there was a pickaxe in the side of my head I can hear the doctors voice my
head I can hear the doctors voice my
head I can hear the doctors voice my adrenal glands are shot my hiss temuco
adrenal glands are shot my hiss temuco
adrenal glands are shot my hiss temuco reactions are in overdrive my thyroid is
reactions are in overdrive my thyroid is
reactions are in overdrive my thyroid is borderline under active and I’m nearly
borderline under active and I’m nearly
borderline under active and I’m nearly diabetic that pickaxe was a nerve down
diabetic that pickaxe was a nerve down
diabetic that pickaxe was a nerve down here it felt like an axe
here it felt like an axe
here it felt like an axe it was fastening my body was calling in
it was fastening my body was calling in
it was fastening my body was calling in a debt
a debt
a debt fortunately the good thing is his life
fortunately the good thing is his life
fortunately the good thing is his life isn’t nearly always like this do you
isn’t nearly always like this do you
isn’t nearly always like this do you remember a time when life was magical
remember a time when life was magical
remember a time when life was magical when anything was possible
when anything was possible
when anything was possible when time was Infinite for me that was 3
when time was Infinite for me that was 3
when time was Infinite for me that was 3 it looked like this now at 3 I was also
it looked like this now at 3 I was also
it looked like this now at 3 I was also a big girl I know I had a little sister
a big girl I know I had a little sister
a big girl I know I had a little sister but as a big girl what that meant was
but as a big girl what that meant was
but as a big girl what that meant was that I had to be responsible so I grew
that I had to be responsible so I grew
that I had to be responsible so I grew up to be responsible because that’s what
up to be responsible because that’s what
up to be responsible because that’s what you do as a big girl do any of you
you do as a big girl do any of you
you do as a big girl do any of you relate to this so I did what any
relate to this so I did what any
relate to this so I did what any responsible big girl does I grew up I
responsible big girl does I grew up I
responsible big girl does I grew up I went to university I got a good job I
went to university I got a good job I
went to university I got a good job I got a great career and I climbed the
got a great career and I climbed the
got a great career and I climbed the corporate ladder
corporate ladder
corporate ladder there’s always another rung in the
there’s always another rung in the
there’s always another rung in the corporate ladder
corporate ladder
corporate ladder there’s always another goal to be
there’s always another goal to be
there’s always another goal to be achieved then there was that pickaxe
achieved then there was that pickaxe
achieved then there was that pickaxe moment I was a fully paid-up member of
moment I was a fully paid-up member of
moment I was a fully paid-up member of the rational action society if you
the rational action society if you
the rational action society if you wanted to analyze it and you wanted to
wanted to analyze it and you wanted to
wanted to analyze it and you wanted to get it done I was the woman for the job
get it done I was the woman for the job
get it done I was the woman for the job now
what that meant for me when that axe hit
what that meant for me when that axe hit I lost sight of something important
I lost sight of something important
I lost sight of something important the funny thing was in my business life
the funny thing was in my business life
the funny thing was in my business life I knew it but I lost sight of a model I
I knew it but I lost sight of a model I
I knew it but I lost sight of a model I use in my business world in my personal
use in my business world in my personal
use in my business world in my personal world now that model is used by
world now that model is used by
world now that model is used by successful people and successful people
successful people and successful people
successful people and successful people around the world so it’s not something I
around the world so it’s not something I
around the world so it’s not something I invented I observed it saw the
invented I observed it saw the
invented I observed it saw the complexity out there distilled it down
complexity out there distilled it down
complexity out there distilled it down to its essence and then codified it it’s
to its essence and then codified it it’s
to its essence and then codified it it’s really practical measure who okay it
really practical measure who okay it
really practical measure who okay it begins with because we’re in a modern
begins with because we’re in a modern
begins with because we’re in a modern world and it’s all about being rational
world and it’s all about being rational
world and it’s all about being rational and then if it’s rational that will lead
and then if it’s rational that will lead
and then if it’s rational that will lead to action so as I said this was my world
to action so as I said this was my world
to action so as I said this was my world but have you noticed there’s something
but have you noticed there’s something
but have you noticed there’s something that’s not quite route quite true about
that’s not quite route quite true about
that’s not quite route quite true about that model for example it’s rational to
that model for example it’s rational to
