[Music] morning comes every day it’s a constant
morning comes every day it’s a constant
morning comes every day it’s a constant as long as we are alive the day we don’t
as long as we are alive the day we don’t
as long as we are alive the day we don’t wake up is the day we die
so I have this idea right it’s in my
so I have this idea right it’s in my head a story I sit down most days to get
head a story I sit down most days to get
head a story I sit down most days to get these words out on paper or on the
these words out on paper or on the
these words out on paper or on the computer screen the cursor flashing like
computer screen the cursor flashing like
computer screen the cursor flashing like it’s mocking me it’s saying I’m here
it’s mocking me it’s saying I’m here
it’s mocking me it’s saying I’m here constantly my resistance my hurdle and
constantly my resistance my hurdle and
constantly my resistance my hurdle and choking I can’t put a single letter down
choking I can’t put a single letter down
choking I can’t put a single letter down I’ll do anything to avoid my fingers
I’ll do anything to avoid my fingers
I’ll do anything to avoid my fingers pressing those keys my pen flowing on
pressing those keys my pen flowing on
pressing those keys my pen flowing on paper I can’t do it mr. resistance holds
paper I can’t do it mr. resistance holds
paper I can’t do it mr. resistance holds my hands to the table he ties them to
my hands to the table he ties them to
my hands to the table he ties them to the concept of time as it passes time
the concept of time as it passes time
the concept of time as it passes time passes to no avail
passes to no avail
passes to no avail words have not come I’ve gained nothing
words have not come I’ve gained nothing
words have not come I’ve gained nothing but lost a lot this is me every day
time time passes he doesn’t wait for my
time time passes he doesn’t wait for my fingers to type I can’t hold on to him
fingers to type I can’t hold on to him
fingers to type I can’t hold on to him he leaves me in my quiet solitude
he leaves me in my quiet solitude
he leaves me in my quiet solitude fearful fearful of failure in this fear
fearful fearful of failure in this fear
fearful fearful of failure in this fear I fell victim to the thing I’m afraid of
I fell victim to the thing I’m afraid of
I fell victim to the thing I’m afraid of thought the time would pass without me
thought the time would pass without me
thought the time would pass without me making something of myself I know he’ll
making something of myself I know he’ll
making something of myself I know he’ll no longer wait for me so I must join him
no longer wait for me so I must join him
no longer wait for me so I must join him we must find a way
having forward momentum is better than
having forward momentum is better than standing still if you go confidently
standing still if you go confidently
standing still if you go confidently into the world you’ll make your path but
into the world you’ll make your path but
into the world you’ll make your path but to stay motionless will make your life
to stay motionless will make your life
to stay motionless will make your life stagnate without a glimpse of your
stagnate without a glimpse of your
stagnate without a glimpse of your vision
the power of moving is incredible boxer
the power of moving is incredible boxer can be the most skilled in the world but
can be the most skilled in the world but
can be the most skilled in the world but if he stands still for just a second or
if he stands still for just a second or
if he stands still for just a second or two he can be dismantled in that very
two he can be dismantled in that very
two he can be dismantled in that very instance
instance
instance it’s not what you’re right it’s the act
it’s not what you’re right it’s the act
it’s not what you’re right it’s the act of writing that is required this is the
of writing that is required this is the
of writing that is required this is the same for any pursuit
we can get so wrapped up in the details
we can get so wrapped up in the details now fast your race time is going to be
now fast your race time is going to be
now fast your race time is going to be how much money you’re going to make on
how much money you’re going to make on
how much money you’re going to make on this deal but the coach is going to say
this deal but the coach is going to say
this deal but the coach is going to say what are you going to write we get so
what are you going to write we get so
what are you going to write we get so wrapped up to these details never get
wrapped up to these details never get
wrapped up to these details never get started in the first place is his fear
started in the first place is his fear
started in the first place is his fear of success this is fear of not knowing
of success this is fear of not knowing
of success this is fear of not knowing and this is called faith
we can procrastinate all day another
we can procrastinate all day another thing we want to do what’s the act of
thing we want to do what’s the act of
thing we want to do what’s the act of doing that a vision becomes a reality
there are many select words that can be
there are many select words that can be chosen to explain to feeding this
chosen to explain to feeding this
chosen to explain to feeding this situation but in the words of my
situation but in the words of my
situation but in the words of my favorite quote just do it don’t stop
favorite quote just do it don’t stop
favorite quote just do it don’t stop keep moving
I am moving I will not stop I will not
I am moving I will not stop I will not stand still do you ever have let’s call
stand still do you ever have let’s call
stand still do you ever have let’s call it a normal job Connor a nine-to-five
it a normal job Connor a nine-to-five
it a normal job Connor a nine-to-five mm-hmm yeah because the earliest thing
mm-hmm yeah because the earliest thing
mm-hmm yeah because the earliest thing is the gains were trade straight away I
is the gains were trade straight away I
is the gains were trade straight away I was no different
was no different
was no different soon as I finished skill absorbs getting
soon as I finished skill absorbs getting
soon as I finished skill absorbs getting pestered what are you doing with your
pestered what are you doing with your
pestered what are you doing with your life you know this deal knife and they
life you know this deal knife and they
life you know this deal knife and they didn’t know what it was they didn’t know
didn’t know what it was they didn’t know
didn’t know what it was they didn’t know MMA wasn’t known I just didn’t know it
MMA wasn’t known I just didn’t know it
MMA wasn’t known I just didn’t know it could make a career as far as they were
could make a career as far as they were
could make a career as far as they were consent me mind I’m talking about as far
consent me mind I’m talking about as far
consent me mind I’m talking about as far as they were concerned I’m just getting
as they were concerned I’m just getting
as they were concerned I’m just getting into a cage appointment some other guy
into a cage appointment some other guy
into a cage appointment some other guy they didn’t know nothing about it
they didn’t know nothing about it
they didn’t know nothing about it no one did really but I knew you know I
no one did really but I knew you know I
no one did really but I knew you know I mean I knew or there and then I got I
mean I knew or there and then I got I
mean I knew or there and then I got I end up getting a trade just to keep them
end up getting a trade just to keep them
end up getting a trade just to keep them quiet cause it had a lot of fights with
