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[Music]

[Music] my mom was on drugs for most of my life

my mom was on drugs for most of my life

my mom was on drugs for most of my life my brother my brother died of brain

my brother my brother died of brain

my brother my brother died of brain cancer in 1996 my father was never

cancer in 1996 my father was never

cancer in 1996 my father was never around that’s my apartment complex when

around that’s my apartment complex when

around that’s my apartment complex when I was younger its condemned it should

I was younger its condemned it should

I was younger its condemned it should have been condemned in this is my

have been condemned in this is my

have been condemned in this is my photography everyone please say see me

photography everyone please say see me

photography everyone please say see me then I was always kind of different I

then I was always kind of different I

then I was always kind of different I was running from home I felt like

was running from home I felt like

was running from home I felt like everybody close to me was doing me wrong

everybody close to me was doing me wrong

everybody close to me was doing me wrong a lot of people didn’t see me I traveled

a lot of people didn’t see me I traveled

a lot of people didn’t see me I traveled alone I named myself odd rod when I was

alone I named myself odd rod when I was

alone I named myself odd rod when I was out of my own and while my friends were

out of my own and while my friends were

out of my own and while my friends were selling drugs I was studying math why

selling drugs I was studying math why

selling drugs I was studying math why would I worsen a condition that was

would I worsen a condition that was

would I worsen a condition that was already bad you see if everybody’s cool

already bad you see if everybody’s cool

already bad you see if everybody’s cool then I’d rather be hot I could never let

then I’d rather be hot I could never let

then I’d rather be hot I could never let my image be a person I’m not a notice it

my image be a person I’m not a notice it

my image be a person I’m not a notice it was poetry you should have seen me then

was poetry you should have seen me then

was poetry you should have seen me then searching for a way to beat the drum I

searching for a way to beat the drum I

searching for a way to beat the drum I was in crack it stole my momma I don’t

was in crack it stole my momma I don’t

was in crack it stole my momma I don’t know what stole my daddy but you asked

know what stole my daddy but you asked

know what stole my daddy but you asked me what I died for them and I will tell

me what I died for them and I will tell

me what I died for them and I will tell you gladly forgiveness in this warrior

you gladly forgiveness in this warrior

you gladly forgiveness in this warrior was troubled when I came but I’ve been

was troubled when I came but I’ve been

was troubled when I came but I’ve been writing poetry before I knew her name

writing poetry before I knew her name

writing poetry before I knew her name you got to hit my story see I’m prepared

you got to hit my story see I’m prepared

you got to hit my story see I’m prepared to fight I had a lot of lonely days in

to fight I had a lot of lonely days in

to fight I had a lot of lonely days in suicidal nights but God allowed me

suicidal nights but God allowed me

suicidal nights but God allowed me poetry he said that I’m his prince that

poetry he said that I’m his prince that

poetry he said that I’m his prince that though I wasn’t meant to be I’m still no

though I wasn’t meant to be I’m still no

though I wasn’t meant to be I’m still no accident so when I write I’m living

accident so when I write I’m living

accident so when I write I’m living breath being my pen I was dead before

breath being my pen I was dead before

breath being my pen I was dead before all they should have seen me then and

all they should have seen me then and

all they should have seen me then and now to reach my city I scroll down

now to reach my city I scroll down

now to reach my city I scroll down survival I got them trying to bootleg

survival I got them trying to bootleg

survival I got them trying to bootleg poems before the books arrival their

poems before the books arrival their

poems before the books arrival their kids are looking at me my past provides

kids are looking at me my past provides

kids are looking at me my past provides their future lyrically murdered in their

their future lyrically murdered in their

their future lyrically murdered in their rooms and I’ve been named the shooter I

rooms and I’ve been named the shooter I

rooms and I’ve been named the shooter I claim full responsibility the blood is

claim full responsibility the blood is

claim full responsibility the blood is on my hands I’m writing things in ways

on my hands I’m writing things in ways

on my hands I’m writing things in ways that all my people understand and we’re

that all my people understand and we’re

that all my people understand and we’re about no critics one level with no

about no critics one level with no

about no critics one level with no scholars and you can see accomplishments

scholars and you can see accomplishments

scholars and you can see accomplishments through medals on my collar the silver

through medals on my collar the silver

through medals on my collar the silver hands for lives I saved the golden wings

hands for lives I saved the golden wings

hands for lives I saved the golden wings for flight the Purple Heart for loving

for flight the Purple Heart for loving

for flight the Purple Heart for loving those who didn’t treat me right so lay

those who didn’t treat me right so lay

those who didn’t treat me right so lay your eyes upon me and tell me that

your eyes upon me and tell me that

your eyes upon me and tell me that you’re proud instead of being dead or

you’re proud instead of being dead or

you’re proud instead of being dead or jailed I’ve been rocking crowds and that

jailed I’ve been rocking crowds and that

jailed I’ve been rocking crowds and that is rare where I come from survival is

is rare where I come from survival is

is rare where I come from survival is unheard not everyone is blessed to be

unheard not everyone is blessed to be

unheard not everyone is blessed to be immortalized in words

immortalized in words

immortalized in words thus I live forever my losses carry

thus I live forever my losses carry

thus I live forever my losses carry winds because I’ve come from nothing and

winds because I’ve come from nothing and

winds because I’ve come from nothing and you should have seen me then

[Applause]

