however in many sentences script illustrations of expectations on pages
illustrations of expectations on pages
illustrations of expectations on pages just to make sense of them a woman with
just to make sense of them a woman with
just to make sense of them a woman with many faces one for every day of the week
many faces one for every day of the week
many faces one for every day of the week one for different places
one for different places
one for different places now I’m engaged to my efforts mark to
now I’m engaged to my efforts mark to
now I’m engaged to my efforts mark to the goals I wish to obtain is when you
the goals I wish to obtain is when you
the goals I wish to obtain is when you hit bottom the rules of the game change
hit bottom the rules of the game change
hit bottom the rules of the game change you must have techniques the comfort and
you must have techniques the comfort and
you must have techniques the comfort and feel the game holes created in your
feel the game holes created in your
feel the game holes created in your childhood
childhood
childhood and when you read are the lessons you
and when you read are the lessons you
and when you read are the lessons you come to realize these four questions
come to realize these four questions
come to realize these four questions what did you study when we get up when
what did you study when we get up when
what did you study when we get up when we get a cup when will you buy a house
we get a cup when will you buy a house
we get a cup when will you buy a house so consciously asking when will you buy
so consciously asking when will you buy
so consciously asking when will you buy happiness as if all the answers never
happiness as if all the answers never
happiness as if all the answers never met me and the problem is the only been
met me and the problem is the only been
met me and the problem is the only been to me I know is a broke addict and I’m
to me I know is a broke addict and I’m
to me I know is a broke addict and I’m not the kind to let spare change define
not the kind to let spare change define
not the kind to let spare change define me so I keep writing because to me was
me so I keep writing because to me was
me so I keep writing because to me was and for like knows currency and entangle
and for like knows currency and entangle
and for like knows currency and entangle the knots created to stop me from living
the knots created to stop me from living
the knots created to stop me from living not created by my very own people to
not created by my very own people to
not created by my very own people to separate me from life choices I’m
separate me from life choices I’m
separate me from life choices I’m entitled to I was a committee to be a
entitled to I was a committee to be a
entitled to I was a committee to be a doctor because even my thoughts bleed my
doctor because even my thoughts bleed my
doctor because even my thoughts bleed my creativity is that an illness and even
creativity is that an illness and even
creativity is that an illness and even falcata tests see shrinks I used to be a
falcata tests see shrinks I used to be a
falcata tests see shrinks I used to be a student this woman of little words how
student this woman of little words how
student this woman of little words how many many sentences now writing the
many many sentences now writing the
many many sentences now writing the world
world
world [Music]
my name is estimated by the way I was
my name is estimated by the way I was born in a small village half an hour
born in a small village half an hour
born in a small village half an hour away from with Metheny it’s called a
away from with Metheny it’s called a
away from with Metheny it’s called a scope within Hindi when I was 1 years
scope within Hindi when I was 1 years
scope within Hindi when I was 1 years old I moved to England with my mom and
old I moved to England with my mom and
old I moved to England with my mom and dad and over there I had a childhood
dad and over there I had a childhood
dad and over there I had a childhood that basically I there was similar to my
that basically I there was similar to my
that basically I there was similar to my brothers I didn’t have to do specific
brothers I didn’t have to do specific
brothers I didn’t have to do specific things because I was a girl when I
things because I was a girl when I
things because I was a girl when I played a sports and my brother played
played a sports and my brother played
played a sports and my brother played sport I played sports when my brother
sport I played sports when my brother
sport I played sports when my brother and I had to do work in the kitchen we
and I had to do work in the kitchen we
and I had to do work in the kitchen we both did work in the kitchen so this is
both did work in the kitchen so this is
both did work in the kitchen so this is the kind of opinion that I had even
the kind of opinion that I had even
the kind of opinion that I had even though I’m a girl I’m gonna do the same
though I’m a girl I’m gonna do the same
though I’m a girl I’m gonna do the same things that my brother did so the person
things that my brother did so the person
things that my brother did so the person I came to sit down I was 11 years old
I came to sit down I was 11 years old
I came to sit down I was 11 years old and I remember I was playing the kids
and I remember I was playing the kids
and I remember I was playing the kids were playing in the village with the
were playing in the village with the
were playing in the village with the boys and then I went out I tried to join
boys and then I went out I tried to join
boys and then I went out I tried to join it and then I couldn’t get it she held