quiet cause it had a lot of fights with
quiet cause it had a lot of fights with me dialogue what trade did you get I end
me dialogue what trade did you get I end
me dialogue what trade did you get I end up getting a trade as a plumber and
up getting a trade as a plumber and
up getting a trade as a plumber and literally opened the back eyes I know
literally opened the back eyes I know
literally opened the back eyes I know where of when we closed the week-long
where of when we closed the week-long
where of when we closed the week-long mountain and feeling about that but say
mountain and feeling about that but say
mountain and feeling about that but say it was one of the biggest sites in
it was one of the biggest sites in
it was one of the biggest sites in Europe kill Tiernan was right about
Europe kill Tiernan was right about
Europe kill Tiernan was right about skiing place huge and now it’s just
skiing place huge and now it’s just
skiing place huge and now it’s just abandoned now it’s just deserted so I
abandoned now it’s just deserted so I
abandoned now it’s just deserted so I used to go up there six o’clock folks
used to go up there six o’clock folks
used to go up there six o’clock folks for tomorrow’s on that m50 I just have
for tomorrow’s on that m50 I just have
for tomorrow’s on that m50 I just have to walk to the end for about half an
to walk to the end for about half an
to walk to the end for about half an hour from your hell was way for some
hour from your hell was way for some
hour from your hell was way for some limited code I didn’t even know he drove
limited code I didn’t even know he drove
limited code I didn’t even know he drove on the m4 and I had to flag him down
on the m4 and I had to flag him down
on the m4 and I had to flag him down nightmare you have two hours down on the
nightmare you have two hours down on the
nightmare you have two hours down on the m-52 hours by usually 14-hour days and I
m-52 hours by usually 14-hour days and I
m-52 hours by usually 14-hour days and I was there I was the first year so I was
was there I was the first year so I was
was there I was the first year so I was the I had to go and do everything like
the I had to go and do everything like
the I had to go and do everything like to go to the shop I’d to go and get this
to go to the shop I’d to go and get this
to go to the shop I’d to go and get this and get that so I always had trouble
and get that so I always had trouble
and get that so I always had trouble down I was like this isn’t for me this
down I was like this isn’t for me this
down I was like this isn’t for me this is not for me
is not for me
is not for me how long did you last I lasted 18 18
how long did you last I lasted 18 18
how long did you last I lasted 18 18 months still but was tough you know just
months still but was tough you know just
months still but was tough you know just it wasn’t I wasn’t the life of me and I
it wasn’t I wasn’t the life of me and I
it wasn’t I wasn’t the life of me and I mean then and then John said because I
mean then and then John said because I
mean then and then John said because I was training with Jonna as well at the
was training with Jonna as well at the
was training with Jonna as well at the time and then John got on Twitter says
time and then John got on Twitter says
time and then John got on Twitter says there I have a show on the show would
there I have a show on the show would
there I have a show on the show would like the fight honey and then that was
like the fight honey and then that was
like the fight honey and then that was it I just packed it in didn’t show up
it I just packed it in didn’t show up
it I just packed it in didn’t show up mede I used to come in and punch the
mede I used to come in and punch the
mede I used to come in and punch the head on me and like try and drag me out
head on me and like try and drag me out
head on me and like try and drag me out bed and I just wouldn’t go and I’m it
bed and I just wouldn’t go and I’m it
bed and I just wouldn’t go and I’m it hadn’t applauded for a good few years
hadn’t applauded for a good few years
hadn’t applauded for a good few years but I’m over
but I’m over
but I’m over and and that was it I just perfected in
and and that was it I just perfected in
and and that was it I just perfected in quit and then focused on training that’s
quit and then focused on training that’s
quit and then focused on training that’s I knew I knew I knew what was gonna
I knew I knew I knew what was gonna
I knew I knew I knew what was gonna happen I knew I was gonna get here
happen I knew I was gonna get here
happen I knew I was gonna get here they didn’t there’s a lot of stressful
they didn’t there’s a lot of stressful
they didn’t there’s a lot of stressful years and a lot of tough times and but I
years and a lot of tough times and but I
years and a lot of tough times and but I proved them wrong I proved myself right
proved them wrong I proved myself right
proved them wrong I proved myself right I was working in the plumbing business
I was working in the plumbing business
I was working in the plumbing business at the time in about and I think it was
at the time in about and I think it was
at the time in about and I think it was would have been around that time that
would have been around that time that
would have been around that time that John and I see I had left the flooring
John and I see I had left the flooring
John and I see I had left the flooring business
business
business I left the flooring business how bad was
I left the flooring business how bad was
I left the flooring business how bad was a diploma yeah horrendous were you
a diploma yeah horrendous were you
a diploma yeah horrendous were you actually in the trenches I mean it was
actually in the trenches I mean it was
actually in the trenches I mean it was an industrial whoo so I’ll be like
an industrial whoo so I’ll be like
an industrial whoo so I’ll be like building this it’d be like diploma that
building this it’d be like diploma that
building this it’d be like diploma that would be needed in a place like this six
would be needed in a place like this six
would be needed in a place like this six o’clock in the morning and the morning I
o’clock in the morning and the morning I
o’clock in the morning and the morning I used to have to walk for about an hour
used to have to walk for about an hour
used to have to walk for about an hour to get there to get there on motorway
to get there to get there on motorway
to get there to get there on motorway and then I stand on the edge of the
and then I stand on the edge of the
and then I stand on the edge of the motorway and wait for a bloke to drive
motorway and wait for a bloke to drive
motorway and wait for a bloke to drive boy so he gave me a lift and then the
boy so he gave me a lift and then the
boy so he gave me a lift and then the motorway was like getting an renovation
motorway was like getting an renovation
motorway was like getting an renovation at the time so take me two or two hours
at the time so take me two or two hours
at the time so take me two or two hours to get to the place was out in the
to get to the place was out in the
to get to the place was out in the country gonna be there for ten hours
country gonna be there for ten hours
country gonna be there for ten hours walking and I was a first-year so as the
walking and I was a first-year so as the
walking and I was a first-year so as the worst of the war sermons on the
worst of the war sermons on the
worst of the war sermons on the beginning then two hours to get back in
beginning then two hours to get back in
beginning then two hours to get back in the traffic again was just a horrible