[Applause] then I was broken I was suicidal when my

then I was broken I was suicidal when my

then I was broken I was suicidal when my brother died of brain cancer I felt like

brother died of brain cancer I felt like

brother died of brain cancer I felt like it couldn’t be that hard to die I wanted

it couldn’t be that hard to die I wanted

it couldn’t be that hard to die I wanted to go with him everyone please say stay

to go with him everyone please say stay

to go with him everyone please say stay with feet that leave the chair you hear

with feet that leave the chair you hear

with feet that leave the chair you hear the tightening of the rope a grip that

the tightening of the rope a grip that

the tightening of the rope a grip that catches neck and hair but fails to

catches neck and hair but fails to

catches neck and hair but fails to capture hope there’s no antidote to

capture hope there’s no antidote to

capture hope there’s no antidote to suicide besides you loving you you’re

suicide besides you loving you you’re

suicide besides you loving you you’re the sum of all the things your life has

the sum of all the things your life has

the sum of all the things your life has brought you through and yes we need you

brought you through and yes we need you

brought you through and yes we need you here we do your presence has no question

here we do your presence has no question

here we do your presence has no question you’re thinking you should leave here

you’re thinking you should leave here

you’re thinking you should leave here we’re thinking that you mustn’t it’s

we’re thinking that you mustn’t it’s

we’re thinking that you mustn’t it’s okay to discuss it sometimes you have to

okay to discuss it sometimes you have to

okay to discuss it sometimes you have to cry

cry

cry the people who remove themselves regret

the people who remove themselves regret

the people who remove themselves regret the day they die for there’s no chance

the day they die for there’s no chance

the day they die for there’s no chance to fix tomorrow if tomorrow isn’t here

to fix tomorrow if tomorrow isn’t here

to fix tomorrow if tomorrow isn’t here they think of how they’re needed right

they think of how they’re needed right

they think of how they’re needed right before they disappear and I remember all

before they disappear and I remember all

before they disappear and I remember all my darker days I thought to take me down

my darker days I thought to take me down

my darker days I thought to take me down I even wrote the letter that they find

I even wrote the letter that they find

I even wrote the letter that they find when I was found I often fantasize my

when I was found I often fantasize my

when I was found I often fantasize my funeral the sounds of disbelief cars

funeral the sounds of disbelief cars

funeral the sounds of disbelief cars with flashing hazard lights parading

with flashing hazard lights parading

with flashing hazard lights parading through the streets but I felt better

through the streets but I felt better

through the streets but I felt better keeping me because I ran into my purpose

keeping me because I ran into my purpose

keeping me because I ran into my purpose I saved me to let you know that keeping

I saved me to let you know that keeping

I saved me to let you know that keeping you is worth it I’ve seen funerals of

you is worth it I’ve seen funerals of

you is worth it I’ve seen funerals of co-workers that I had once befriended

co-workers that I had once befriended

co-workers that I had once befriended they went and punched a time clock way

they went and punched a time clock way

they went and punched a time clock way before their shift that ended left their

before their shift that ended left their

before their shift that ended left their children and their friends their parents

children and their friends their parents

children and their friends their parents and their wives left them all with all

and their wives left them all with all

and their wives left them all with all these questions billing rivers from

these questions billing rivers from

these questions billing rivers from their eyes among us are those people who

their eyes among us are those people who

their eyes among us are those people who have secretly been hurting we never know

have secretly been hurting we never know

have secretly been hurting we never know until they go and hang themselves like

until they go and hang themselves like

until they go and hang themselves like curtains the saddest of the draperies a

curtains the saddest of the draperies a

curtains the saddest of the draperies a curtain shouldn’t found we wonder why

curtain shouldn’t found we wonder why

curtain shouldn’t found we wonder why they did it when we go to pull them down

they did it when we go to pull them down

they did it when we go to pull them down I’m awfully glad I stayed around because

I’m awfully glad I stayed around because

I’m awfully glad I stayed around because I see that I was meant my momma tells me

I see that I was meant my momma tells me

I see that I was meant my momma tells me all the time that I was having sent that

