you [Applause]
if I were to go to five people in this
if I were to go to five people in this room and ask them what they wanted to be
room and ask them what they wanted to be
room and ask them what they wanted to be when they grow up they would probably
when they grow up they would probably
when they grow up they would probably all tell me the same thing happy and
all tell me the same thing happy and
all tell me the same thing happy and don’t get me wrong that’s not a bad
don’t get me wrong that’s not a bad
don’t get me wrong that’s not a bad thing in fact I don’t blame them one of
thing in fact I don’t blame them one of
thing in fact I don’t blame them one of the largest circumstances of the human
the largest circumstances of the human
the largest circumstances of the human condition it’s a desire state in which
condition it’s a desire state in which
condition it’s a desire state in which everything is in total equilibrium a
everything is in total equilibrium a
everything is in total equilibrium a state in which everything is in its
state in which everything is in its
state in which everything is in its place the scale is only straight when
place the scale is only straight when
place the scale is only straight when happy and sad coexist so don’t spread
happy and sad coexist so don’t spread
happy and sad coexist so don’t spread yourself too thin
yourself too thin
yourself too thin Gary depth within you it’s only natural
Gary depth within you it’s only natural
Gary depth within you it’s only natural that we seek solace in our lives in
that we seek solace in our lives in
that we seek solace in our lives in spite of our plights we shun every ounce
spite of our plights we shun every ounce
spite of our plights we shun every ounce of misfortune from our stories in hopes
of misfortune from our stories in hopes
of misfortune from our stories in hopes of forging a life of solely happiness
of forging a life of solely happiness
of forging a life of solely happiness and so when I ask you what you want to
and so when I ask you what you want to
and so when I ask you what you want to be when you grow up you will probably
be when you grow up you will probably
be when you grow up you will probably say happy but I always found it kind of
say happy but I always found it kind of
say happy but I always found it kind of silly to construct myself and my life
silly to construct myself and my life
silly to construct myself and my life using my best moment as my crutches for
using my best moment as my crutches for
using my best moment as my crutches for a while I didn’t realize you don’t
a while I didn’t realize you don’t
a while I didn’t realize you don’t always need to be happy to feel whole
always need to be happy to feel whole
always need to be happy to feel whole and you most definitely do not need to
and you most definitely do not need to
and you most definitely do not need to feel inclined to pry happiness from skin
feel inclined to pry happiness from skin
feel inclined to pry happiness from skin that’s tried out believe me forcing
that’s tried out believe me forcing
that’s tried out believe me forcing yourself to laugh is just as hard as
yourself to laugh is just as hard as
yourself to laugh is just as hard as forcing yourself to get up in the
forcing yourself to get up in the
forcing yourself to get up in the morning for school or for a nine-to-five
morning for school or for a nine-to-five
morning for school or for a nine-to-five or for anything and some people like to
or for anything and some people like to
or for anything and some people like to tell me that no one will love you when
tell me that no one will love you when
tell me that no one will love you when you’re sad
you’re sad
you’re sad that’s forklifting fabricated positivity
that’s forklifting fabricated positivity
that’s forklifting fabricated positivity from the pit of your stomach when it
from the pit of your stomach when it
from the pit of your stomach when it feels like your world is crumbling
feels like your world is crumbling
feels like your world is crumbling around you as somehow so much better
around you as somehow so much better
around you as somehow so much better than being honest with yourself and so
than being honest with yourself and so
than being honest with yourself and so they tell you to force it plus your
they tell you to force it plus your
they tell you to force it plus your happiness on your face until it becomes
happiness on your face until it becomes
happiness on your face until it becomes your middle name see consistent
your middle name see consistent
your middle name see consistent happiness is too good to be true it’s
happiness is too good to be true it’s
happiness is too good to be true it’s not sustainable
not sustainable
not sustainable I found myself straying from happiness
I found myself straying from happiness
I found myself straying from happiness far too often and over time I began to
far too often and over time I began to
far too often and over time I began to hate myself for feeling emotions I
hate myself for feeling emotions I
hate myself for feeling emotions I didn’t learn in elementary school so I
