so I’m happy and that isn’t some great revelation but for me last couple years
revelation but for me last couple years
revelation but for me last couple years have been in this kind of state of
have been in this kind of state of
have been in this kind of state of dissonance and there’s this voice in the
dissonance and there’s this voice in the
dissonance and there’s this voice in the back of my mind that just kind of
back of my mind that just kind of
back of my mind that just kind of screams because I don’t know what I’m
screams because I don’t know what I’m
screams because I don’t know what I’m doing and I have a big decision to make
doing and I have a big decision to make
doing and I have a big decision to make and so even when I have decided
and so even when I have decided
and so even when I have decided it doesn’t really shut up because well I
it doesn’t really shut up because well I
it doesn’t really shut up because well I don’t know if it was the right choice or
don’t know if it was the right choice or
don’t know if it was the right choice or not and for me one of those huge
not and for me one of those huge
not and for me one of those huge decisions was coming here actually to
decisions was coming here actually to
decisions was coming here actually to Emily Carr University of Art in design
Emily Carr University of Art in design
Emily Carr University of Art in design so even as a kid I never knew what I was
so even as a kid I never knew what I was
so even as a kid I never knew what I was doing I didn’t know I didn’t have a plan
doing I didn’t know I didn’t have a plan
doing I didn’t know I didn’t have a plan or calling I didn’t know what I wanted
or calling I didn’t know what I wanted
or calling I didn’t know what I wanted to grow up to be and so at around 12 I
to grow up to be and so at around 12 I
to grow up to be and so at around 12 I thought hey it’d be cool to be a teacher
thought hey it’d be cool to be a teacher
thought hey it’d be cool to be a teacher and I went with it and I made a plan so
and I went with it and I made a plan so
and I went with it and I made a plan so I would go study how to teach go to
I would go study how to teach go to
I would go study how to teach go to university away from home and go through
university away from home and go through
university away from home and go through all that independence learning how to be
all that independence learning how to be
all that independence learning how to be an adult thing and none of that happened
an adult thing and none of that happened
an adult thing and none of that happened so I’m still at home I’m here studying
so I’m still at home I’m here studying
so I’m still at home I’m here studying industrial design and I feel like I’m
industrial design and I feel like I’m
industrial design and I feel like I’m the farthest from having my life
the farthest from having my life
the farthest from having my life together it wasn’t even my idea to apply
together it wasn’t even my idea to apply
together it wasn’t even my idea to apply so attending national portfolio day that
so attending national portfolio day that
so attending national portfolio day that was part of a mandatory art class I took
was part of a mandatory art class I took
was part of a mandatory art class I took in high school and national portfolio
in high school and national portfolio
in high school and national portfolio day for those who don’t know is where
day for those who don’t know is where
day for those who don’t know is where representatives from art schools around
representatives from art schools around
representatives from art schools around the country nation they come and
the country nation they come and
the country nation they come and critique and review artists work and so
critique and review artists work and so
critique and review artists work and so on that day I sat stood in line for
on that day I sat stood in line for
on that day I sat stood in line for hours stellen my way through 10-minute
hours stellen my way through 10-minute
hours stellen my way through 10-minute conversation and ended up walking away
conversation and ended up walking away
conversation and ended up walking away saying hey this is just a learning
saying hey this is just a learning
saying hey this is just a learning experience because I didn’t think it’d
experience because I didn’t think it’d
experience because I didn’t think it’d be anything else and so even though I
be anything else and so even though I
be anything else and so even though I loved what I did I just that’s what I
loved what I did I just that’s what I
loved what I did I just that’s what I took it as and a couple weeks later I
took it as and a couple weeks later I
took it as and a couple weeks later I got a letter and I had gotten in I was
got a letter and I had gotten in I was
got a letter and I had gotten in I was excited but I still dismissed it because
excited but I still dismissed it because
excited but I still dismissed it because it wasn’t my pal and I wasn’t going to
it wasn’t my pal and I wasn’t going to
it wasn’t my pal and I wasn’t going to come here and then my brother told me to
come here and then my brother told me to
come here and then my brother told me to go and even though I was still as
go and even though I was still as
go and even though I was still as hesitant as before I trusted his opinion
hesitant as before I trusted his opinion