all the time that I was having sent that

all the time that I was having sent that she was feeling spent and she was

she was feeling spent and she was

she was feeling spent and she was feeling low and she would talk to God

feeling low and she would talk to God

feeling low and she would talk to God like I’m about to let this go so you can

like I’m about to let this go so you can

like I’m about to let this go so you can have this back I’ll lead this life no

have this back I’ll lead this life no

have this back I’ll lead this life no more and you don’t have to send for me

more and you don’t have to send for me

more and you don’t have to send for me I’ll meet you at your door but she

I’ll meet you at your door but she

I’ll meet you at your door but she decided not and she fought through it

decided not and she fought through it

decided not and she fought through it all and that is one more life that we

all and that is one more life that we

all and that is one more life that we don’t have to see recalled and I

don’t have to see recalled and I

don’t have to see recalled and I remained as well and that has made me

remained as well and that has made me

remained as well and that has made me grow I share with folks my life and

grow I share with folks my life and

grow I share with folks my life and they’ve been calling this a show now she

they’ve been calling this a show now she

they’ve been calling this a show now she sits on that road and I stand on this

sits on that road and I stand on this

sits on that road and I stand on this stage and everything we are is because

stage and everything we are is because

stage and everything we are is because we made the choice to stay so stay

when I was younger my mom would always

when I was younger my mom would always tell me that she was gonna write Oprah

tell me that she was gonna write Oprah

tell me that she was gonna write Oprah my mom did not graduate high school and

my mom did not graduate high school and

my mom did not graduate high school and she wasn’t the best writer so when she

she wasn’t the best writer so when she

she wasn’t the best writer so when she would tell me that I was like I don’t

would tell me that I was like I don’t

would tell me that I was like I don’t know what that letters gonna look like

know what that letters gonna look like

know what that letters gonna look like mama and she would always tell me that

mama and she would always tell me that

mama and she would always tell me that and I thought it was just nothing and

and I thought it was just nothing and

and I thought it was just nothing and then as I grew older she said it again

then as I grew older she said it again

then as I grew older she said it again and I was like I understand you everyone

and I was like I understand you everyone

and I was like I understand you everyone please say her wish mama remember when

please say her wish mama remember when

please say her wish mama remember when you said you wish you could write Oprah

you said you wish you could write Oprah

you said you wish you could write Oprah I knew what you were saying we had a

I knew what you were saying we had a

I knew what you were saying we had a moment on that sofa

moment on that sofa

moment on that sofa I had the attention of a cobra in the

I had the attention of a cobra in the

I had the attention of a cobra in the presence of a charmer I saw me as your

presence of a charmer I saw me as your

presence of a charmer I saw me as your crop I saw you as my farmer every mother

crop I saw you as my farmer every mother

crop I saw you as my farmer every mother in this world believes their baby is a

in this world believes their baby is a

in this world believes their baby is a star so they pushed him to pianos and

star so they pushed him to pianos and

star so they pushed him to pianos and they stick them with guitars but mom you

they stick them with guitars but mom you

they stick them with guitars but mom you wanted Oprah and I imagine with you that

wanted Oprah and I imagine with you that

wanted Oprah and I imagine with you that moment thinking if I had the chance my

moment thinking if I had the chance my

moment thinking if I had the chance my confidence will let me own it you watch

confidence will let me own it you watch

confidence will let me own it you watch me overcome opponents even when you

me overcome opponents even when you

me overcome opponents even when you stood as one I used to hate to pass you

stood as one I used to hate to pass you

stood as one I used to hate to pass you by on the streets when I was young when

by on the streets when I was young when

by on the streets when I was young when I was young I took my writing and used

I was young I took my writing and used

I was young I took my writing and used that to save my life

that to save my life

that to save my life I took a suicidal poem and wrote away

I took a suicidal poem and wrote away

I took a suicidal poem and wrote away from suicide I know you’d love to

from suicide I know you’d love to

from suicide I know you’d love to contact Oprah you are not the best at

contact Oprah you are not the best at

contact Oprah you are not the best at letters I see you looking at the phone

letters I see you looking at the phone

letters I see you looking at the phone as if a call would be much better you

as if a call would be much better you

as if a call would be much better you want the world to know your help or you

want the world to know your help or you

want the world to know your help or you say the city’s not enough for there are

say the city’s not enough for there are

say the city’s not enough for there are folks who grab your ankles when they see

folks who grab your ankles when they see

folks who grab your ankles when they see you rising up you say that if we contact

you rising up you say that if we contact

you rising up you say that if we contact Oprah you get far son you get far and I

Oprah you get far son you get far and I

Oprah you get far son you get far and I can’t wait for you to show the world

can’t wait for you to show the world

can’t wait for you to show the world what soldiers do with scars or what

what soldiers do with scars or what

what soldiers do with scars or what Walker’s do with cars or what drivers do

Walker’s do with cars or what drivers do

Walker’s do with cars or what drivers do it planes you let these people know your