the traffic again was just a horrible
the traffic again was just a horrible horrible time and I was like you know
horrible time and I was like you know
horrible time and I was like you know what I don’t want to deal with this and
what I don’t want to deal with this and
what I don’t want to deal with this and then I just left and then I just stopped
then I just left and then I just stopped
then I just left and then I just stopped going didn’t get out of bed let me die
going didn’t get out of bed let me die
going didn’t get out of bed let me die with him into trying to Bank me out of
with him into trying to Bank me out of
with him into trying to Bank me out of bed and we have fights and leisure for a
bed and we have fights and leisure for a
bed and we have fights and leisure for a good world I never spoke I didn’t really
good world I never spoke I didn’t really
good world I never spoke I didn’t really speak to me dying we just kind of stayed
speak to me dying we just kind of stayed
speak to me dying we just kind of stayed away from each other anytime I anytime I
away from each other anytime I anytime I
away from each other anytime I anytime I come across me that I just I come we did
come across me that I just I come we did
come across me that I just I come we did speak was foot what’s the fight you look
speak was foot what’s the fight you look
speak was foot what’s the fight you look at his house yeah little Tony anything
at his house yeah little Tony anything
at his house yeah little Tony anything anything you didn’t talk to him isn’t
anything you didn’t talk to him isn’t
anything you didn’t talk to him isn’t that it kinda awkward like it wasn’t you
that it kinda awkward like it wasn’t you
that it kinda awkward like it wasn’t you know you have a just a deep relation not
know you have a just a deep relation not
know you have a just a deep relation not ya know but since this since this is
ya know but since this since this is
ya know but since this since this is happy right since the dream has happened
happy right since the dream has happened
happy right since the dream has happened since the vision that I had has come
since the vision that I had has come
since the vision that I had has come true and like he went through he went
true and like he went through he went
true and like he went through he went through a tough time because he got
through a tough time because he got
through a tough time because he got testicular cancer so he got sick and all
testicular cancer so he got sick and all
testicular cancer so he got sick and all over and in my head us thinking maybe
over and in my head us thinking maybe
over and in my head us thinking maybe maybe III done that because he’s worried
maybe III done that because he’s worried
maybe III done that because he’s worried about me
about me
about me I’m gonna deal in all these place that
I’m gonna deal in all these place that
I’m gonna deal in all these place that were having all the time but I’m talking
were having all the time but I’m talking
were having all the time but I’m talking full-on place to come in and points it
full-on place to come in and points it
full-on place to come in and points it but no nada here we go now your punching
but no nada here we go now your punching
but no nada here we go now your punching bag so yeah we were going out of here
bag so yeah we were going out of here
bag so yeah we were going out of here Wow what did your mom say about that is
Wow what did your mom say about that is
Wow what did your mom say about that is so protective of you
so protective of you
so protective of you yeah I mean well she’s but I don’t know
yeah I mean well she’s but I don’t know
yeah I mean well she’s but I don’t know it was just she just stayed out of you
it was just she just stayed out of you
it was just she just stayed out of you know book and but see what did he get to
know book and but see what did he get to
know book and but see what did he get to that point toward he was nice because I
that point toward he was nice because I
that point toward he was nice because I was doing I was doing absolutely nothing
was doing I was doing absolutely nothing
was doing I was doing absolutely nothing I was ever in the trouble yeah basically
I was ever in the trouble yeah basically
I was ever in the trouble yeah basically felt like I was down for God I was a
felt like I was down for God I was a
felt like I was down for God I was a waste after I was a waster got that call
waste after I was a waster got that call
waste after I was a waster got that call that a lot and I remember him but now
that a lot and I remember him but now
that a lot and I remember him but now like Elena and then wasn’t when I start
like Elena and then wasn’t when I start
like Elena and then wasn’t when I start getting that focus and realize enough
getting that focus and realize enough
getting that focus and realize enough I’m like I’m gonna make this happen and
I’m like I’m gonna make this happen and
I’m like I’m gonna make this happen and then never has happened I’m I’m I’m
then never has happened I’m I’m I’m
then never has happened I’m I’m I’m making it happen I have a great
making it happen I have a great
making it happen I have a great relationship in there like we talk all
relationship in there like we talk all
relationship in there like we talk all the time and I even see energy and I see
the time and I even see energy and I see
the time and I even see energy and I see energy and you might like it’s the
energy and you might like it’s the
energy and you might like it’s the person times for a lot of people around
person times for a lot of people around
person times for a lot of people around there’s a lot of bad stuff going on and
there’s a lot of bad stuff going on and
there’s a lot of bad stuff going on and in the country a lot of people are
in the country a lot of people are
in the country a lot of people are struggling everybody’s struggling but
struggling everybody’s struggling but
struggling everybody’s struggling but now since since them seeing me chase
now since since them seeing me chase
now since since them seeing me chase this dream it’s given them an energy and
this dream it’s given them an energy and
this dream it’s given them an energy and I see a new lease of life in them and
I see a new lease of life in them and
I see a new lease of life in them and that alone spores me on even more so
that alone spores me on even more so
that alone spores me on even more so it’s all just a perfect storm that’s
it’s all just a perfect storm that’s
it’s all just a perfect storm that’s happening for me and that is why I have
happening for me and that is why I have
happening for me and that is why I have this tunnel vision and that’s why I’m
this tunnel vision and that’s why I’m
this tunnel vision and that’s why I’m willing to kill every single man in my
willing to kill every single man in my
willing to kill every single man in my path to get that belt in amethyst to
path to get that belt in amethyst to
path to get that belt in amethyst to secure the future from my family’s
secure the future from my family’s
secure the future from my family’s future you know me that’s that’s what
future you know me that’s that’s what
future you know me that’s that’s what I’m doing for it’s inescapable but our
I’m doing for it’s inescapable but our
I’m doing for it’s inescapable but our role while we’re at work we are workers
role while we’re at work we are workers
role while we’re at work we are workers when we’re at home were consumers with
when we’re at home were consumers with
when we’re at home were consumers with designated roles that prevent us from
designated roles that prevent us from