didn’t learn in elementary school so I
didn’t learn in elementary school so I hid them away concealed them to stain my
hid them away concealed them to stain my
hid them away concealed them to stain my pillowcases instead of my friends a
pillowcases instead of my friends a
pillowcases instead of my friends a smile was our default but little did we
smile was our default but little did we
smile was our default but little did we know that the more we hid our sadness
know that the more we hid our sadness
know that the more we hid our sadness the more it ate us up from the inside
the more it ate us up from the inside
the more it ate us up from the inside out I’ll tell you one thing I went
out I’ll tell you one thing I went
out I’ll tell you one thing I went through high school like this I’ll tell
through high school like this I’ll tell
through high school like this I’ll tell you another thing it’s still the biggest
you another thing it’s still the biggest
you another thing it’s still the biggest mistake I made to date shying away from
mistake I made to date shying away from
mistake I made to date shying away from confronting my feelings in lieu of
confronting my feelings in lieu of
confronting my feelings in lieu of finding comfort in them it kept me from
finding comfort in them it kept me from
finding comfort in them it kept me from growing
and I’m not saying that you can’t be
and I’m not saying that you can’t be happy but when you lose the authenticity
happy but when you lose the authenticity
happy but when you lose the authenticity and find yourself laughing for the sake
and find yourself laughing for the sake
and find yourself laughing for the sake of putting your feelings on hold happy
of putting your feelings on hold happy
of putting your feelings on hold happy can wait
can wait
can wait happiness isn’t always honest take it
happiness isn’t always honest take it
happiness isn’t always honest take it from me it’s one of the easiest emotions
from me it’s one of the easiest emotions
from me it’s one of the easiest emotions you can forge physically so let yourself
you can forge physically so let yourself
you can forge physically so let yourself Uriel just this once
Uriel just this once
Uriel just this once for your sake and not saying
for your sake and not saying
for your sake and not saying sadness gives you a free pass to
sadness gives you a free pass to
sadness gives you a free pass to complain I’m saying to use it as a tool
complain I’m saying to use it as a tool
complain I’m saying to use it as a tool to be better think better share better
to be better think better share better
to be better think better share better find relief in the bad days and some
find relief in the bad days and some
find relief in the bad days and some people ask me if I’ve had bad days and
people ask me if I’ve had bad days and
people ask me if I’ve had bad days and it’d be nice to say no granted my days
it’d be nice to say no granted my days
it’d be nice to say no granted my days can be bad they can most definitely be
can be bad they can most definitely be
can be bad they can most definitely be ugly and I probably can’t name all the
ugly and I probably can’t name all the
ugly and I probably can’t name all the planets in our universe but I can tell
planets in our universe but I can tell
planets in our universe but I can tell you that because of failure I’ve seen
you that because of failure I’ve seen
you that because of failure I’ve seen enough Suns and moons to be able to tell
enough Suns and moons to be able to tell
enough Suns and moons to be able to tell people I made it I see I write poetry
people I made it I see I write poetry
people I made it I see I write poetry which means day to day drawback is do
which means day to day drawback is do
which means day to day drawback is do more good than harm it’s more ammunition
more good than harm it’s more ammunition
more good than harm it’s more ammunition poetry has been my very own balancing
poetry has been my very own balancing
poetry has been my very own balancing act and my sadness has only been
act and my sadness has only been
act and my sadness has only been preached as a tool to teach I feel with
preached as a tool to teach I feel with
preached as a tool to teach I feel with every fibre the skin is drawn with and
every fibre the skin is drawn with and
every fibre the skin is drawn with and sometimes I don’t let myself feel hurt
sometimes I don’t let myself feel hurt
sometimes I don’t let myself feel hurt when I need to I see I write poetry I
when I need to I see I write poetry I
when I need to I see I write poetry I was never one to believe in myself
was never one to believe in myself
was never one to believe in myself without a struggle
without a struggle
without a struggle I fought tsunamis off with my bare fists
I fought tsunamis off with my bare fists
I fought tsunamis off with my bare fists before I could tell myself this life
before I could tell myself this life
before I could tell myself this life wasn’t for me and for the longest time
wasn’t for me and for the longest time
wasn’t for me and for the longest time I’ve watched people make homes out of