that model for example it’s rational to exercise but do we it’s rational not to
exercise but do we it’s rational not to
exercise but do we it’s rational not to smoke but people do it’s rational to
smoke but people do it’s rational to
smoke but people do it’s rational to save for our future both personally and
save for our future both personally and
save for our future both personally and in business but we don’t always it’s
in business but we don’t always it’s
in business but we don’t always it’s rational that climate change is
rational that climate change is
rational that climate change is happening but are we taking action so
happening but are we taking action so
happening but are we taking action so the rational action kind of world this
the rational action kind of world this
the rational action kind of world this presumption that this is it and the
presumption that this is it and the
presumption that this is it and the whole thing is all we need isn’t quite
whole thing is all we need isn’t quite
whole thing is all we need isn’t quite true in my paid-up member of the
true in my paid-up member of the
true in my paid-up member of the rational action world I noticed
rational action world I noticed
rational action world I noticed something
something
something I started in technology very rational I
I started in technology very rational I
I started in technology very rational I moved across two processes very
moved across two processes very
moved across two processes very action-oriented and then curious why
action-oriented and then curious why
action-oriented and then curious why things didn’t happen I started looking
things didn’t happen I started looking
things didn’t happen I started looking around and I realized there was
around and I realized there was
around and I realized there was something missing in this model do you
something missing in this model do you
something missing in this model do you know what it was people I know shocking
know what it was people I know shocking
know what it was people I know shocking huh
huh
huh so in this world of rational action
so in this world of rational action
so in this world of rational action there’s people and people like us if we
there’s people and people like us if we
there’s people and people like us if we love it we might do it if we hate it
love it we might do it if we hate it
love it we might do it if we hate it no not gonna happen so the missing part
no not gonna happen so the missing part
no not gonna happen so the missing part part of this model was we actually had
part of this model was we actually had
part of this model was we actually had to put feelings in there
to put feelings in there
to put feelings in there now in my rational world that is not
now in my rational world that is not
now in my rational world that is not Nick was not an acceptable term to use
Nick was not an acceptable term to use
Nick was not an acceptable term to use feelings were not meant to be seen in
feelings were not meant to be seen in
feelings were not meant to be seen in corporate but there they were there are
corporate but there they were there are
corporate but there they were there are powerful and then I looked at this and I
powerful and then I looked at this and I
powerful and then I looked at this and I was like okay this is much much better
was like okay this is much much better
was like okay this is much much better but have you ever noticed with feelings
but have you ever noticed with feelings
but have you ever noticed with feelings you can take something like love and
you can take something like love and
you can take something like love and love to me own or it can be pulled
love to me own or it can be pulled
love to me own or it can be pulled together and used as a force that really
together and used as a force that really
together and used as a force that really creates change or take a feeling like
creates change or take a feeling like
creates change or take a feeling like anger it can just be destructive and
anger it can just be destructive and
anger it can just be destructive and will go out there or can be channeled
will go out there or can be channeled
will go out there or can be channeled equally powerfully we’ve seen this with
equally powerfully we’ve seen this with
equally powerfully we’ve seen this with people like Nelson Mandela Ghandi
people like Nelson Mandela Ghandi
people like Nelson Mandela Ghandi well-known or we can see it in the
well-known or we can see it in the
well-known or we can see it in the modern world with people like Oprah
modern world with people like Oprah
modern world with people like Oprah Winfrey with Queen Elizabeth and Malala
Winfrey with Queen Elizabeth and Malala
Winfrey with Queen Elizabeth and Malala it turns out there’s a fourth element in
it turns out there’s a fourth element in
it turns out there’s a fourth element in this model it’s values
and when you start putting these
and when you start putting these together it gets very very powerful but
together it gets very very powerful but
together it gets very very powerful but let’s have a quick look 87 percent of
let’s have a quick look 87 percent of
let’s have a quick look 87 percent of the standard and poor stock market
the standard and poor stock market
the standard and poor stock market indexes intangible things we can’t touch
indexes intangible things we can’t touch
indexes intangible things we can’t touch just 13% is real 95% of our decisions do
just 13% is real 95% of our decisions do
just 13% is real 95% of our decisions do not come from the rational mind and