designated roles that prevent us from having an authentic interaction with
having an authentic interaction with
having an authentic interaction with reality and authentic experience of
reality and authentic experience of
reality and authentic experience of ourselves
ourselves
ourselves [Music]
you work in order to make money to play
you work in order to make money to play this is insane because you spend most of
this is insane because you spend most of
this is insane because you spend most of the time working if you don’t really
the time working if you don’t really
the time working if you don’t really value the work I mean you’re lucky if
value the work I mean you’re lucky if
value the work I mean you’re lucky if you’ve got work that you really enjoy
you’ve got work that you really enjoy
you’ve got work that you really enjoy doing but if you don’t really value the
doing but if you don’t really value the
doing but if you don’t really value the work all you’ll get out of it is money
work all you’ll get out of it is money
work all you’ll get out of it is money then you come home with that and you’re
then you come home with that and you’re
then you come home with that and you’re supposed to play they sit and passively
supposed to play they sit and passively
supposed to play they sit and passively watch television and but we don’t enjoy
watch television and but we don’t enjoy
watch television and but we don’t enjoy it
it
it not really there’s no gusto
it’s somewhat contradictory happiness
it’s somewhat contradictory happiness consists in the possession of things a
consists in the possession of things a
consists in the possession of things a lot of people when they feel inadequate
lot of people when they feel inadequate
lot of people when they feel inadequate bored unfulfilled try to get rid of this
bored unfulfilled try to get rid of this
bored unfulfilled try to get rid of this sensation by going shopping a lot of
sensation by going shopping a lot of
sensation by going shopping a lot of people spend all their daytime shopping
yes the real world now is always
yes the real world now is always unseasonable it’s changing you can’t
unseasonable it’s changing you can’t
unseasonable it’s changing you can’t grasp it there’s nothing to hold on to
grasp it there’s nothing to hold on to
grasp it there’s nothing to hold on to but that’s why it’s spiritual when you
but that’s why it’s spiritual when you
but that’s why it’s spiritual when you lean on it it collapses but don’t lean
lean on it it collapses but don’t lean
lean on it it collapses but don’t lean on live in it but don’t lean on it don’t
on live in it but don’t lean on it don’t
on live in it but don’t lean on it don’t try to hold it because in just the same
try to hold it because in just the same
try to hold it because in just the same way as when you embrace someone
way as when you embrace someone
way as when you embrace someone and you try to hold too hard you squeeze
and you try to hold too hard you squeeze
and you try to hold too hard you squeeze the breath out and therefore you strap
the breath out and therefore you strap
the breath out and therefore you strap so in the same way you don’t grab hold
so in the same way you don’t grab hold
so in the same way you don’t grab hold of the of the world you can’t sense it
of the of the world you can’t sense it
of the of the world you can’t sense it that way I cannot feel whatever this is
that the physical world right here and
that the physical world right here and now this absolutely concrete moment is
now this absolutely concrete moment is
now this absolutely concrete moment is everything that you could ever imagine
everything that you could ever imagine
everything that you could ever imagine the beatific vision today this is quite
the beatific vision today this is quite
the beatific vision today this is quite started so if you are really wide awake
started so if you are really wide awake
started so if you are really wide awake it’s a kind of a light touch you let it
it’s a kind of a light touch you let it
it’s a kind of a light touch you let it flow through your fingers and so by
flow through your fingers and so by
flow through your fingers and so by letting life slip and it’s always
letting life slip and it’s always
letting life slip and it’s always slipping and it’s now ever changing it’s
slipping and it’s now ever changing it’s
slipping and it’s now ever changing it’s the more it runs the more it stays the
the more it runs the more it stays the
the more it runs the more it stays the more it stays the more it runs that’s
more it stays the more it runs that’s
more it stays the more it runs that’s just that’s the way it is and if you
just that’s the way it is and if you
just that’s the way it is and if you don’t hold on to it it’s always here if
don’t hold on to it it’s always here if
don’t hold on to it it’s always here if you do hold on to it is always running
you do hold on to it is always running
you do hold on to it is always running away
[Music]
[Music] she said to me once I wish you would
she said to me once I wish you would
she said to me once I wish you would just kill yourself you’re such a burden
just kill yourself you’re such a burden
just kill yourself you’re such a burden to me I think I was 9 when my mom drove
to me I think I was 9 when my mom drove
to me I think I was 9 when my mom drove me down to the deepest part of Baja
me down to the deepest part of Baja
me down to the deepest part of Baja California and she walks me up to an
California and she walks me up to an
California and she walks me up to an orphanage and she knocks on the door and
orphanage and she knocks on the door and
orphanage and she knocks on the door and the guy comes to the door and she says I
found this kid and she left me there for
found this kid and she left me there for 90 days until my grandmother to get out
90 days until my grandmother to get out
90 days until my grandmother to get out of her where she had ducked to me and my
of her where she had ducked to me and my
of her where she had ducked to me and my grandmother came and rescued me my mom
grandmother came and rescued me my mom
grandmother came and rescued me my mom beat me every single day of my
beat me every single day of my
beat me every single day of my elementary school years with things you
elementary school years with things you
elementary school years with things you could imagine and a lot of things you
could imagine and a lot of things you
could imagine and a lot of things you couldn’t every day my back was bloodied
couldn’t every day my back was bloodied
couldn’t every day my back was bloodied and scarred
and scarred
and scarred [Music]
[Music]
[Music] I had to wear three t-shirts to school
I had to wear three t-shirts to school
I had to wear three t-shirts to school each day first t-shirt because the blood
each day first t-shirt because the blood
each day first t-shirt because the blood would seep through a second t-shirt you
would seep through a second t-shirt you
would seep through a second t-shirt you can still see it finally the third
can still see it finally the third
can still see it finally the third t-shirt you couldn’t see any blood
kids at school they make fun of me a
kids at school they make fun of me a fool it’s a hundred degrees why are you
fool it’s a hundred degrees why are you
fool it’s a hundred degrees why are you wearing three t-shirts and then he stops
wearing three t-shirts and then he stops
wearing three t-shirts and then he stops speaking so overwhelmed with emotion and
speaking so overwhelmed with emotion and
speaking so overwhelmed with emotion and he seemed to be staring at a piece of
he seemed to be staring at a piece of