it and then I couldn’t get it she held
it and then I couldn’t get it she held me and she pulled me to the side said
me and she pulled me to the side said
me and she pulled me to the side said quietly this is only boys play so I got
quietly this is only boys play so I got
quietly this is only boys play so I got to England
to England
to England this kind of idea came into my head that
this kind of idea came into my head that
this kind of idea came into my head that girls shouldn’t do things so in high
girls shouldn’t do things so in high
girls shouldn’t do things so in high school at rates
school at rates
school at rates I played track and field I did something
I played track and field I did something
I played track and field I did something similar to baseball but the UVA version
similar to baseball but the UVA version
similar to baseball but the UVA version did these things when I went to after
did these things when I went to after
did these things when I went to after school clubs and my parents used to
school clubs and my parents used to
school clubs and my parents used to bring me after school they didn’t mind
bring me after school they didn’t mind
bring me after school they didn’t mind me doing these different things once I
me doing these different things once I
me doing these different things once I finished high school I decided that
finished high school I decided that
finished high school I decided that because I went to Muslim girls school
because I went to Muslim girls school
because I went to Muslim girls school it’s okay to me to play sports but now
it’s okay to me to play sports but now
it’s okay to me to play sports but now I’m a grown woman
I’m a grown woman
I’m a grown woman actually not with simonpullen österlen
actually not with simonpullen österlen
actually not with simonpullen österlen our families so I stopped playing and
our families so I stopped playing and
our families so I stopped playing and then I went to university and during my
then I went to university and during my
then I went to university and during my used in university the first year I was
used in university the first year I was
used in university the first year I was really really depressed and anxious than
really really depressed and anxious than
really really depressed and anxious than I and I wasn’t enjoying myself so I
I and I wasn’t enjoying myself so I
I and I wasn’t enjoying myself so I decided to learn a new sport so after I
decided to learn a new sport so after I
decided to learn a new sport so after I decided this decision I went to the
decided this decision I went to the
decided this decision I went to the Sports Hall and I found that they had
Sports Hall and I found that they had
Sports Hall and I found that they had women’s basketball
women’s basketball
women’s basketball so I played basketball for a year and
so I played basketball for a year and
so I played basketball for a year and then after that year I went to my
then after that year I went to my
then after that year I went to my parents and I started up with my dad and
parents and I started up with my dad and
parents and I started up with my dad and I told him look this is something that I
I told him look this is something that I
I told him look this is something that I love doing this is something that I’m to
love doing this is something that I’m to
love doing this is something that I’m to continue doing my whole life hey you
continue doing my whole life hey you
continue doing my whole life hey you okay and he told me that he was very
okay and he told me that he was very
okay and he told me that he was very happy with this decision I made and
happy with this decision I made and
happy with this decision I made and really wanted me to pursue sports and he
really wanted me to pursue sports and he
really wanted me to pursue sports and he asked me like I want to do this and I
asked me like I want to do this and I
asked me like I want to do this and I told him that I feel like I learned and
told him that I feel like I learned and
told him that I feel like I learned and I enjoy myself so much in this spot and
I enjoy myself so much in this spot and
I enjoy myself so much in this spot and I want other women to play sports – so
I want other women to play sports – so
I want other women to play sports – so sorry so
so after I spoke to my dad I decided
so after I spoke to my dad I decided about seriously so I went and did my
about seriously so I went and did my
about seriously so I went and did my doctor call for notification so that I
doctor call for notification so that I
doctor call for notification so that I can be a basketball coach throughout the
can be a basketball coach throughout the
can be a basketball coach throughout the years I played basketball I was able to
years I played basketball I was able to
years I played basketball I was able to travel to about four five different
travel to about four five different
travel to about four five different countries I was able to learn team
countries I was able to learn team
countries I was able to learn team skills I was able to grow as a person
skills I was able to grow as a person
skills I was able to grow as a person and gain confidence so in 2015 I decided
and gain confidence so in 2015 I decided
and gain confidence so in 2015 I decided I wanted to do something that I always
I wanted to do something that I always
I wanted to do something that I always wanted to pursue and that was writing
wanted to pursue and that was writing
wanted to pursue and that was writing poetry I was writing poetry since the
poetry I was writing poetry since the
poetry I was writing poetry since the age of 8 years old and I never shared
age of 8 years old and I never shared
