a friend told me your body is the only home that will follow you she looked
home that will follow you she looked
home that will follow you she looked into my eyes and told me that I needed
into my eyes and told me that I needed
into my eyes and told me that I needed to cherish it and that’s your body here
to cherish it and that’s your body here
to cherish it and that’s your body here cascading ribs which cave around your
cascading ribs which cave around your
cascading ribs which cave around your beautiful heart
beautiful heart
beautiful heart you’re one crooked tooth that perfect
you’re one crooked tooth that perfect
you’re one crooked tooth that perfect curl at the crook of your neck your body
curl at the crook of your neck your body
curl at the crook of your neck your body was the only thing you had the right to
was the only thing you had the right to
was the only thing you had the right to it’s the only place to be so make it
it’s the only place to be so make it
it’s the only place to be so make it yours but friend I am allergic to my
yours but friend I am allergic to my
yours but friend I am allergic to my skin there are times I wish that I was a
skin there are times I wish that I was a
skin there are times I wish that I was a costume that my freckles were just
costume that my freckles were just
costume that my freckles were just constellations broadcasted by a
constellations broadcasted by a
constellations broadcasted by a hallucination a bad dream and that soon
hallucination a bad dream and that soon
hallucination a bad dream and that soon I was to walk out of my skin or wake up
I was to walk out of my skin or wake up
I was to walk out of my skin or wake up from the nightmare friend no drug is a
from the nightmare friend no drug is a
from the nightmare friend no drug is a self-fulfilling or as hard to part with
self-fulfilling or as hard to part with
self-fulfilling or as hard to part with and self-hate skipping meals makeup and
and self-hate skipping meals makeup and
and self-hate skipping meals makeup and closing your eyes as you undress
closing your eyes as you undress
closing your eyes as you undress disguises itself is progress as
disguises itself is progress as
disguises itself is progress as withdrawal you can fool yourself that
withdrawal you can fool yourself that
withdrawal you can fool yourself that you’re getting better as you see the
you’re getting better as you see the
you’re getting better as you see the scale reveal a lower number each week
scale reveal a lower number each week
scale reveal a lower number each week but your goal is a zero your goal is to
but your goal is a zero your goal is to
but your goal is a zero your goal is to become so thin and pale and smooth that
become so thin and pale and smooth that
become so thin and pale and smooth that you won’t even exist at all and I know
you won’t even exist at all and I know
you won’t even exist at all and I know the crooks and slopes and mountains that
the crooks and slopes and mountains that
the crooks and slopes and mountains that are your body are so overwhelmingly
are your body are so overwhelmingly
are your body are so overwhelmingly beautiful
beautiful
beautiful I can’t imagine you feel the same way I
I can’t imagine you feel the same way I
I can’t imagine you feel the same way I do but your eyes are so much brighter
do but your eyes are so much brighter
do but your eyes are so much brighter than you feel they shine and your face
than you feel they shine and your face
than you feel they shine and your face is so much more than your spots and
is so much more than your spots and
is so much more than your spots and unplucked eyebrows I don’t see your
unplucked eyebrows I don’t see your
unplucked eyebrows I don’t see your chapped lips I see your smile friend I
chapped lips I see your smile friend I
chapped lips I see your smile friend I am trying I lie in bed I let the stone
am trying I lie in bed I let the stone
am trying I lie in bed I let the stone this take over my anxieties keep me
this take over my anxieties keep me
this take over my anxieties keep me grounded in a crucifixion of sorts how I
grounded in a crucifixion of sorts how I
grounded in a crucifixion of sorts how I wish I would bleed out and float up into
wish I would bleed out and float up into
wish I would bleed out and float up into the clustered beauty far above in a
the clustered beauty far above in a
the clustered beauty far above in a world galaxies light-years thousands and
world galaxies light-years thousands and
world galaxies light-years thousands and thousands of miles
thousands of miles
thousands of miles way but instead I lie here in a place
way but instead I lie here in a place
way but instead I lie here in a place where the darkness is so infinite if he
where the darkness is so infinite if he
where the darkness is so infinite if he was limited in a place without mirrors
was limited in a place without mirrors
was limited in a place without mirrors or cell phones or computer screens it’s
or cell phones or computer screens it’s
or cell phones or computer screens it’s easier to be surrounded by nothing than
easier to be surrounded by nothing than
easier to be surrounded by nothing than to see what you don’t have it’s easier
to see what you don’t have it’s easier
to see what you don’t have it’s easier to suffocate alone than in a world full
to suffocate alone than in a world full
to suffocate alone than in a world full of people breathing friend when I told
of people breathing friend when I told
of people breathing friend when I told you that my world is getting too big for
you that my world is getting too big for
you that my world is getting too big for me to handle you told me imagine
me to handle you told me imagine
me to handle you told me imagine yourself under the stars
yourself under the stars