it planes you let these people know your

it planes you let these people know your story if they never know your name you

story if they never know your name you

story if they never know your name you show the world what you’ve been through

show the world what you’ve been through

show the world what you’ve been through baby and I’m gonna contact Oprah I

baby and I’m gonna contact Oprah I

baby and I’m gonna contact Oprah I wanted this when you were young I want

wanted this when you were young I want

wanted this when you were young I want it more now that you’re older you have

it more now that you’re older you have

it more now that you’re older you have more Angels on your shoulder I’ve been

more Angels on your shoulder I’ve been

more Angels on your shoulder I’ve been clean for many years I used to walk the

clean for many years I used to walk the

clean for many years I used to walk the streets alone at night with dreams of

streets alone at night with dreams of

streets alone at night with dreams of being here had no idea of all the hurt I

being here had no idea of all the hurt I

being here had no idea of all the hurt I caused I’m sorry for the strife I’m

caused I’m sorry for the strife I’m

caused I’m sorry for the strife I’m overjoyed you took the pain and made

overjoyed you took the pain and made

overjoyed you took the pain and made yourself a better life I had the best of

yourself a better life I had the best of

yourself a better life I had the best of riders ride and got no diploma from no

riders ride and got no diploma from no

riders ride and got no diploma from no school but everything I never did I feel

school but everything I never did I feel

school but everything I never did I feel I’ve done it all through you you best

I’ve done it all through you you best

I’ve done it all through you you best believe I’m going right Oprah might not

believe I’m going right Oprah might not

believe I’m going right Oprah might not spill my words correct but she will

spill my words correct but she will

spill my words correct but she will understand my heart because that’s all

understand my heart because that’s all

understand my heart because that’s all that I have left I’ve been to jail and

that I have left I’ve been to jail and

that I have left I’ve been to jail and I’ve been back I got some friends that’s

I’ve been back I got some friends that’s

I’ve been back I got some friends that’s still on crack I Drive the streets I’ve

still on crack I Drive the streets I’ve

still on crack I Drive the streets I’ve walked in that as proof that God will

walked in that as proof that God will

walked in that as proof that God will build from scratch and I know just what

build from scratch and I know just what

build from scratch and I know just what you mean mama your journey made us

you mean mama your journey made us

you mean mama your journey made us closer you don’t forget to ride because

closer you don’t forget to ride because

closer you don’t forget to ride because you made it off the coaster

you made it off the coaster

you made it off the coaster I wrote my story out on paper now they

I wrote my story out on paper now they

I wrote my story out on paper now they put my face on posters I show up at all

put my face on posters I show up at all

put my face on posters I show up at all my shows like mama I can’t wait to show

my shows like mama I can’t wait to show

my shows like mama I can’t wait to show us we made the very best of life we have

us we made the very best of life we have

us we made the very best of life we have them chapters closing over in a book

them chapters closing over in a book

them chapters closing over in a book that’ll save some lies mama even if we

that’ll save some lies mama even if we

that’ll save some lies mama even if we don’t reach Oprah

don’t reach Oprah

don’t reach Oprah [Applause]

[Applause]

[Applause] my mom isn’t clean for 12 years now son

my mom isn’t clean for 12 years now son

my mom isn’t clean for 12 years now son believable such a blessing she decided

believable such a blessing she decided

believable such a blessing she decided she wanted to cook Thanksgiving dinner a

she wanted to cook Thanksgiving dinner a

she wanted to cook Thanksgiving dinner a few years ago it was a big deal my

few years ago it was a big deal my

few years ago it was a big deal my grandma did that and my mom was a good

grandma did that and my mom was a good

grandma did that and my mom was a good cook but dessert dessert was on his own

cook but dessert dessert was on his own

cook but dessert dessert was on his own table and I decided that I was going to

table and I decided that I was going to

table and I decided that I was going to go for dessert it was a lot of cakes and

go for dessert it was a lot of cakes and

go for dessert it was a lot of cakes and it was one pie so I was like I may eat

it was one pie so I was like I may eat

it was one pie so I was like I may eat the pie it’s gonna be good

the pie it’s gonna be good

the pie it’s gonna be good so I tried the pie african-americans

so I tried the pie african-americans

so I tried the pie african-americans don’t cook pumpkin pie we cook sweet

don’t cook pumpkin pie we cook sweet

don’t cook pumpkin pie we cook sweet potato pie

potato pie

potato pie and my mom didn’t know that and she

and my mom didn’t know that and she

and my mom didn’t know that and she cooked that pumpkin pie there and uh it

cooked that pumpkin pie there and uh it

cooked that pumpkin pie there and uh it was horrible

was horrible

was horrible and I told her that it was bad and I

and I told her that it was bad and I

and I told her that it was bad and I told her from the bathroom and I she’s

told her from the bathroom and I she’s

told her from the bathroom and I she’s been through worse and I wrote a poem

been through worse and I wrote a poem

been through worse and I wrote a poem about it

about it

about it everyone please say pumpkin pie the

everyone please say pumpkin pie the

everyone please say pumpkin pie the pumpkin pie I offended

pumpkin pie I offended

pumpkin pie I offended it wasn’t prepared at its best but what

it wasn’t prepared at its best but what

it wasn’t prepared at its best but what are the terms of the mother birds worms

are the terms of the mother birds worms

are the terms of the mother birds worms that she hustles back to the nest you

that she hustles back to the nest you

that she hustles back to the nest you see my mother did more than dig tunnels

see my mother did more than dig tunnels

see my mother did more than dig tunnels her burdens were heavy to tote for she

her burdens were heavy to tote for she

her burdens were heavy to tote for she had been wounded by hunters and they

had been wounded by hunters and they

had been wounded by hunters and they shot it down with their dope lost all

shot it down with their dope lost all

shot it down with their dope lost all that she knew and became a victim of

that she knew and became a victim of

that she knew and became a victim of crack and cocaine a bordello that barely

crack and cocaine a bordello that barely

crack and cocaine a bordello that barely could float but knew how to hold onto

could float but knew how to hold onto

could float but knew how to hold onto planes they say things get better with

planes they say things get better with

planes they say things get better with time I watched my watch watching me back

time I watched my watch watching me back

time I watched my watch watching me back the ticks in the stalks of her heart in

the ticks in the stalks of her heart in

the ticks in the stalks of her heart in my cart were forcing me close to the

my cart were forcing me close to the

my cart were forcing me close to the tracks while I laid me away from our

tracks while I laid me away from our

tracks while I laid me away from our problems and I’d laid me away from our

problems and I’d laid me away from our

problems and I’d laid me away from our walls

walls

walls I watched Batman watch over Gotham well

I watched Batman watch over Gotham well

I watched Batman watch over Gotham well God was with me I suppose supposed to be

God was with me I suppose supposed to be

God was with me I suppose supposed to be dead as a teen but I made it to college

dead as a teen but I made it to college

dead as a teen but I made it to college instead I fought through my low

instead I fought through my low

instead I fought through my low self-esteem I picked up a pen and I fled

self-esteem I picked up a pen and I fled

self-esteem I picked up a pen and I fled my mother did all that she could she

my mother did all that she could she

my mother did all that she could she wanted to be there she did but drugs are

wanted to be there she did but drugs are

wanted to be there she did but drugs are like termites on wood and they ate away

like termites on wood and they ate away

like termites on wood and they ate away thoughts of her kids we all have our

thoughts of her kids we all have our

thoughts of her kids we all have our faults in our fights my mother fought

faults in our fights my mother fought

faults in our fights my mother fought her faults for years where I was

her faults for years where I was

her faults for years where I was influenced to write what she was

influenced to write what she was

influenced to write what she was influenced by peers was her who decided

influenced by peers was her who decided

influenced by peers was her who decided to change was her who decided to live we

to change was her who decided to live we

to change was her who decided to live we both held our heads through the rain and