not come from the rational mind and
not come from the rational mind and there’s something even deeper have you
there’s something even deeper have you
there’s something even deeper have you ever felt frustrated seen someone
ever felt frustrated seen someone
ever felt frustrated seen someone mistreated and felt something rise up
mistreated and felt something rise up
mistreated and felt something rise up inside it turns out that there’s things
inside it turns out that there’s things
inside it turns out that there’s things that are past being human other beings
that are past being human other beings
that are past being human other beings also feel that fairness is a value worth
also feel that fairness is a value worth
also feel that fairness is a value worth caring for so values are an important
caring for so values are an important
caring for so values are an important part of our existence so I put this
part of our existence so I put this
part of our existence so I put this model together and used it in my
model together and used it in my
model together and used it in my corporate work and what I noticed was
corporate work and what I noticed was
corporate work and what I noticed was when we were doing projects that had
when we were doing projects that had
when we were doing projects that had these four things that was really good
these four things that was really good
these four things that was really good and when we didn’t it didn’t work so
and when we didn’t it didn’t work so
and when we didn’t it didn’t work so well but a good model is good when you
well but a good model is good when you
well but a good model is good when you test it out so let’s have some fun
test it out so let’s have some fun
test it out so let’s have some fun testing it that are the values quotient
testing it that are the values quotient
testing it that are the values quotient let’s dial it down
let’s dial it down
let’s dial it down let’s take values and feeling totally
let’s take values and feeling totally
let’s take values and feeling totally out let’s play with this one news used
out let’s play with this one news used
out let’s play with this one news used to be about information let’s take that
to be about information let’s take that
to be about information let’s take that out so now it’s about fear let’s sell
out so now it’s about fear let’s sell
out so now it’s about fear let’s sell you fear with a little bit of garish
you fear with a little bit of garish
you fear with a little bit of garish curiosity of the drama that’s happening
curiosity of the drama that’s happening
curiosity of the drama that’s happening elsewhere in the world banking I was a
elsewhere in the world banking I was a
elsewhere in the world banking I was a banker so I’m calling it on my own
banker so I’m calling it on my own
banker so I’m calling it on my own industry used to be about trust in
industry used to be about trust in
industry used to be about trust in exchange and then it got all about
exchange and then it got all about
exchange and then it got all about making money from somebody else there
making money from somebody else there
making money from somebody else there was something when the values got lost
was something when the values got lost
was something when the values got lost there was power earlier and then it’s
there was power earlier and then it’s
there was power earlier and then it’s lost now it’s not just business
lost now it’s not just business
lost now it’s not just business cosmetics honey let’s make you insecure
cosmetics honey let’s make you insecure
cosmetics honey let’s make you insecure we want to put makeup on you there’s
we want to put makeup on you there’s
we want to put makeup on you there’s something weird in this world that says
something weird in this world that says
something weird in this world that says we should be selling from the negative
we should be selling from the negative
we should be selling from the negative the fear the insecurities and things
the fear the insecurities and things
the fear the insecurities and things like that look in the business world
like that look in the business world
like that look in the business world we’ve seen uber more recently suffer
we’ve seen uber more recently suffer
we’ve seen uber more recently suffer from a lack of values let’s dial that
from a lack of values let’s dial that
from a lack of values let’s dial that back up again we seek organize a
back up again we seek organize a
back up again we seek organize a like Facebook doing well this is what
like Facebook doing well this is what
like Facebook doing well this is what happens see I need my structure
Airbnb is also values-driven
Airbnb is also values-driven you take old many old companies have
you take old many old companies have
you take old many old companies have very strong value systems that hold them
very strong value systems that hold them
very strong value systems that hold them together through thick and thin so there
together through thick and thin so there
together through thick and thin so there is power in this idea of values now for
is power in this idea of values now for
is power in this idea of values now for me what happened when that pickaxe hit I
me what happened when that pickaxe hit I
me what happened when that pickaxe hit I had lost sight of my values I had been
had lost sight of my values I had been
had lost sight of my values I had been so tied up in this rational action world
so tied up in this rational action world