he seemed to be staring at a piece of his story that only he could see when he
his story that only he could see when he
his story that only he could see when he could regain his speech she said through
could regain his speech she said through
could regain his speech she said through his tears I wore three t-shirts well
his tears I wore three t-shirts well
his tears I wore three t-shirts well into my adult ears because I was ashamed
into my adult ears because I was ashamed
into my adult ears because I was ashamed of my wounds I didn’t want anybody to
of my wounds I didn’t want anybody to
of my wounds I didn’t want anybody to see him but now I welcomed by wolves I
see him but now I welcomed by wolves I
see him but now I welcomed by wolves I run my fingers over my scars my wolves
run my fingers over my scars my wolves
run my fingers over my scars my wolves are my friends after all how can I help
are my friends after all how can I help
are my friends after all how can I help heal the wounded if I don’t welcome my
heal the wounded if I don’t welcome my
heal the wounded if I don’t welcome my own wolves
the measure of our compassion lies not
the measure of our compassion lies not in our service of those on the margins
in our service of those on the margins
in our service of those on the margins [Music]
[Music]
[Music] but only in our willingness to see
but only in our willingness to see
but only in our willingness to see ourselves in kinship with
but I remember we were playing against
but I remember we were playing against the Lakers Tom and we were out here at
the Lakers Tom and we were out here at
the Lakers Tom and we were out here at LA and you know like I always try to
LA and you know like I always try to
LA and you know like I always try to outwork people right that’s just how I
outwork people right that’s just how I
outwork people right that’s just how I made my mark so the game was at 7:00 I
made my mark so the game was at 7:00 I
made my mark so the game was at 7:00 I was like you know what I’m gonna come to
was like you know what I’m gonna come to
was like you know what I’m gonna come to the Staples Center because we’re playing
the Staples Center because we’re playing
the Staples Center because we’re playing this one Lakers had Kobe and Shaq okay
this one Lakers had Kobe and Shaq okay
this one Lakers had Kobe and Shaq okay this is this is like the championship
this is this is like the championship
this is this is like the championship Lakers so you know I’m gonna get there
Lakers so you know I’m gonna get there
Lakers so you know I’m gonna get there are three o’clock I want to make sure I
are three o’clock I want to make sure I
are three o’clock I want to make sure I make 400 made shots before I go back
make 400 made shots before I go back
make 400 made shots before I go back into the room and then I sit in a sauna
into the room and then I sit in a sauna
into the room and then I sit in a sauna and I get ready for the game so you know
and I get ready for the game so you know
and I get ready for the game so you know get in the car get to the gym get there
get in the car get to the gym get there
get in the car get to the gym get there and as I’m walking onto the court who do
and as I’m walking onto the court who do
and as I’m walking onto the court who do I see I see Kobe Bryant already working
I see I see Kobe Bryant already working
I see I see Kobe Bryant already working out so I put my sneakers on and so once
out so I put my sneakers on and so once
out so I put my sneakers on and so once I set my foot across that line I started
I set my foot across that line I started
I set my foot across that line I started working out and so I worked out for a
working out and so I worked out for a
working out and so I worked out for a good hour hour and a half and when I
good hour hour and a half and when I
good hour hour and a half and when I came off after I was done I sat down and
came off after I was done I sat down and
came off after I was done I sat down and of course I still heard the ball bounce
of course I still heard the ball bounce
of course I still heard the ball bounce he was working out like it looks like he
he was working out like it looks like he
he was working out like it looks like he was in a dead sweat when I got here and
was in a dead sweat when I got here and
was in a dead sweat when I got here and he’s still going and it’s not like his
he’s still going and it’s not like his
he’s still going and it’s not like his moves are nonchalant lazy it he’s doing
moves are nonchalant lazy it he’s doing
moves are nonchalant lazy it he’s doing like game moves getting a sauna and get
like game moves getting a sauna and get
like game moves getting a sauna and get ready for the game that game he drops 40
ready for the game that game he drops 40
ready for the game that game he drops 40 on us okay and after the game is over
on us okay and after the game is over
on us okay and after the game is over I’m like I have to ask this guy guy I
I’m like I have to ask this guy guy I
I’m like I have to ask this guy guy I have to understand like why why he works
have to understand like why why he works
have to understand like why why he works like that right so after games I’m like
like that right so after games I’m like
like that right so after games I’m like hey khob like why were you in a gym for
hey khob like why were you in a gym for
hey khob like why were you in a gym for so long he’s like cuz I saw you come in
so long he’s like cuz I saw you come in
so long he’s like cuz I saw you come in [Music]
that it doesn’t matter how hard you work
that it doesn’t matter how hard you work that I’m willing to work harder than you
that I’m willing to work harder than you
that I’m willing to work harder than you [Music]
[Music]
[Music] and it was the first time I started to
and it was the first time I started to
and it was the first time I started to see this level of competitiveness was it
see this level of competitiveness was it
see this level of competitiveness was it I need to start doing more
um this fed-up guy was fed up working
um this fed-up guy was fed up working for somebody else I was fed up taking
for somebody else I was fed up taking
for somebody else I was fed up taking the scraps that somebody that didn’t
the scraps that somebody that didn’t
the scraps that somebody that didn’t even know me is giving me I’m working
even know me is giving me I’m working
even know me is giving me I’m working for you putting in five five days a week
for you putting in five five days a week
for you putting in five five days a week eight hours a day you tell me when I’m
eight hours a day you tell me when I’m
eight hours a day you tell me when I’m gonna eat my lunch you tell me when I
gonna eat my lunch you tell me when I
gonna eat my lunch you tell me when I can take a break it was heavy labor too
can take a break it was heavy labor too
can take a break it was heavy labor too like I thought I was in this area in the
like I thought I was in this area in the
like I thought I was in this area in the building warehouse work where every kind
building warehouse work where every kind
building warehouse work where every kind of package that I had to do it was 35
of package that I had to do it was 35
of package that I had to do it was 35 pounds up so you’re dealing with like 70
pounds up so you’re dealing with like 70
pounds up so you’re dealing with like 70 pounds hundred pounds every day back to
pounds hundred pounds every day back to
pounds hundred pounds every day back to back to back to back to back to back to
back to back to back to back to back to
back to back to back to back to back to back and you finna tell me I can eat for