both held our heads through the rain and

both held our heads through the rain and that is what landed us here I got my mom

that is what landed us here I got my mom

that is what landed us here I got my mom back y’all should know she’s been such a

back y’all should know she’s been such a

back y’all should know she’s been such a force on my rhyme now God may not coming

force on my rhyme now God may not coming

force on my rhyme now God may not coming you call but when he arrives it’s on

you call but when he arrives it’s on

you call but when he arrives it’s on time that’s why I say more than just

time that’s why I say more than just

time that’s why I say more than just poems my life has been more than just

poems my life has been more than just

poems my life has been more than just verse I think of my mom and performed

verse I think of my mom and performed

verse I think of my mom and performed i watch to come back from her worse and

i watch to come back from her worse and

i watch to come back from her worse and as bad as that pie was prepared I ate it

as bad as that pie was prepared I ate it

as bad as that pie was prepared I ate it with little regret for the chef had been

with little regret for the chef had been

with little regret for the chef had been bruised past repair but she shows that

bruised past repair but she shows that

bruised past repair but she shows that she ain’t gave up yes I made it to

she ain’t gave up yes I made it to

she ain’t gave up yes I made it to college out everything that was going on

college out everything that was going on

college out everything that was going on I made it to college on a full

I made it to college on a full

I made it to college on a full scholarship it was amazing College was

scholarship it was amazing College was

scholarship it was amazing College was the University of North Florida and it

the University of North Florida and it

the University of North Florida and it was built on a like a National Preserve

was built on a like a National Preserve

was built on a like a National Preserve and I’m from the hood so I never seen

and I’m from the hood so I never seen

and I’m from the hood so I never seen some of the things that I’d seen in

some of the things that I’d seen in

some of the things that I’d seen in college it was a beautiful lake and it

college it was a beautiful lake and it

college it was a beautiful lake and it was deer and geese out there

was deer and geese out there

was deer and geese out there never seen that not in the hood so I got

never seen that not in the hood so I got

never seen that not in the hood so I got back home and I was like guys I talked

back home and I was like guys I talked

back home and I was like guys I talked to all my friends who a lot of made some

to all my friends who a lot of made some

to all my friends who a lot of made some bad decisions selling drugs or whatever

bad decisions selling drugs or whatever

bad decisions selling drugs or whatever but I will tell them y’all got to go to

but I will tell them y’all got to go to

but I will tell them y’all got to go to college whatever you do go to college

college whatever you do go to college

college whatever you do go to college they have keys they would always tell me

they have keys they would always tell me

they have keys they would always tell me this phrase well college ain’t for

this phrase well college ain’t for

this phrase well college ain’t for everybody and I recently saw my

everybody and I recently saw my

everybody and I recently saw my transcript from college because I do

transcript from college because I do

transcript from college because I do this for a living and I hadn’t used my

this for a living and I hadn’t used my

this for a living and I hadn’t used my scholarship or my college education not

scholarship or my college education not

scholarship or my college education not the traditional way but I’m super

the traditional way but I’m super

the traditional way but I’m super thankful that I do have it all so I

thankful that I do have it all so I

thankful that I do have it all so I wrote this piece called transcript

wrote this piece called transcript

wrote this piece called transcript everyone please say transcripts I got

everyone please say transcripts I got

everyone please say transcripts I got the transcript from our college hadn’t

the transcript from our college hadn’t

the transcript from our college hadn’t used them since I love it in school that

used them since I love it in school that

used them since I love it in school that makes you smarter but I’m sure that

makes you smarter but I’m sure that

makes you smarter but I’m sure that college helps sometimes that teacher

college helps sometimes that teacher

college helps sometimes that teacher ain’t gonna reach you there are mornings

ain’t gonna reach you there are mornings

ain’t gonna reach you there are mornings our zone lesson plans are on the board

our zone lesson plans are on the board

our zone lesson plans are on the board but in my mind I made it home

but in my mind I made it home

but in my mind I made it home they don’t make clones for college

they don’t make clones for college

they don’t make clones for college students you weren’t there and you

students you weren’t there and you

students you weren’t there and you aren’t passing it was tough to lose my

aren’t passing it was tough to lose my

aren’t passing it was tough to lose my mind and have to use it in those classes

mind and have to use it in those classes

mind and have to use it in those classes I got the transcript for my college

I got the transcript for my college

I got the transcript for my college never opened them to see what they read

never opened them to see what they read

never opened them to see what they read or what they said just had to make away

or what they said just had to make away

or what they said just had to make away from me and yes I want to get my masters

from me and yes I want to get my masters

from me and yes I want to get my masters just to say I did that too it seems like