so tied up in this rational action world the things that were important to me I’d
the things that were important to me I’d
the things that were important to me I’d lost now it was a journey to start
lost now it was a journey to start
lost now it was a journey to start reconnecting with them the first phase
reconnecting with them the first phase
reconnecting with them the first phase was about rediscovery I didn’t have
was about rediscovery I didn’t have
was about rediscovery I didn’t have words I just knew something was out all
words I just knew something was out all
words I just knew something was out all I could do was say this pickaxe has hit
I could do was say this pickaxe has hit
I could do was say this pickaxe has hit me that’s a signal what’s right I
me that’s a signal what’s right I
me that’s a signal what’s right I developed a really simple test does it
developed a really simple test does it
developed a really simple test does it lift me or does it lower me and I used
lift me or does it lower me and I used
lift me or does it lower me and I used that to navigate after a while I could
that to navigate after a while I could
that to navigate after a while I could really start feeling that that clarity
really start feeling that that clarity
really start feeling that that clarity of awe and then the things that kind of
of awe and then the things that kind of
of awe and then the things that kind of kept me down you know that phrase you
kept me down you know that phrase you
kept me down you know that phrase you need to be grounded heard that one I
need to be grounded heard that one I
need to be grounded heard that one I found there was two interpretations
found there was two interpretations
found there was two interpretations there was being ground at being present
there was being ground at being present
there was being ground at being present and then there’s your grounded remember
and then there’s your grounded remember
and then there’s your grounded remember that one as a kid wings clip behave
that one as a kid wings clip behave
that one as a kid wings clip behave yourself don’t do anything go to the
yourself don’t do anything go to the
yourself don’t do anything go to the naughty corner kind of thing that kind
naughty corner kind of thing that kind
naughty corner kind of thing that kind of grounded when we’ve lost it
of grounded when we’ve lost it
of grounded when we’ve lost it my next stage was realizing I actually
my next stage was realizing I actually
my next stage was realizing I actually didn’t know what they were and I could
didn’t know what they were and I could
didn’t know what they were and I could put words to them
put words to them
put words to them so I wrote them up on the wall where
so I wrote them up on the wall where
so I wrote them up on the wall where nobody could see them
nobody could see them
nobody could see them I was scared other people would dismiss
I was scared other people would dismiss
I was scared other people would dismiss me if I shared my values the next stage
me if I shared my values the next stage
me if I shared my values the next stage and phase of this moved on a bit I got
and phase of this moved on a bit I got
and phase of this moved on a bit I got comfortable starting to live them
comfortable starting to live them
comfortable starting to live them actually really putting them in action
actually really putting them in action
actually really putting them in action and that was pretty cool
and that was pretty cool
and that was pretty cool I could start saying the things I really
I could start saying the things I really
I could start saying the things I really really want I am starting to do that
so I have a question for you what are
so I have a question for you what are your values do they lift you do you feel
your values do they lift you do you feel
your values do they lift you do you feel yourself expand for me values are like
yourself expand for me values are like
yourself expand for me values are like wings wings are powerful values are
wings wings are powerful values are
wings wings are powerful values are powerful take a world without wings you
powerful take a world without wings you
powerful take a world without wings you know we have fast cars really cool
know we have fast cars really cool
know we have fast cars really cool thrust inertia momentum all sorts of
thrust inertia momentum all sorts of
thrust inertia momentum all sorts of good things but a world without wings
good things but a world without wings
good things but a world without wings you lose three things you’re stuck on
you lose three things you’re stuck on
you lose three things you’re stuck on the ground you’re on a road of somebody
the ground you’re on a road of somebody
the ground you’re on a road of somebody else’s definition and you can’t get over
else’s definition and you can’t get over
else’s definition and you can’t get over water so values are pretty cool the
water so values are pretty cool the
water so values are pretty cool the other thing is the fastest Falcon is
other thing is the fastest Falcon is
other thing is the fastest Falcon is three times faster than the fastest
three times faster than the fastest
three times faster than the fastest cheetah so if you want to be the fastest
cheetah so if you want to be the fastest
cheetah so if you want to be the fastest thing out get wings so I started playing
thing out get wings so I started playing
thing out get wings so I started playing around with this trying out what worked