back and you finna tell me I can eat for
back and you finna tell me I can eat for 15 minutes I just necessary well and I
15 minutes I just necessary well and I
15 minutes I just necessary well and I knew I had too much to offer to the
knew I had too much to offer to the
knew I had too much to offer to the world so I left I was working to get
world so I left I was working to get
world so I left I was working to get enough money to be broke
enough money to be broke
enough money to be broke yeah I’m saying after I pay that cell
yeah I’m saying after I pay that cell
yeah I’m saying after I pay that cell phone bill after I pay my rent pay
phone bill after I pay my rent pay
phone bill after I pay my rent pay insurance and all that I had enough
insurance and all that I had enough
insurance and all that I had enough money to eat I had no money to really
money to eat I had no money to really
money to eat I had no money to really pay for studio time would have paid for
pay for studio time would have paid for
pay for studio time would have paid for some time struggling for gas like that
some time struggling for gas like that
some time struggling for gas like that last day I’m waiting on that Friday
last day I’m waiting on that Friday
last day I’m waiting on that Friday chick not knowing if I’m gonna make it
chick not knowing if I’m gonna make it
chick not knowing if I’m gonna make it the working shit I’m working to being
the working shit I’m working to being
the working shit I’m working to being broke you know we’re playing time games
broke you know we’re playing time games
broke you know we’re playing time games like oh I’m not gonna check my phone for
like oh I’m not gonna check my phone for
like oh I’m not gonna check my phone for five minutes I’m fucking my brother I’m
five minutes I’m fucking my brother I’m
five minutes I’m fucking my brother I’m not doing my life right now I can’t I
not doing my life right now I can’t I
not doing my life right now I can’t I cannot be living like this and to the
cannot be living like this and to the
cannot be living like this and to the person that’s trying to live up to the
person that’s trying to live up to the
person that’s trying to live up to the expectation you don’t got to do nothing
expectation you don’t got to do nothing
expectation you don’t got to do nothing you don’t gotta prove shit that nobody
you don’t gotta prove shit that nobody
you don’t gotta prove shit that nobody but yourself if your mom wants you to be
but yourself if your mom wants you to be
but yourself if your mom wants you to be a doctor like your mom had she had her
a doctor like your mom had she had her
a doctor like your mom had she had her shot to be a doctor actually if she did
shot to be a doctor actually if she did
shot to be a doctor actually if she did she could still be a doctor
she could still be a doctor
she could still be a doctor I only gotta prove something to myself I
I only gotta prove something to myself I
I only gotta prove something to myself I knew what I had to do
the universe cannot say no to a man as
the universe cannot say no to a man as determined and I truly believe that in
determined and I truly believe that in
determined and I truly believe that in my soul like it’s this determined when
my soul like it’s this determined when
my soul like it’s this determined when you determine the universe has this way
you determine the universe has this way
you determine the universe has this way of kind of moving itself out your way
of kind of moving itself out your way
of kind of moving itself out your way and giving you whatever you ask for God
and giving you whatever you ask for God
and giving you whatever you ask for God will work eight hours a day I work from
will work eight hours a day I work from
will work eight hours a day I work from 9:00 to 5:00 get sit in traffic for hour
9:00 to 5:00 get sit in traffic for hour
9:00 to 5:00 get sit in traffic for hour my car got no fucking a seen one so we
my car got no fucking a seen one so we
my car got no fucking a seen one so we talking Texas heat the whole summer no
talking Texas heat the whole summer no
talking Texas heat the whole summer no ACS 100-105 saw in the car you got a car
ACS 100-105 saw in the car you got a car
ACS 100-105 saw in the car you got a car that’s been sitting in the heat for
that’s been sitting in the heat for
that’s been sitting in the heat for eight hours so fit like 110 when you’re
eight hours so fit like 110 when you’re
eight hours so fit like 110 when you’re in there
in there
in there now going to studio eight hours go home
now going to studio eight hours go home
now going to studio eight hours go home 3:00 4:00 in the morning go back to
3:00 4:00 in the morning go back to
3:00 4:00 in the morning go back to where I do it again do it again and it
where I do it again do it again and it
where I do it again do it again and it was cool but it was like if I had 16
was cool but it was like if I had 16
was cool but it was like if I had 16 hours on Monday that I could focus on
hours on Monday that I could focus on
hours on Monday that I could focus on this how much better what I get like how
this how much better what I get like how
this how much better what I get like how much determine would be because
much determine would be because
much determine would be because everybody wants to buy lights but nobody
everybody wants to buy lights but nobody
everybody wants to buy lights but nobody prepares for
prepares for
prepares for [Music]
[Music]
[Music] I get that right now some can happen
I get that right now some can happen
I get that right now some can happen this building this building can fall in
this building this building can fall in
this building this building can fall in on this interview right now we’ve just
on this interview right now we’ve just
on this interview right now we’ve just gone Tuesday for no reason so out I
gone Tuesday for no reason so out I
gone Tuesday for no reason so out I spent a second of my life doing
spent a second of my life doing
spent a second of my life doing something that I I don’t want to do so
something that I I don’t want to do so
something that I I don’t want to do so whether that makes me a rapper while I’m
whether that makes me a rapper while I’m
whether that makes me a rapper while I’m living in the Hamptons and or living
living in the Hamptons and or living
living in the Hamptons and or living under a bridge on my live with the
under a bridge on my live with the
under a bridge on my live with the consequence I ain’t trying to say I wish
consequence I ain’t trying to say I wish
consequence I ain’t trying to say I wish shit unless I’m looking at a birthday
shit unless I’m looking at a birthday
shit unless I’m looking at a birthday [Music]
four o’clock in the morning I wake up
four o’clock in the morning I wake up 4:30 4:45 I’m doing some sort of cardio
4:30 4:45 I’m doing some sort of cardio
4:30 4:45 I’m doing some sort of cardio open these garage doors it’s still dark
open these garage doors it’s still dark
open these garage doors it’s still dark outside I do this and then I’ll have
outside I do this and then I’ll have
outside I do this and then I’ll have breakfast and then I will go do all my
breakfast and then I will go do all my
breakfast and then I will go do all my strength and conditioning training at a
strength and conditioning training at a
strength and conditioning training at a gym for about an hour and then I’ll go
gym for about an hour and then I’ll go
gym for about an hour and then I’ll go to said we are average probably about
to said we are average probably about
to said we are average probably about five hours of sleep it’s 4:45 a.m. it’s