just to say I did that too it seems like

just to say I did that too it seems like people treat you different when you’ve

people treat you different when you’ve

people treat you different when you’ve made it far in school

made it far in school

made it far in school I watched friends not get promoted it

I watched friends not get promoted it

I watched friends not get promoted it was said they lacked credentials it’s a

was said they lacked credentials it’s a

was said they lacked credentials it’s a shame to not be chosen when you know you

shame to not be chosen when you know you

shame to not be chosen when you know you have potential and the suit with less

have potential and the suit with less

have potential and the suit with less experience has just become your boss

experience has just become your boss

experience has just become your boss they are setting up their office while

they are setting up their office while

they are setting up their office while you stand there looking lost because you

you stand there looking lost because you

you stand there looking lost because you will have to train them and you’ll

will have to train them and you’ll

will have to train them and you’ll struggle with that notion you said

struggle with that notion you said

struggle with that notion you said college ain’t for everyone well neither

college ain’t for everyone well neither

college ain’t for everyone well neither are promotions or corner offices or

are promotions or corner offices or

are promotions or corner offices or raises or cubicles with plaques or paper

raises or cubicles with plaques or paper

raises or cubicles with plaques or paper weights or pendulums or chairs that lean

weights or pendulums or chairs that lean

weights or pendulums or chairs that lean far back or our breaks or vacations or

far back or our breaks or vacations or

far back or our breaks or vacations or parking spots up front or using company

parking spots up front or using company

parking spots up front or using company cars and company cards to pay for lunch

cars and company cards to pay for lunch

cars and company cards to pay for lunch so you got to educate you got to push

so you got to educate you got to push

so you got to educate you got to push yourself ahead subject yourself unto

yourself ahead subject yourself unto

yourself ahead subject yourself unto your subject so nobody takes your bread

your subject so nobody takes your bread

your subject so nobody takes your bread I got the transcript from our college

I got the transcript from our college

I got the transcript from our college Christmas gifts I never opened got them

Christmas gifts I never opened got them

Christmas gifts I never opened got them just to say I got them for completion

just to say I got them for completion

just to say I got them for completion shows devotion

shows devotion

shows devotion and fulfillment gives emotions that you

and fulfillment gives emotions that you

and fulfillment gives emotions that you never seem to lose now schooling make me

never seem to lose now schooling make me

never seem to lose now schooling make me smarter but I was smart to go to school

smarter but I was smart to go to school

smarter but I was smart to go to school because I’m my boss my grandfather

because I’m my boss my grandfather

because I’m my boss my grandfather raised me he was very important he

raised me he was very important he

raised me he was very important he taught me so much one of the things that

taught me so much one of the things that

taught me so much one of the things that he taught me is that older people can

he taught me is that older people can

he taught me is that older people can say things that don’t make sense and

say things that don’t make sense and

say things that don’t make sense and pass it off as wisdom

pass it off as wisdom

pass it off as wisdom grandfather was very wise how so smart

grandfather was very wise how so smart

grandfather was very wise how so smart so amazing so quick wit amazing I

so amazing so quick wit amazing I

so amazing so quick wit amazing I remember him not like I didn’t do

remember him not like I didn’t do

remember him not like I didn’t do something when I came in the house one

something when I came in the house one

something when I came in the house one day and he was like hey I told you to

day and he was like hey I told you to

day and he was like hey I told you to cut the grass and you didn’t do that I

cut the grass and you didn’t do that I

cut the grass and you didn’t do that I don’t chew my cabbage twice so what I

don’t chew my cabbage twice so what I

don’t chew my cabbage twice so what I don’t you my cat we’re at Cracker Barrel

don’t you my cat we’re at Cracker Barrel

don’t you my cat we’re at Cracker Barrel one day we like to eat a Cracker Barrel

one day we like to eat a Cracker Barrel

one day we like to eat a Cracker Barrel as our place we eaten and I look at him

as our place we eaten and I look at him

as our place we eaten and I look at him he’s eating in a pattern sausage eggs

he’s eating in a pattern sausage eggs

he’s eating in a pattern sausage eggs biscuits grits sausage eggs biscuits

biscuits grits sausage eggs biscuits

biscuits grits sausage eggs biscuits grits sausage he was taking a bite out

grits sausage he was taking a bite out

grits sausage he was taking a bite out of everything on his plate and he was

of everything on his plate and he was

of everything on his plate and he was spinning the plate around I was like

spinning the plate around I was like

spinning the plate around I was like grandpa why are you eating like that Oh

grandpa why are you eating like that Oh

grandpa why are you eating like that Oh every piece deserves a bite you’re not

every piece deserves a bite you’re not

every piece deserves a bite you’re not gonna make me think that this makes

gonna make me think that this makes

gonna make me think that this makes sense yes this is not wisdom why are you

sense yes this is not wisdom why are you

sense yes this is not wisdom why are you but he was my hero and I need to let him