around with this trying out what worked
around with this trying out what worked and what didn’t work and then at stage
and what didn’t work and then at stage
and what didn’t work and then at stage three I got to this point where I felt I
three I got to this point where I felt I
three I got to this point where I felt I was truly living this face of balance in
was truly living this face of balance in
was truly living this face of balance in the middle being able to move between my
the middle being able to move between my
the middle being able to move between my rational action world the feelings and
rational action world the feelings and
rational action world the feelings and values and it was kind of coming
values and it was kind of coming
values and it was kind of coming together my corporate work had both
together my corporate work had both
together my corporate work had both sides my artistic work had both sides
but there was that pickaxe showing up
but there was that pickaxe showing up again I was still missing something it
again I was still missing something it
again I was still missing something it takes courage to share my values my
takes courage to share my values my
takes courage to share my values my values are pretty simple I believe we
values are pretty simple I believe we
values are pretty simple I believe we can live in a world based on trust
can live in a world based on trust
can live in a world based on trust passion love and joy on a living planet
passion love and joy on a living planet
passion love and joy on a living planet I don’t like the alternative depression
I don’t like the alternative depression
I don’t like the alternative depression disconnection despair destruction I had
disconnection despair destruction I had
disconnection despair destruction I had to consciously choose my values in my
to consciously choose my values in my
to consciously choose my values in my life I’ve been sexually abused raped
life I’ve been sexually abused raped
life I’ve been sexually abused raped lived through riot revolution coup
lived through riot revolution coup
lived through riot revolution coup d’etat I’ve lost my job
d’etat I’ve lost my job
d’etat I’ve lost my job I’ve lost loved ones I’ve had brushes
I’ve lost loved ones I’ve had brushes
I’ve lost loved ones I’ve had brushes with death and cancer now I share these
with death and cancer now I share these
with death and cancer now I share these because I have dense many of us have
because I have dense many of us have
because I have dense many of us have dense I just found for me values of the
dense I just found for me values of the
dense I just found for me values of the way I could live me and not my dense so
way I could live me and not my dense so
way I could live me and not my dense so they are powerful for me so then the
they are powerful for me so then the
they are powerful for me so then the next phase was having had the courage to
next phase was having had the courage to
next phase was having had the courage to share and start showing up was moving
share and start showing up was moving
share and start showing up was moving along and starting to navigate the
along and starting to navigate the
along and starting to navigate the currents of what does it actually mean
currents of what does it actually mean
currents of what does it actually mean to live in this particular way the next
to live in this particular way the next
to live in this particular way the next time the pickaxe hit it was less of a
time the pickaxe hit it was less of a
time the pickaxe hit it was less of a pickaxe it was more of a baseball bat
pickaxe it was more of a baseball bat
pickaxe it was more of a baseball bat you know it came in loud and strong
you know it came in loud and strong
you know it came in loud and strong I lost a relationship I carried about
I lost a relationship I carried about
I lost a relationship I carried about clients that have been long-standing
clients that have been long-standing
clients that have been long-standing stop paying and I was in a situation
stop paying and I was in a situation
stop paying and I was in a situation where I really didn’t know what to do
where I really didn’t know what to do
where I really didn’t know what to do I’m on skype talking with my mum and she
I’m on skype talking with my mum and she
I’m on skype talking with my mum and she goes what are you gonna do Anna and this
goes what are you gonna do Anna and this
goes what are you gonna do Anna and this voice in me said art how you support
voice in me said art how you support
voice in me said art how you support yourself was the next question so there
yourself was the next question so there
yourself was the next question so there I am no home no money and art the
I am no home no money and art the
I am no home no money and art the craziest thing I was being called to
craziest thing I was being called to
craziest thing I was being called to live my values at a greater level
live my values at a greater level
live my values at a greater level can I trust I can step forward and
can I trust I can step forward and
can I trust I can step forward and there’s something there passion will I
there’s something there passion will I
there’s something there passion will I live my passion and actually have the
live my passion and actually have the
live my passion and actually have the art love will I be open to receive all
art love will I be open to receive all
art love will I be open to receive all the love and support that’s around me to
