tender kneepads you know how sometimes life seems like you’re you’re living
life seems like you’re you’re living
life seems like you’re you’re living years in a couple minutes this is me and
years in a couple minutes this is me and
years in a couple minutes this is me and I wear identical I kind of take pride in
I wear identical I kind of take pride in
I wear identical I kind of take pride in being one of very few identical twin
being one of very few identical twin
being one of very few identical twin pairs that are boy and girl look it
pairs that are boy and girl look it
pairs that are boy and girl look it slowly when I first learned that that my
slowly when I first learned that that my
slowly when I first learned that that my child was transgender I couldn’t I
child was transgender I couldn’t I
child was transgender I couldn’t I couldn’t speak the word I was too I
couldn’t speak the word I was too I
couldn’t speak the word I was too I didn’t know I didn’t know anything about
didn’t know I didn’t know anything about
didn’t know I didn’t know anything about it and here I was this you know good
it and here I was this you know good
it and here I was this you know good mother that researched everything before
mother that researched everything before
mother that researched everything before we you know bought a diaper I mean I
we you know bought a diaper I mean I
we you know bought a diaper I mean I wasn’t me I just I I was the one in the
wasn’t me I just I I was the one in the
wasn’t me I just I I was the one in the know and all of a sudden I didn’t know
know and all of a sudden I didn’t know
know and all of a sudden I didn’t know anything and it was frightening and it
anything and it was frightening and it
anything and it was frightening and it was other and and I didn’t want my child
was other and and I didn’t want my child
was other and and I didn’t want my child to hurt or be hurt or be judged
I think people are fascinated by gender
I think people are fascinated by gender reassignment surgery they’re like
reassignment surgery they’re like
reassignment surgery they’re like insatiably curious about it but they
insatiably curious about it but they
insatiably curious about it but they also don’t know how to have a
also don’t know how to have a
also don’t know how to have a conversation about it people ask me that
conversation about it people ask me that
conversation about it people ask me that question all the time you’re like stick
question all the time you’re like stick
question all the time you’re like stick with if there were no gender norms in
with if there were no gender norms in
with if there were no gender norms in this world like but would any want to
this world like but would any want to
this world like but would any want to transition I’m like well we do live in a
transition I’m like well we do live in a
transition I’m like well we do live in a world of gender norm so don’t quite see
world of gender norm so don’t quite see
world of gender norm so don’t quite see how irrelevant
absolutely very honored to be the parent
absolutely very honored to be the parent accompanying a me on this journey feels
accompanying a me on this journey feels
accompanying a me on this journey feels very sacred this time of stillness and
very sacred this time of stillness and
very sacred this time of stillness and transition and embracing of this new
transition and embracing of this new
transition and embracing of this new life and we’ve been kind of giddy this
life and we’ve been kind of giddy this
life and we’ve been kind of giddy this entire Oh
entire Oh
entire Oh nervous
dip everything you thanks for this
dip everything you thanks for this incredible girl
incredible girl
incredible girl please bring this
please bring this
please bring this courageous girl today the name of your
courageous girl today the name of your
courageous girl today the name of your sin Jesus – better to call this a body
sin Jesus – better to call this a body
sin Jesus – better to call this a body mind and spirit
mind and spirit
mind and spirit [Music]
he heard from Caleb the story yeah I
he heard from Caleb the story yeah I just texted him I asked him to record me
just texted him I asked him to record me
just texted him I asked him to record me a song because that I really loved last
a song because that I really loved last
a song because that I really loved last night so he did that for me and it’s all
night so he did that for me and it’s all
night so he did that for me and it’s all my favorites of his and it has a lot of
my favorites of his and it has a lot of
my favorites of his and it has a lot of not to do with overcoming the chorus
not to do with overcoming the chorus
not to do with overcoming the chorus goes like whoa never back down though
goes like whoa never back down though
goes like whoa never back down though things are bound to change never turn
things are bound to change never turn