but he was my hero and I need to let him

but he was my hero and I need to let him know that he was my hero

know that he was my hero

know that he was my hero that was him that made him up so as I

that was him that made him up so as I

that was him that made him up so as I get older I can’t wait to earn my wisdom

get older I can’t wait to earn my wisdom

get older I can’t wait to earn my wisdom the hero sermon everyone please say the

the hero sermon everyone please say the

the hero sermon everyone please say the hero sermon on this porch I watch a

hero sermon on this porch I watch a

hero sermon on this porch I watch a flower lose its petals face the Sun

flower lose its petals face the Sun

flower lose its petals face the Sun saying to it I’m still pushing when

saying to it I’m still pushing when

saying to it I’m still pushing when you’re ready I will come that’s my

you’re ready I will come that’s my

you’re ready I will come that’s my grandpa they’re that flower he is not

grandpa they’re that flower he is not

grandpa they’re that flower he is not the who he was he’s been losing all his

the who he was he’s been losing all his

the who he was he’s been losing all his weight and he’s been forced to take

weight and he’s been forced to take

weight and he’s been forced to take these drugs that’s not him how I

these drugs that’s not him how I

these drugs that’s not him how I remember he had muscles he was strong

remember he had muscles he was strong

remember he had muscles he was strong this getting old has gotten old and he’s

this getting old has gotten old and he’s

this getting old has gotten old and he’s been looking at the Sun seeing God in

been looking at the Sun seeing God in

been looking at the Sun seeing God in every gesture speaking like it’s time to

every gesture speaking like it’s time to

every gesture speaking like it’s time to go

go

go he always says we never know while

he always says we never know while

he always says we never know while acting like his time is close a shame

acting like his time is close a shame

acting like his time is close a shame that heroes must retire hurts how he

that heroes must retire hurts how he

that heroes must retire hurts how he don’t use his cape

don’t use his cape

don’t use his cape he lost his strength to change a tire

he lost his strength to change a tire

he lost his strength to change a tire shows he’s tired in his face he puts his

shows he’s tired in his face he puts his

shows he’s tired in his face he puts his shoes on really slowly slides them into

shoes on really slowly slides them into

shoes on really slowly slides them into place with ease insert dagger in my

place with ease insert dagger in my

place with ease insert dagger in my heart to watch him slide away from me

heart to watch him slide away from me

heart to watch him slide away from me routine breakfast Sunday mornings he

routine breakfast Sunday mornings he

routine breakfast Sunday mornings he still has his will to flirt makes the

still has his will to flirt makes the

still has his will to flirt makes the waitress smile and laugh enough to blush

waitress smile and laugh enough to blush

waitress smile and laugh enough to blush while she’s at work

while she’s at work

while she’s at work he says sausage eggs and biscuits all

he says sausage eggs and biscuits all

he says sausage eggs and biscuits all assembled in an order every piece

assembled in an order every piece

assembled in an order every piece deserves a bike he says while sipping

deserves a bike he says while sipping

deserves a bike he says while sipping down his water what a man he’s been

down his water what a man he’s been

down his water what a man he’s been to me the only father I remember he

to me the only father I remember he

to me the only father I remember he brought home the bread and butter

brought home the bread and butter

brought home the bread and butter grandma changed it all to dinner man I

grandma changed it all to dinner man I

grandma changed it all to dinner man I swear I love my heroes comic books ain’t

swear I love my heroes comic books ain’t

swear I love my heroes comic books ain’t saved my life when I think of hope and

saved my life when I think of hope and

saved my life when I think of hope and strength I see your husband and his wife

strength I see your husband and his wife

strength I see your husband and his wife I treat my grandpa like my father

I treat my grandpa like my father

I treat my grandpa like my father because he raised me like his son had a

because he raised me like his son had a

because he raised me like his son had a dad who wouldn’t bother seeing who I

dad who wouldn’t bother seeing who I

dad who wouldn’t bother seeing who I would become I watched my mama fight

would become I watched my mama fight

would become I watched my mama fight with drugs they say you cannot choose

with drugs they say you cannot choose

with drugs they say you cannot choose your folks I wouldn’t change them if I

your folks I wouldn’t change them if I

your folks I wouldn’t change them if I could because they forced me into hope

could because they forced me into hope

could because they forced me into hope yes I swear I love my heroes hate to

yes I swear I love my heroes hate to

yes I swear I love my heroes hate to lose them to the sky and if you love

lose them to the sky and if you love

lose them to the sky and if you love your heroes too you shouldn’t wait to

your heroes too you shouldn’t wait to

your heroes too you shouldn’t wait to tell them why you scream out yeah I love

tell them why you scream out yeah I love

tell them why you scream out yeah I love my heroes even if they’re here in spirit