I’ve watched people make homes out of
I’ve watched people make homes out of streets with hearts heavier than their
streets with hearts heavier than their
streets with hearts heavier than their own rib cages to new limbs into
own rib cages to new limbs into
own rib cages to new limbs into conversation please don’t tell me
conversation please don’t tell me
conversation please don’t tell me resilience is a direct result of
resilience is a direct result of
resilience is a direct result of happiness we derive strength from being
happiness we derive strength from being
happiness we derive strength from being too human
too human
too human take boxing lessons from heartbreak to
take boxing lessons from heartbreak to
take boxing lessons from heartbreak to learn to use our fists for the punchline
learn to use our fists for the punchline
learn to use our fists for the punchline of a joke instead of a hospital bed for
of a joke instead of a hospital bed for
of a joke instead of a hospital bed for our enemies we never learned from
our enemies we never learned from
our enemies we never learned from perfection so forcing ourselves to feel
perfection so forcing ourselves to feel
perfection so forcing ourselves to feel like we’re in a constant rotation of
like we’re in a constant rotation of
like we’re in a constant rotation of happiness is only a recipe for disaster
happiness is only a recipe for disaster
happiness is only a recipe for disaster he was nine years old when I saw him cry
he was nine years old when I saw him cry
he was nine years old when I saw him cry for the first time he’s got brown skin
for the first time he’s got brown skin
for the first time he’s got brown skin from playing out in the Sun too long
from playing out in the Sun too long
from playing out in the Sun too long got his head stuck in a cabinet don’t
got his head stuck in a cabinet don’t
got his head stuck in a cabinet don’t know how it happened but it did
know how it happened but it did
know how it happened but it did I told the baby this is only the
I told the baby this is only the
I told the baby this is only the beginning
beginning
beginning you’re gonna get your head stuck in a
you’re gonna get your head stuck in a
you’re gonna get your head stuck in a lot of cabinets and he looks at me
lot of cabinets and he looks at me
lot of cabinets and he looks at me and I hit him and I realized sometimes
and I hit him and I realized sometimes
and I hit him and I realized sometimes tears say a lot more than laughter I
tears say a lot more than laughter I
tears say a lot more than laughter I want to tell him that every time he
want to tell him that every time he
want to tell him that every time he cries another part of me dies he reminds
cries another part of me dies he reminds
cries another part of me dies he reminds me that I’m not afraid to ride my
me that I’m not afraid to ride my
me that I’m not afraid to ride my tragedies so caught up in her
tragedies so caught up in her
tragedies so caught up in her manifestations of happiness we forget we
manifestations of happiness we forget we
manifestations of happiness we forget we have other feelings too because you
have other feelings too because you
have other feelings too because you don’t just tell someone who’s mom and
don’t just tell someone who’s mom and
don’t just tell someone who’s mom and dad splits left die to look on the
dad splits left die to look on the
dad splits left die to look on the bright side because you don’t tell
bright side because you don’t tell
bright side because you don’t tell someone you forget what it’s like to
someone you forget what it’s like to
someone you forget what it’s like to wake up in the morning to find the light
wake up in the morning to find the light
wake up in the morning to find the light at the end of the tunnel because you
at the end of the tunnel because you
at the end of the tunnel because you don’t shut yourself on autopilot when
don’t shut yourself on autopilot when
don’t shut yourself on autopilot when someone tells you there’s only lights in
someone tells you there’s only lights in
someone tells you there’s only lights in a world of balance because sometimes we
a world of balance because sometimes we
a world of balance because sometimes we need darkness to show us exactly what we
need darkness to show us exactly what we
need darkness to show us exactly what we fight for exactly what we value we are
fight for exactly what we value we are
fight for exactly what we value we are all man-made crafted but holy digits we
all man-made crafted but holy digits we
all man-made crafted but holy digits we are raw and so I’m learning to unlearn
are raw and so I’m learning to unlearn
are raw and so I’m learning to unlearn what prevented me from understanding
what prevented me from understanding
what prevented me from understanding that sometimes adversity can teach us so
that sometimes adversity can teach us so
that sometimes adversity can teach us so much more than pretending we’re always
much more than pretending we’re always
much more than pretending we’re always okay thank you
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