things are bound to change never turn around though things are strange never
around though things are strange never
around though things are strange never do more than tell you where you are it’s
do more than tell you where you are it’s
do more than tell you where you are it’s light though there’s miles to go never
light though there’s miles to go never
light though there’s miles to go never back down keep walking through the snow
back down keep walking through the snow
back down keep walking through the snow I hope that you find them I hope you do
I hope that you find them I hope you do
I hope that you find them I hope you do tell them how I kept you warm tell
tell them how I kept you warm tell
tell them how I kept you warm tell without tears love have no regrets I
without tears love have no regrets I
without tears love have no regrets I married us inside the store the glans
married us inside the store the glans
married us inside the store the glans penis becomes clitoris the skin of penis
penis becomes clitoris the skin of penis
penis becomes clitoris the skin of penis becomes the labia minora and part of the
becomes the labia minora and part of the
becomes the labia minora and part of the opening of the vagina the scrotal skin
opening of the vagina the scrotal skin
opening of the vagina the scrotal skin is taken off and used as a skin graft
is taken off and used as a skin graft
is taken off and used as a skin graft it’s rolled up into a tube and that’s
it’s rolled up into a tube and that’s
it’s rolled up into a tube and that’s placed in a space that we make at the
placed in a space that we make at the
placed in a space that we make at the base of the scrotum and goes back in
base of the scrotum and goes back in
base of the scrotum and goes back in between with platter sets and the rectum
between with platter sets and the rectum
between with platter sets and the rectum sits and that’s going to be the lining
sits and that’s going to be the lining
sits and that’s going to be the lining of vagina the testicles and the cords
of vagina the testicles and the cords
of vagina the testicles and the cords are removed and the urethra is actually
are removed and the urethra is actually
are removed and the urethra is actually saved in a flap of urethra is used to
saved in a flap of urethra is used to
saved in a flap of urethra is used to make a hood for the clitoris way down
make a hood for the clitoris way down
make a hood for the clitoris way down there to covering you keeping you warm
there to covering you keeping you warm
there to covering you keeping you warm and dry oh I may die here you’ll follow
and dry oh I may die here you’ll follow
and dry oh I may die here you’ll follow through not I good morning Miami J hear
through not I good morning Miami J hear
through not I good morning Miami J hear me the day sings in Philomath you’re all
me the day sings in Philomath you’re all
me the day sings in Philomath you’re all finished without reading when they come
finished without reading when they come
finished without reading when they come she’s scared I can see it in her eyes
she’s scared I can see it in her eyes
she’s scared I can see it in her eyes today but I know she’s gonna be fine she
today but I know she’s gonna be fine she
today but I know she’s gonna be fine she had a great surgery so when people don’t
had a great surgery so when people don’t
had a great surgery so when people don’t do well after their transition it’s
do well after their transition it’s
do well after their transition it’s because they have absolutely no support
because they have absolutely no support
because they have absolutely no support system their support system is you know
system their support system is you know
system their support system is you know like their family’s putting on a game
like their family’s putting on a game
like their family’s putting on a game face but you know they’re scared as hell
face but you know they’re scared as hell
face but you know they’re scared as hell too I mean those family members are real
too I mean those family members are real
too I mean those family members are real heroes to me I have goosebumps as I say
heroes to me I have goosebumps as I say
heroes to me I have goosebumps as I say this she’s got everything going for her
hey it’s me
hey it’s me she’s out she’s great I know I’m sorry
she’s out she’s great I know I’m sorry
she’s out she’s great I know I’m sorry like I haven’t had a take a deep breath
like I haven’t had a take a deep breath
like I haven’t had a take a deep breath like two days so she’s going to be in in
like two days so she’s going to be in in
like two days so she’s going to be in in recovering a little bit and she’ll be a
recovering a little bit and she’ll be a
recovering a little bit and she’ll be a little groggy but kind of taken care of
little groggy but kind of taken care of
little groggy but kind of taken care of by the gang here and
by the gang here and
by the gang here and and shall be ours again