age of 8 years old and I never shared with people so I decided I was going to
with people so I decided I was going to
with people so I decided I was going to do this and I enter the competition with
do this and I enter the competition with
do this and I enter the competition with BBC and I won the competition
and then I use the platform to start
and then I use the platform to start speaking about issues that I felt were
speaking about issues that I felt were
speaking about issues that I felt were relevant to me so this was women in
relevant to me so this was women in
relevant to me so this was women in sports some of this was willing in
sports some of this was willing in
sports some of this was willing in general in society some of it was about
general in society some of it was about
general in society some of it was about just being from Sudan because I come
just being from Sudan because I come
just being from Sudan because I come every single year and I’m still learning
every single year and I’m still learning
every single year and I’m still learning about myself and my roots and my
about myself and my roots and my
about myself and my roots and my identity so without the support of my
identity so without the support of my
identity so without the support of my family and the encouragement I wouldn’t
family and the encouragement I wouldn’t
family and the encouragement I wouldn’t have been where I am today they’ve
have been where I am today they’ve
have been where I am today they’ve always supported my journey and even
always supported my journey and even
always supported my journey and even when I when I was younger and I wanted
when I when I was younger and I wanted
when I when I was younger and I wanted to study I almost went into engineering
to study I almost went into engineering
to study I almost went into engineering basically or architecture but then I
basically or architecture but then I
basically or architecture but then I spoke to my dad and he I told him that I
spoke to my dad and he I told him that I
spoke to my dad and he I told him that I don’t want to be like everyone else I
don’t want to be like everyone else I
don’t want to be like everyone else I don’t want to do engineering and I don’t
don’t want to do engineering and I don’t
don’t want to do engineering and I don’t want to do to be a doctor so when I had
want to do to be a doctor so when I had
want to do to be a doctor so when I had this conversation with my dad he asked
this conversation with my dad he asked
this conversation with my dad he asked me why I wanted to like ride the arts so
me why I wanted to like ride the arts so
me why I wanted to like ride the arts so I used I told him that I like to be
I used I told him that I like to be
I used I told him that I like to be creative and I like to do all these
creative and I like to do all these
creative and I like to do all these different things where I’m expressing
different things where I’m expressing
different things where I’m expressing myself so doing my degree in photography
myself so doing my degree in photography
myself so doing my degree in photography and video and then I did a master’s in
and video and then I did a master’s in
and video and then I did a master’s in visual art enough in my work as an
visual art enough in my work as an
visual art enough in my work as an artist and a poet I combine all these
artist and a poet I combine all these
artist and a poet I combine all these things the sports the visual arts and
things the sports the visual arts and
things the sports the visual arts and the poetry and I’m just
the poetry and I’m just
the poetry and I’m just this poem is really dear to me because
this poem is really dear to me because
this poem is really dear to me because it reflects on the situation that we’re
it reflects on the situation that we’re
it reflects on the situation that we’re in now where a lot of women in Sudan
in now where a lot of women in Sudan
in now where a lot of women in Sudan especially once they get married it’s
especially once they get married it’s
especially once they get married it’s like their personality from the book is
like their personality from the book is
like their personality from the book is dragged away left forgotten and I want
dragged away left forgotten and I want
dragged away left forgotten and I want to always preserve the identity that a
to always preserve the identity that a
to always preserve the identity that a woman had before she got her that’s for
woman had before she got her that’s for
woman had before she got her that’s for us to do and he may not be as
us to do and he may not be as
us to do and he may not be as understanding because he wasn’t that the
understanding because he wasn’t that the
understanding because he wasn’t that the first
laughing the times I married my
laughing the times I married my stretching zone
stretching zone
stretching zone [Music]
in them the watches I worked it between
in them the watches I worked it between the chapters of my adolescence the bags
the chapters of my adolescence the bags
the chapters of my adolescence the bags like having a carry from one country to
like having a carry from one country to
like having a carry from one country to another before her wedding day sisters
another before her wedding day sisters
another before her wedding day sisters and daughters moved into hearth and
and daughters moved into hearth and
and daughters moved into hearth and mothers with had enough to have made to
mothers with had enough to have made to
mothers with had enough to have made to save I work for ourselves
save I work for ourselves
save I work for ourselves [Applause]
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