hesitant as before I trusted his opinion and so on the day of the acceptance
and so on the day of the acceptance
and so on the day of the acceptance deadline I took my offer and came here
deadline I took my offer and came here
deadline I took my offer and came here to Emily Carr but that whole uncertainty
to Emily Carr but that whole uncertainty
to Emily Carr but that whole uncertainty the discomfort it did not end there and
the discomfort it did not end there and
the discomfort it did not end there and I still feel that way even last semester
I still feel that way even last semester
I still feel that way even last semester I was working on this project and
I was working on this project and
I was working on this project and I struggled for months and felt like I
I struggled for months and felt like I
I struggled for months and felt like I came up with nothing so the whole idea
came up with nothing so the whole idea
came up with nothing so the whole idea of it was the brief asked our class to
of it was the brief asked our class to
of it was the brief asked our class to come up with a design for Vancouver 2035
come up with a design for Vancouver 2035
come up with a design for Vancouver 2035 as if the downtown core was motor free
as if the downtown core was motor free
as if the downtown core was motor free human-powered and for me which is a
human-powered and for me which is a
human-powered and for me which is a person who can barely figure out what
person who can barely figure out what
person who can barely figure out what I’m doing a month from now 20 years was
I’m doing a month from now 20 years was
I’m doing a month from now 20 years was such a long time and so I struggled I
such a long time and so I struggled I
such a long time and so I struggled I really did and came up with a whole
really did and came up with a whole
really did and came up with a whole bunch of ideas and then I tossed those
bunch of ideas and then I tossed those
bunch of ideas and then I tossed those aside and had to stick with one and that
aside and had to stick with one and that
aside and had to stick with one and that changed as well and it changed again and
changed as well and it changed again and
changed as well and it changed again and finally I came up with something that
finally I came up with something that
finally I came up with something that kind of resembled a final version and so
kind of resembled a final version and so
kind of resembled a final version and so every project for me is kind of like
every project for me is kind of like
every project for me is kind of like that this whole panic uncertainty before
that this whole panic uncertainty before
that this whole panic uncertainty before I kind of have to figure out my way and
I kind of have to figure out my way and
I kind of have to figure out my way and that’s part of it that’s how I’m getting
that’s part of it that’s how I’m getting
that’s part of it that’s how I’m getting comfortable with things like this and
comfortable with things like this and
comfortable with things like this and the whole unknown is going through a lot
the whole unknown is going through a lot
the whole unknown is going through a lot a lot of practice and something else
a lot of practice and something else
a lot of practice and something else that I’ve learned at the school actually
that I’ve learned at the school actually
that I’ve learned at the school actually is it’s not just practice it’s also
is it’s not just practice it’s also
is it’s not just practice it’s also finding a way to work through and being
finding a way to work through and being
finding a way to work through and being actively working towards something even
actively working towards something even
actively working towards something even if I don’t know what it is and that was
if I don’t know what it is and that was
if I don’t know what it is and that was the principle behind this hundred ideas
the principle behind this hundred ideas
the principle behind this hundred ideas hundred ideas challenge sorry that I did
hundred ideas challenge sorry that I did
hundred ideas challenge sorry that I did for a health lab project and so it was
for a health lab project and so it was
for a health lab project and so it was we had to come up with a hundred
we had to come up with a hundred
we had to come up with a hundred different ideas within two weeks and to
different ideas within two weeks and to
different ideas within two weeks and to present that and even though there were
present that and even though there were
present that and even though there were a team of six of us by the time we
a team of six of us by the time we
a team of six of us by the time we reached like 50 we were struggling and
reached like 50 we were struggling and
reached like 50 we were struggling and it end up being strange things like
it end up being strange things like
it end up being strange things like fruit puns and floor projections and
fruit puns and floor projections and
fruit puns and floor projections and ugly produce but the thing is even
ugly produce but the thing is even
ugly produce but the thing is even though we didn’t use those ideas they
though we didn’t use those ideas they
though we didn’t use those ideas they were really important and it didn’t end
were really important and it didn’t end
were really important and it didn’t end up seeming so at first but we needed to