five hours of sleep it’s 4:45 a.m. it’s
five hours of sleep it’s 4:45 a.m. it’s still dark outside look at that lights
still dark outside look at that lights
still dark outside look at that lights just went out and I’m getting ready to
just went out and I’m getting ready to
just went out and I’m getting ready to kill this AM cardio you can’t even see
kill this AM cardio you can’t even see
kill this AM cardio you can’t even see me but it’s gonna be so good it’s bad
you do anything you never want to do
you do anything you never want to do anything half-ass especially when it
anything half-ass especially when it
anything half-ass especially when it comes to your training get in the
comes to your training get in the
comes to your training get in the intense execute on it and get out
for a lot of guys out there and I was
for a lot of guys out there and I was certainly one of those guys in my 20s I
certainly one of those guys in my 20s I
certainly one of those guys in my 20s I thought I had all the answers didn’t
thought I had all the answers didn’t
thought I had all the answers didn’t know shit by the way in my 30s I’m still
know shit by the way in my 30s I’m still
know shit by the way in my 30s I’m still trying to find myself and a lot of guys
trying to find myself and a lot of guys
trying to find myself and a lot of guys are out there hopefully when you hit the
are out there hopefully when you hit the
are out there hopefully when you hit the 40’s you’re hitting a nice stride if I’m
40’s you’re hitting a nice stride if I’m
40’s you’re hitting a nice stride if I’m gonna do it I need to do this job right
gonna do it I need to do this job right
gonna do it I need to do this job right I need to stay focused on it I need to
I need to stay focused on it I need to
I need to stay focused on it I need to get the best effort I possibly can they
get the best effort I possibly can they
get the best effort I possibly can they live down here in South Florida it’s
live down here in South Florida it’s
live down here in South Florida it’s hurricane season
hurricane season
hurricane season fuck it but it’s time to go to the gym
fuck it but it’s time to go to the gym
fuck it but it’s time to go to the gym we got to get to the gym and there ain’t
we got to get to the gym and there ain’t
we got to get to the gym and there ain’t no stopping us like I’m gonna be the
no stopping us like I’m gonna be the
no stopping us like I’m gonna be the baddest motherfucker walking all right
baddest motherfucker walking all right
baddest motherfucker walking all right empty gym the way we’d like it it’s
empty gym the way we’d like it it’s
empty gym the way we’d like it it’s Sunday
Sunday
Sunday just finished my warmup this pain oughta
just finished my warmup this pain oughta
just finished my warmup this pain oughta be fun I worked out twice before
be fun I worked out twice before
be fun I worked out twice before everyone wakes up
everyone wakes up
everyone wakes up all right workout number two I’m out
all right workout number two I’m out
all right workout number two I’m out working all my competition
working all my competition
working all my competition all right Saturday afternoon empty gym
all right Saturday afternoon empty gym
all right Saturday afternoon empty gym the way we like it
the way we like it
the way we like it it’s late day which means it’s gonna be
it’s late day which means it’s gonna be
it’s late day which means it’s gonna be sweaty painful and fun a closed
sweaty painful and fun a closed
sweaty painful and fun a closed mindedness that amounts to an
mindedness that amounts to an
mindedness that amounts to an imprisonment so total that the prisoner
imprisonment so total that the prisoner
imprisonment so total that the prisoner doesn’t even know he’s locked up
[Music]
[Music] the most powerful tool that you have
the most powerful tool that you have
the most powerful tool that you have right now in your life in your body is
right now in your life in your body is
right now in your life in your body is your mind
give me a new perspective give me a new
give me a new perspective give me a new way of looking at my situation give me a
way of looking at my situation give me a
way of looking at my situation give me a new way of looking at my circumstances
new way of looking at my circumstances
new way of looking at my circumstances get my mind ready for this year
you can’t please everybody but they’re
you can’t please everybody but they’re people who have the fear of rocking the
people who have the fear of rocking the
people who have the fear of rocking the boat oh yes it’s going to be some
boat oh yes it’s going to be some
boat oh yes it’s going to be some struggles it’s going to be some
struggles it’s going to be some
struggles it’s going to be some challenges it’s gonna be some tests but
challenges it’s gonna be some tests but
challenges it’s gonna be some tests but even the struggles are an opportunity
even the struggles are an opportunity
even the struggles are an opportunity for me to show off the victory if my
for me to show off the victory if my
for me to show off the victory if my mind can handle the change the life is
mind can handle the change the life is
mind can handle the change the life is too short for that too short and
too short for that too short and
too short for that too short and unpredictable moseying through
[Music]
[Music] not trying to disturb anything not
not trying to disturb anything not
not trying to disturb anything not trying to shake anything up not trying
trying to shake anything up not trying
trying to shake anything up not trying to make any waves less yogurt I’m never
to make any waves less yogurt I’m never
to make any waves less yogurt I’m never going to be I can’t get any younger I
going to be I can’t get any younger I
going to be I can’t get any younger I can’t roll the clock back
can’t roll the clock back
can’t roll the clock back [Music]
you are wasting time you have to let
you are wasting time you have to let let’s go and step up into the future
when you set goals when you have an
when you set goals when you have an intention on something that you want to
intention on something that you want to
intention on something that you want to change about your life your brain helps
change about your life your brain helps
change about your life your brain helps you what it does is it opens up a
you what it does is it opens up a
you what it does is it opens up a checklist and then your brain goes to
checklist and then your brain goes to
checklist and then your brain goes to work trying to remind you it was cold it
work trying to remind you it was cold it
work trying to remind you it was cold it was winter in Boston and for the first
was winter in Boston and for the first
was winter in Boston and for the first time in three months I had beaten my
time in three months I had beaten my
time in three months I had beaten my habit of hitting the snooze button
and it’s really important to develop the
and it’s really important to develop the skill before you are boxed in very
skill before you are boxed in very
skill before you are boxed in very decide that you’re going to boxing there
decide that you’re going to boxing there
decide that you’re going to boxing there your fears decide that you’re going to
your fears decide that you’re going to
your fears decide that you’re going to begin to live life on a new level
begin to live life on a new level
begin to live life on a new level seeking out new horizons that you’re
seeking out new horizons that you’re
seeking out new horizons that you’re gonna find more love and more joy and
gonna find more love and more joy and