yourself under the stars think of how small you are under them
think of how small you are under them
think of how small you are under them friend I am trying I lie in bed and I
friend I am trying I lie in bed and I
friend I am trying I lie in bed and I add stars through the darkness each day
add stars through the darkness each day
add stars through the darkness each day I breathe in the cool air and it traces
I breathe in the cool air and it traces
I breathe in the cool air and it traces the contours of my lips my tongue my
the contours of my lips my tongue my
the contours of my lips my tongue my throat finally after spilling into my
throat finally after spilling into my
throat finally after spilling into my love into my lungs of predisposed breath
love into my lungs of predisposed breath
love into my lungs of predisposed breath sit still for a moment as I hold onto
sit still for a moment as I hold onto
sit still for a moment as I hold onto this piece of the world inside of me I
this piece of the world inside of me I
this piece of the world inside of me I think of how small I really am you tell
think of how small I really am you tell
think of how small I really am you tell me you were a person within a district
me you were a person within a district
me you were a person within a district within a city within a country within a
within a city within a country within a
within a city within a country within a continent within a world within a vast
continent within a world within a vast
continent within a world within a vast vast universe filled with only a small
vast universe filled with only a small
vast universe filled with only a small fraction of things you know to be true
fraction of things you know to be true
fraction of things you know to be true and much much more of what you will
and much much more of what you will
and much much more of what you will never know your world is this a star
never know your world is this a star
never know your world is this a star helping to make a constellation of an
helping to make a constellation of an
helping to make a constellation of an incomprehensible massive was will be
incomprehensible massive was will be
incomprehensible massive was will be could be your world it’s just a star
when I was born
when I was born that’s exude it out of my stomach it’s
that’s exude it out of my stomach it’s
that’s exude it out of my stomach it’s hands on my neck and ankle after four
hands on my neck and ankle after four
hands on my neck and ankle after four hours of labor I was born ready to die
hours of labor I was born ready to die
hours of labor I was born ready to die with the umbilical cord stretched across
with the umbilical cord stretched across
with the umbilical cord stretched across my neck and ankle one kidney sick and
my neck and ankle one kidney sick and
my neck and ankle one kidney sick and quiet I was born with wide space-shuttle
quiet I was born with wide space-shuttle
quiet I was born with wide space-shuttle eyes looking into those around me with a
eyes looking into those around me with a
eyes looking into those around me with a calm wonder when I was born I was born
calm wonder when I was born I was born
calm wonder when I was born I was born an anomaly one contradiction out of
an anomaly one contradiction out of
an anomaly one contradiction out of thousands of reasons I shouldn’t exist
thousands of reasons I shouldn’t exist
thousands of reasons I shouldn’t exist and at the same time when I was born the
and at the same time when I was born the
and at the same time when I was born the world didn’t even flinch
our importance is dependent on ourselves
our importance is dependent on ourselves and those who we love and care for but
and those who we love and care for but
and those who we love and care for but at the same time ourselves and those who
at the same time ourselves and those who
at the same time ourselves and those who we love and care for just don’t matter
we love and care for just don’t matter
we love and care for just don’t matter everything I’ve experienced burns my
everything I’ve experienced burns my
everything I’ve experienced burns my skin with such urgency and importance
skin with such urgency and importance
skin with such urgency and importance but at the end of the day thousands of
but at the end of the day thousands of
but at the end of the day thousands of years later after the flowers have grown
years later after the flowers have grown
years later after the flowers have grown through my rib cage there is just a
through my rib cage there is just a
through my rib cage there is just a flower bed no one will remember what
flower bed no one will remember what
flower bed no one will remember what dead thing lay underneath those flowers
dead thing lay underneath those flowers
dead thing lay underneath those flowers except for the man who planted them the
except for the man who planted them the
except for the man who planted them the petals will fall when the flowers have
petals will fall when the flowers have
petals will fall when the flowers have died and their seeds are carried in the
died and their seeds are carried in the
died and their seeds are carried in the wind and are planted someplace else and
wind and are planted someplace else and
wind and are planted someplace else and the world moves on when my world gets
the world moves on when my world gets
the world moves on when my world gets too big I realized that I am a person
too big I realized that I am a person
too big I realized that I am a person under the Stars and when my world gets
under the Stars and when my world gets
under the Stars and when my world gets too small I realized that my body will
too small I realized that my body will
too small I realized that my body will lie under flower beds
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