up seeming so at first but we needed to
up seeming so at first but we needed to hear those ideas because it contributed
hear those ideas because it contributed
hear those ideas because it contributed to that creative space and to that final
to that creative space and to that final
to that creative space and to that final design and so yeah it’s a lot of
design and so yeah it’s a lot of
design and so yeah it’s a lot of practice yeah it’s a lot of just working
practice yeah it’s a lot of just working
practice yeah it’s a lot of just working at it but it’s also a lot of failing and
at it but it’s also a lot of failing and
at it but it’s also a lot of failing and it’s a lot of trial and error and it’s a
it’s a lot of trial and error and it’s a
it’s a lot of trial and error and it’s a lot of doubting yourself along the way
lot of doubting yourself along the way
lot of doubting yourself along the way but not being able to stop anyway and
but not being able to stop anyway and
but not being able to stop anyway and that kind of leads me to where my
that kind of leads me to where my
that kind of leads me to where my current project is at and so my class
current project is at and so my class
current project is at and so my class right now is asking us to talk and work
right now is asking us to talk and work
right now is asking us to talk and work around medical design and healthcare and
around medical design and healthcare and
around medical design and healthcare and what that means to us and personally
what that means to us and personally
what that means to us and personally that means positive psychology and
that means positive psychology and
that means positive psychology and Happiness and seeing the benefits on
Happiness and seeing the benefits on
Happiness and seeing the benefits on physical health through all of that and
physical health through all of that and
physical health through all of that and so
so
so I started doing research and finding
I started doing research and finding
I started doing research and finding inspiration from these artists in the
inspiration from these artists in the
inspiration from these artists in the designers scientist all wondering like
designers scientist all wondering like
designers scientist all wondering like what makes people happy and it brought
what makes people happy and it brought
what makes people happy and it brought me not necessarily answers but more
me not necessarily answers but more
me not necessarily answers but more questions so what makes people happy can
questions so what makes people happy can
questions so what makes people happy can you make people happy and if it has
you make people happy and if it has
you make people happy and if it has anything to do with our community our
anything to do with our community our
anything to do with our community our relationships and even what it means is
relationships and even what it means is
relationships and even what it means is the location like Vancouver so wondering
the location like Vancouver so wondering
the location like Vancouver so wondering all these questions walking through them
all these questions walking through them
all these questions walking through them and thinking about them I didn’t
and thinking about them I didn’t
and thinking about them I didn’t necessarily come up with answers but I
necessarily come up with answers but I
necessarily come up with answers but I did gain a really great insight into
did gain a really great insight into
did gain a really great insight into other people’s emotional experiences and
other people’s emotional experiences and
other people’s emotional experiences and what that came a lot of understanding of
what that came a lot of understanding of
what that came a lot of understanding of my own and I came here to the school I
my own and I came here to the school I
my own and I came here to the school I had no idea what I was doing and even
had no idea what I was doing and even
had no idea what I was doing and even right now I have even just no clue at
right now I have even just no clue at
right now I have even just no clue at all but I’m still not quite that scared
all but I’m still not quite that scared
all but I’m still not quite that scared anymore and I’m starting to realize it’s
anymore and I’m starting to realize it’s
anymore and I’m starting to realize it’s because of those moments that I have
because of those moments that I have
because of those moments that I have become who I am and I’ve kind of started
become who I am and I’ve kind of started
become who I am and I’ve kind of started seeing them as opportunities for
seeing them as opportunities for
seeing them as opportunities for something better
something better
something better even though it’s still uncomfortable
even though it’s still uncomfortable
even though it’s still uncomfortable even though I still don’t really like it
even though I still don’t really like it
even though I still don’t really like it I am really glad that I’ve had those
I am really glad that I’ve had those
I am really glad that I’ve had those times in my life I found my happiness in
times in my life I found my happiness in
times in my life I found my happiness in the uncertainty and I hope you will too
the uncertainty and I hope you will too
the uncertainty and I hope you will too [Applause]
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