and shall be ours again
and shall be ours again hi Matt it’s Kate and we just went down
hi Matt it’s Kate and we just went down
hi Matt it’s Kate and we just went down to the o.r I’ll keep you in the loop as
to the o.r I’ll keep you in the loop as
to the o.r I’ll keep you in the loop as I get any news so wish I could be with
I get any news so wish I could be with
I get any news so wish I could be with her and Patrick sent three hearts and
her and Patrick sent three hearts and
her and Patrick sent three hearts and Sara said thank you thank you with the
Sara said thank you thank you with the
Sara said thank you thank you with the heart jewel sent 300 Thank You Kate
heart jewel sent 300 Thank You Kate
heart jewel sent 300 Thank You Kate Tia said thank you and Sophie girl said
Tia said thank you and Sophie girl said
Tia said thank you and Sophie girl said I wish so much there
being closeted was one of the worst
being closeted was one of the worst parts of my life being ally I mean it’s
parts of my life being ally I mean it’s
parts of my life being ally I mean it’s not so much like a personal change it’s
not so much like a personal change it’s
not so much like a personal change it’s a social change I came out on Facebook
a social change I came out on Facebook
a social change I came out on Facebook there was a lot of positive just
there was a lot of positive just
there was a lot of positive just response just from that the thing I
response just from that the thing I
response just from that the thing I really remember about coming out was I
really remember about coming out was I
really remember about coming out was I was in a play I went to rehearsal they
was in a play I went to rehearsal they
was in a play I went to rehearsal they were getting my pronouns right they were
were getting my pronouns right they were
were getting my pronouns right they were using my name like it was you know just
using my name like it was you know just
using my name like it was you know just a total different world and I felt you
a total different world and I felt you
a total different world and I felt you know incredible if I was not out I’m not
know incredible if I was not out I’m not
know incredible if I was not out I’m not sure I would like you know be alive
sure I would like you know be alive
sure I would like you know be alive right now but my husband and I keep
right now but my husband and I keep
right now but my husband and I keep we’re marking onto each other is this
we’re marking onto each other is this
we’re marking onto each other is this just feels so right if it’s so heard so
just feels so right if it’s so heard so
just feels so right if it’s so heard so the child we’ve always known and loved
the child we’ve always known and loved
the child we’ve always known and loved even though a few years ago we wouldn’t
even though a few years ago we wouldn’t
even though a few years ago we wouldn’t have necessarily anticipated this step
when I think about why I eventually
when I think about why I eventually wanted to get this surgery because I
wanted to get this surgery because I
wanted to get this surgery because I really didn’t at first I think the
really didn’t at first I think the
really didn’t at first I think the reason um that I that I ended up really
reason um that I that I ended up really
reason um that I that I ended up really wanting it to happen started out as
wanting it to happen started out as
wanting it to happen started out as being something more out of convenience
being something more out of convenience
being something more out of convenience as it became more real and as I got the
as it became more real and as I got the
as it became more real and as I got the surgery date and all of that I found a
surgery date and all of that I found a
surgery date and all of that I found a million reasons you know why I wanted it
million reasons you know why I wanted it
million reasons you know why I wanted it to happen
and that’s where I think transition is
and that’s where I think transition is again problematic because it presupposes
again problematic because it presupposes
again problematic because it presupposes an end point like at some point you have
an end point like at some point you have
an end point like at some point you have transitioned whereas every single one of
transitioned whereas every single one of
transitioned whereas every single one of us is in constant development this is
us is in constant development this is
us is in constant development this is obviously a huge huge moment in NME’s
obviously a huge huge moment in NME’s
obviously a huge huge moment in NME’s life but it’s not the by any means the
life but it’s not the by any means the
life but it’s not the by any means the endpoint is just in some ways the
endpoint is just in some ways the
endpoint is just in some ways the beginning
beginning
beginning [Music]
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