my heroes even if they’re here in spirit

my heroes even if they’re here in spirit know that if you say it right that you

know that if you say it right that you

know that if you say it right that you can feel that they can hear it grandpa

can feel that they can hear it grandpa

can feel that they can hear it grandpa thank you for your life

thank you for your life

thank you for your life I feel you’ll never die to me I watched

I feel you’ll never die to me I watched

I feel you’ll never die to me I watched you be the type of man most men would

you be the type of man most men would

you be the type of man most men would always try to be kept your head cocked

always try to be kept your head cocked

always try to be kept your head cocked to the side and that was always flout of

to the side and that was always flout of

to the side and that was always flout of me I’ll keep your teachings and your

me I’ll keep your teachings and your

me I’ll keep your teachings and your fight locked up tight inside of me sure

fight locked up tight inside of me sure

fight locked up tight inside of me sure that flower loses petals when the rains

that flower loses petals when the rains

that flower loses petals when the rains are not enough and the Sun no longer

are not enough and the Sun no longer

are not enough and the Sun no longer shines and the Lord seems fit to plug in

shines and the Lord seems fit to plug in

shines and the Lord seems fit to plug in my mind and goats with memories of the

my mind and goats with memories of the

my mind and goats with memories of the rocking chairs and stalks and the park

rocking chairs and stalks and the park

rocking chairs and stalks and the park begins to cry is it well miss your

begins to cry is it well miss your

begins to cry is it well miss your morning walks and I will tell you job

morning walks and I will tell you job

morning walks and I will tell you job well done

well done

well done standing ovation is a must for the life

standing ovation is a must for the life

standing ovation is a must for the life God gave to you which you divided

God gave to you which you divided

God gave to you which you divided amongst us I will carry on your torch

amongst us I will carry on your torch

amongst us I will carry on your torch I’ll take your cape and make it new in

I’ll take your cape and make it new in

I’ll take your cape and make it new in hopes of learning from this porch how I

hopes of learning from this porch how I

hopes of learning from this porch how I can be a hero too I believe in God

can be a hero too I believe in God

can be a hero too I believe in God there’s no question about it there’s no

there’s no question about it there’s no

there’s no question about it there’s no other way that I got here grandma

other way that I got here grandma

other way that I got here grandma introduced me to God and that was the

introduced me to God and that was the

introduced me to God and that was the best introduction ever and I always feel

best introduction ever and I always feel

best introduction ever and I always feel like he’s been listening to everything

like he’s been listening to everything

like he’s been listening to everything that I’ve put out no matter if I hear

that I’ve put out no matter if I hear

that I’ve put out no matter if I hear him speak or not I feel like he listens

him speak or not I feel like he listens

him speak or not I feel like he listens you know I always I still keep my

you know I always I still keep my

you know I always I still keep my prayers beside me everyone please say

prayers beside me everyone please say

prayers beside me everyone please say but the listener I know that God is

but the listener I know that God is

but the listener I know that God is listening to my prayers so I pray that

listening to my prayers so I pray that

listening to my prayers so I pray that everything I do be something good in

everything I do be something good in

everything I do be something good in some way that someone can be helped by

some way that someone can be helped by

some way that someone can be helped by something strong that I said that people

something strong that I said that people

something strong that I said that people follow people from the people I lead I

follow people from the people I lead I

follow people from the people I lead I would draw in elementary my mom was on

would draw in elementary my mom was on

would draw in elementary my mom was on drugs I was ridiculed in middle school

drugs I was ridiculed in middle school

drugs I was ridiculed in middle school my mom was on drugs when I wrote back in

my mom was on drugs when I wrote back in

my mom was on drugs when I wrote back in high school my mom was on drugs and when

high school my mom was on drugs and when

high school my mom was on drugs and when I graduated college my mom was on drugs

I graduated college my mom was on drugs

I graduated college my mom was on drugs now today I’ve been on tour and my mom

now today I’ve been on tour and my mom

now today I’ve been on tour and my mom is at home shedding tears of inspiration

is at home shedding tears of inspiration

is at home shedding tears of inspiration as she listens to poems joy was just

as she listens to poems joy was just

as she listens to poems joy was just beyond the mountain you can easily climb

beyond the mountain you can easily climb

beyond the mountain you can easily climb I never gave up on my mom we just needed

I never gave up on my mom we just needed

I never gave up on my mom we just needed some time I lost my brother and my

some time I lost my brother and my

some time I lost my brother and my grandma but I keep him within and I

grandma but I keep him within and I

grandma but I keep him within and I donate some random charities in honor of

donate some random charities in honor of

donate some random charities in honor of them through my faith embrace my

them through my faith embrace my

them through my faith embrace my struggle trouble needed a hug I never

struggle trouble needed a hug I never

struggle trouble needed a hug I never seen a fight

seen a fight

seen a fight Kongo would love my friends were

Kongo would love my friends were

Kongo would love my friends were peddling drugs while I was pedaling

peddling drugs while I was pedaling

peddling drugs while I was pedaling bikes I tried to ride away from

bikes I tried to ride away from

bikes I tried to ride away from everything that ruined my life and for

everything that ruined my life and for

everything that ruined my life and for that I see the nation I’m known by

that I see the nation I’m known by

that I see the nation I’m known by people as odd I swear that I can feel

people as odd I swear that I can feel

people as odd I swear that I can feel you hug me when I hear you applaud so I

you hug me when I hear you applaud so I

you hug me when I hear you applaud so I know that God is listening he’s brought

know that God is listening he’s brought

know that God is listening he’s brought me this far

me this far

me this far I got a motivating message you can be

I got a motivating message you can be

I got a motivating message you can be who you are I raise my hands to the sky

who you are I raise my hands to the sky

who you are I raise my hands to the sky and watch them turn into wings out of 50

and watch them turn into wings out of 50

and watch them turn into wings out of 50 billion prayers he’s responded to me he

billion prayers he’s responded to me he

billion prayers he’s responded to me he got me preaching to you people look

got me preaching to you people look

got me preaching to you people look what’s happening now I’m a star in

what’s happening now I’m a star in

what’s happening now I’m a star in certain places but I’m wrong with the

certain places but I’m wrong with the

certain places but I’m wrong with the crowd so if you hear me

crowd so if you hear me

crowd so if you hear me then you feel me because I live what I

then you feel me because I live what I

then you feel me because I live what I write that means I always recall that

write that means I always recall that

write that means I always recall that makes me never recite that makes my

makes me never recite that makes my

makes me never recite that makes my present surreal that makes my poems of

present surreal that makes my poems of

present surreal that makes my poems of truth I’m represented by God meet us

truth I’m represented by God meet us

truth I’m represented by God meet us both at my booth for I was blessed

both at my booth for I was blessed

both at my booth for I was blessed enough to make it here may you be a

enough to make it here may you be a

enough to make it here may you be a witness that if God is never saying much

witness that if God is never saying much

witness that if God is never saying much I’m proof you’re proof we’re proof that

I’m proof you’re proof we’re proof that

I’m proof you’re proof we’re proof that he listens thank you

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