of sadness and longing that summer was
sadness and longing that summer was
sadness and longing that summer was ending what this text meant was I
ending what this text meant was I
ending what this text meant was I thought that I was in that I was one of
thought that I was in that I was one of
thought that I was in that I was one of them I was in on all the parties and all
them I was in on all the parties and all
them I was in on all the parties and all the gossip I was in and I was one of
the gossip I was in and I was one of
the gossip I was in and I was one of them but I didn’t realize was what I was
them but I didn’t realize was what I was
them but I didn’t realize was what I was really in for what happened instead was
really in for what happened instead was
really in for what happened instead was I was dragged into unnecessary high
I was dragged into unnecessary high
I was dragged into unnecessary high school drama gossip backstabbing you
school drama gossip backstabbing you
school drama gossip backstabbing you name it and as the year progressed it
name it and as the year progressed it
name it and as the year progressed it only got worse things people started
only got worse things people started
only got worse things people started leaving from the chat because they were
leaving from the chat because they were
leaving from the chat because they were either a fed-up MIT or they were kicked
either a fed-up MIT or they were kicked
either a fed-up MIT or they were kicked out I ended up being the ones that was
out I ended up being the ones that was
out I ended up being the ones that was kicked out and I still to this day have
kicked out and I still to this day have
kicked out and I still to this day have no idea why but I think it was me
no idea why but I think it was me
no idea why but I think it was me because I didn’t agree with anything
because I didn’t agree with anything
because I didn’t agree with anything that was going on
that was going on
that was going on in the chat but I also didn’t disagree
in the chat but I also didn’t disagree
in the chat but I also didn’t disagree it’s almost like my morals were blinded
it’s almost like my morals were blinded
it’s almost like my morals were blinded by this feeling of being wanted and
by this feeling of being wanted and
by this feeling of being wanted and accepted and after I was so distraught
accepted and after I was so distraught
accepted and after I was so distraught from the inclusion of the group from
from the inclusion of the group from
from the inclusion of the group from August to December that once I was
August to December that once I was
August to December that once I was kicked out once I was kicked out I was
kicked out once I was kicked out I was
kicked out once I was kicked out I was so in the state of just waiting and
so in the state of just waiting and
so in the state of just waiting and hoping waiting and hoping I was waiting
hoping waiting and hoping I was waiting
hoping waiting and hoping I was waiting for that feeling of acceptance to come
for that feeling of acceptance to come
for that feeling of acceptance to come back and I was hoping for this be some
back and I was hoping for this be some
back and I was hoping for this be some big misunderstanding but I was wrong I
big misunderstanding but I was wrong I
big misunderstanding but I was wrong I feel in some way we all go through this
feel in some way we all go through this
feel in some way we all go through this where we just are waiting for something
where we just are waiting for something
where we just are waiting for something to happen like a state of social
to happen like a state of social
to happen like a state of social comatose but instead of focusing on the
comatose but instead of focusing on the
comatose but instead of focusing on the very things that are causing in our at
very things that are causing in our at
very things that are causing in our at the root of our unhappiness we focus on
the root of our unhappiness we focus on
the root of our unhappiness we focus on the very things that are causing the
the very things that are causing the
the very things that are causing the voids in our lives now it worked out for
voids in our lives now it worked out for
voids in our lives now it worked out for me because I was coming to this
me because I was coming to this
me because I was coming to this realization at the end of my sophomore
realization at the end of my sophomore
realization at the end of my sophomore year right before summer so I took the
year right before summer so I took the
year right before summer so I took the opportunity and I step back I step back
opportunity and I step back I step back
opportunity and I step back I step back away from my friends I step back away
away from my friends I step back away
away from my friends I step back away from the group that I knew was wrong for
from the group that I knew was wrong for
from the group that I knew was wrong for me and I just I spend time with who
me and I just I spend time with who
me and I just I spend time with who matter most to me like my extensive
matter most to me like my extensive
matter most to me like my extensive family I started focusing on being a
family I started focusing on being a
family I started focusing on being a better role model for my younger cousins
better role model for my younger cousins
better role model for my younger cousins and my siblings and I just I took time
and my siblings and I just I took time
and my siblings and I just I took time for myself to you know I’ve always loved
for myself to you know I’ve always loved
for myself to you know I’ve always loved to sing so I started taking voice
to sing so I started taking voice
to sing so I started taking voice lessons and I’m gonna start singing in
lessons and I’m gonna start singing in
lessons and I’m gonna start singing in my church band and I started focusing on
my church band and I started focusing on
my church band and I started focusing on the relationships that mattered the most
the relationships that mattered the most
the relationships that mattered the most to me and putting more of my effort into
to me and putting more of my effort into
to me and putting more of my effort into those I over all started remembering who
those I over all started remembering who
those I over all started remembering who I was
I was
I was Allison Margaret Mitter you know a big
Allison Margaret Mitter you know a big
Allison Margaret Mitter you know a big part of this change was I was just
part of this change was I was just
part of this change was I was just sitting back and saying who was I
sitting back and saying who was I
sitting back and saying who was I changing for because it wasn’t for
changing for because it wasn’t for
changing for because it wasn’t for myself and it wasn’t for some greater
myself and it wasn’t for some greater
myself and it wasn’t for some greater good and the key to discovering myself
good and the key to discovering myself
good and the key to discovering myself was not easy but I found it I surrounded
was not easy but I found it I surrounded
was not easy but I found it I surrounded myself with the people who love me for
myself with the people who love me for
myself with the people who love me for myself
myself
myself and that’s why I found the ultimate
and that’s why I found the ultimate
and that’s why I found the ultimate comfort and acceptance I had so been
comfort and acceptance I had so been
comfort and acceptance I had so been longing for you know those people tended
longing for you know those people tended
longing for you know those people tended to be the people who are in the audience
to be the people who are in the audience
to be the people who are in the audience right now my family and my friends who
right now my family and my friends who
right now my family and my friends who came to support me I guess what I’m
came to support me I guess what I’m
came to support me I guess what I’m really trying to get at here is if you
really trying to get at here is if you
really trying to get at here is if you are not comfortable with yourself and
are not comfortable with yourself and
are not comfortable with yourself and who you are you cannot possibly flourish
who you are you cannot possibly flourish
who you are you cannot possibly flourish and grow to your full potential I’m very
and grow to your full potential I’m very
and grow to your full potential I’m very proud to say that I am happier and
proud to say that I am happier and
proud to say that I am happier and healthier than I’ve ever been in my life
healthier than I’ve ever been in my life
healthier than I’ve ever been in my life and I’m embracing life challenges as
and I’m embracing life challenges as
and I’m embracing life challenges as they come you know yes I may still
they come you know yes I may still
they come you know yes I may still falter but as with anything it takes
falter but as with anything it takes
falter but as with anything it takes time and now I truly encourage you to
time and now I truly encourage you to
time and now I truly encourage you to this accept the challenge of accepting
this accept the challenge of accepting
this accept the challenge of accepting yourself thank you
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