the love and support that’s around me to
the love and support that’s around me to make this possible joy will I enjoy
make this possible joy will I enjoy
make this possible joy will I enjoy myself while I’m doing it and do it in a
myself while I’m doing it and do it in a
myself while I’m doing it and do it in a way
way
way that’s living and sustainable so that
that’s living and sustainable so that
that’s living and sustainable so that was a pretty big step what it led to was
was a pretty big step what it led to was
was a pretty big step what it led to was showing up properly as an artist I
showing up properly as an artist I
showing up properly as an artist I started creating paintings that
started creating paintings that
started creating paintings that expressed the feeling I wanted to be
expressed the feeling I wanted to be
expressed the feeling I wanted to be uplifted passion joy ecstasy bliss love
uplifted passion joy ecstasy bliss love
uplifted passion joy ecstasy bliss love and to fly I created my first set of
and to fly I created my first set of
and to fly I created my first set of wings because I wanted to fly me with my
wings because I wanted to fly me with my
wings because I wanted to fly me with my wings I didn’t want little wings I
wings I didn’t want little wings I
wings I didn’t want little wings I wanted a wings that could fly and then I
wanted a wings that could fly and then I
wanted a wings that could fly and then I found once I’d created my wings I could
found once I’d created my wings I could
found once I’d created my wings I could start giving them to other people and
start giving them to other people and
start giving them to other people and sharing them with other people
at different ages and stages this was a
at different ages and stages this was a lot of fun mr. universe that was cool
lot of fun mr. universe that was cool
lot of fun mr. universe that was cool and experiences my question to you at
and experiences my question to you at
and experiences my question to you at this moment is do you have your wings
this moment is do you have your wings
this moment is do you have your wings and are you enjoying them then came the
and are you enjoying them then came the
and are you enjoying them then came the next stage of this refining and
next stage of this refining and
next stage of this refining and exploring I realized I had a few more
exploring I realized I had a few more
exploring I realized I had a few more values I was learning to live in the
values I was learning to live in the
values I was learning to live in the process I had to have courage to show up
trust with the courage showing up with
trust with the courage showing up with the passion and on the love side I
the passion and on the love side I
the passion and on the love side I actually had to go and value what I
actually had to go and value what I
actually had to go and value what I created values are intensely powerful
created values are intensely powerful
created values are intensely powerful they are the things that define our
they are the things that define our
they are the things that define our world and the clearer each of us is on
world and the clearer each of us is on
world and the clearer each of us is on what they are the more lifts you can
what they are the more lifts you can
what they are the more lifts you can have the further your wings can take you
and that is why when I was asked to be
and that is why when I was asked to be artist-in-residence here Andrey said to
artist-in-residence here Andrey said to
artist-in-residence here Andrey said to me eight weeks ago when got the email to
me eight weeks ago when got the email to
me eight weeks ago when got the email to say would you be artist-in-residence it
say would you be artist-in-residence it
say would you be artist-in-residence it was what would be an artwork that would
was what would be an artwork that would
was what would be an artwork that would express this what would represent the
express this what would represent the
express this what would represent the infinite possibilities of the values
infinite possibilities of the values
infinite possibilities of the values that Ted and I have in common
that Ted and I have in common
that Ted and I have in common it’s that ideas are butterflies if any
it’s that ideas are butterflies if any
it’s that ideas are butterflies if any of you remember chaos theory that
of you remember chaos theory that
of you remember chaos theory that butterfly over the Amazon the butterfly
butterfly over the Amazon the butterfly
butterfly over the Amazon the butterfly wings that change the world and so we
wings that change the world and so we
wings that change the world and so we created it the backdrop out of the most
created it the backdrop out of the most
created it the backdrop out of the most intangible of items light space and
intangible of items light space and
intangible of items light space and paper andrey will tell you more about
paper andrey will tell you more about
paper andrey will tell you more about the story behind it
the story behind it
the story behind it so enjoy your journey of your wings
so enjoy your journey of your wings
so enjoy your journey of your wings wherever they are I have no idea what
wherever they are I have no idea what
wherever they are I have no idea what the next stage will be but it will be
the next stage will be but it will be
the next stage will be but it will be fun and live your values
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