gonna find more love and more joy and more ways to give I wanted to change my
more ways to give I wanted to change my
more ways to give I wanted to change my life and I think most people that are
life and I think most people that are
life and I think most people that are miserable or that are that are really
miserable or that are that are really
miserable or that are that are really like dying to be great and dying to have
like dying to be great and dying to have
like dying to be great and dying to have more we want to change we want to live a
more we want to change we want to live a
more we want to change we want to live a better life we want to create more for
better life we want to create more for
better life we want to create more for our families we want to be happy
our families we want to be happy
our families we want to be happy the the designer is there again it’s
the the designer is there again it’s
the the designer is there again it’s about how do you go from knowledge to
about how do you go from knowledge to
about how do you go from knowledge to action
so the first thing in the story that’s
so the first thing in the story that’s important is realizing that the answer
important is realizing that the answer
important is realizing that the answer was in me and my mind was telling me pay
was in me and my mind was telling me pay
was in me and my mind was telling me pay attention
attention
attention [Music]
so when you begin to say what is it that
so when you begin to say what is it that I want to leave what contribution that I
I want to leave what contribution that I
I want to leave what contribution that I want to begin to make what difference do
want to begin to make what difference do
want to begin to make what difference do I want to make in life what is it that I
I want to make in life what is it that I
I want to make in life what is it that I want to do with the rest of the life
want to do with the rest of the life
want to do with the rest of the life that I have left what what chances I
that I have left what what chances I
that I have left what what chances I need to take what risks do I need to
need to take what risks do I need to
need to take what risks do I need to begin to embrace what fears do I need to
begin to embrace what fears do I need to
begin to embrace what fears do I need to step on what areas of my life of my dad
step on what areas of my life of my dad
step on what areas of my life of my dad right now what dream
right now what dream
right now what dream you can even live your dreams or live
you can even live your dreams or live
you can even live your dreams or live your fears you have got to get to a
your fears you have got to get to a
your fears you have got to get to a point where you say I’m sick and tired
point where you say I’m sick and tired
point where you say I’m sick and tired of living like this there’s got to be
of living like this there’s got to be
of living like this there’s got to be more let’s see that’s when people go out
more let’s see that’s when people go out
more let’s see that’s when people go out and strike out on their dreams how you
and strike out on their dreams how you
and strike out on their dreams how you going to make it I don’t know but I will
going to make it I don’t know but I will
going to make it I don’t know but I will I’m going to keep on kicking I’m gonna
I’m going to keep on kicking I’m gonna
I’m going to keep on kicking I’m gonna cut them off this
defeats the game this is RHIB this is
defeats the game this is RHIB this is real life champ work on you get what you
real life champ work on you get what you
real life champ work on you get what you gotta keep you don’t work hard you get
gotta keep you don’t work hard you get
gotta keep you don’t work hard you get not you get enough
not you get enough
not you get enough you gotta work hard work up you were on
you gotta work hard work up you were on
you gotta work hard work up you were on to do what you gotta get you don’t work
to do what you gotta get you don’t work
to do what you gotta get you don’t work hard do nothing you don’t get enough
hard do nothing you don’t get enough
hard do nothing you don’t get enough see what not
see what not
see what not zero none keyboard work on the German
zero none keyboard work on the German
zero none keyboard work on the German strategy
thummell why I’m going to fight I’m
thummell why I’m going to fight I’m going to work I’m going to press forward
going to work I’m going to press forward
going to work I’m going to press forward I’m going to learn I’m going to do
I’m going to learn I’m going to do
I’m going to learn I’m going to do everything in my power every single day
everything in my power every single day
everything in my power every single day I’m going to do everything in my power
I’m going to do everything in my power
I’m going to do everything in my power to become a Victor and not a victim of
to become a Victor and not a victim of
to become a Victor and not a victim of let’s go champ
let’s go champ
let’s go champ let’s go champ pain is temporary it may
let’s go champ pain is temporary it may
let’s go champ pain is temporary it may last for a minute or an hour or a day or
last for a minute or an hour or a day or
last for a minute or an hour or a day or even a year but eventually it will
even a year but eventually it will
even a year but eventually it will subside and something else will take its
subside and something else will take its
subside and something else will take its place if I quit however it will last
place if I quit however it will last
place if I quit however it will last forever you want to get better you want
forever you want to get better you want
forever you want to get better you want to self-improve stop looking for a
to self-improve stop looking for a
to self-improve stop looking for a shortcut and go find your alarm clock
shortcut and go find your alarm clock
shortcut and go find your alarm clock and find your discipline and fling your
and find your discipline and fling your
and find your discipline and fling your guts and your passion and your drive and
guts and your passion and your drive and
guts and your passion and your drive and find it you will and then and then you
find it you will and then and then you
find it you will and then and then you will find your freedom
if you’re afraid of heights work on some
if you’re afraid of heights work on some rock climbing climbing if you’re afraid
rock climbing climbing if you’re afraid
rock climbing climbing if you’re afraid of the water time to swim it’s time to
of the water time to swim it’s time to
of the water time to swim it’s time to surf is trying to get out there if
surf is trying to get out there if
surf is trying to get out there if you’re afraid of pull-ups if if you’re
you’re afraid of pull-ups if if you’re
you’re afraid of pull-ups if if you’re prey to pulp to do poles if you’re in
prey to pulp to do poles if you’re in
prey to pulp to do poles if you’re in squats do squats if you’re afraid of
squats do squats if you’re afraid of
squats do squats if you’re afraid of public speaking go speak in public if
public speaking go speak in public if
public speaking go speak in public if you’re afraid to start a business start
you’re afraid to start a business start
you’re afraid to start a business start a business and eventually you will
a business and eventually you will
a business and eventually you will overcome that fear but the hard part is
overcome that fear but the hard part is
overcome that fear but the hard part is you got to take that first step you’ve
you got to take that first step you’ve
you got to take that first step you’ve got to take that first step
got to take that first step
got to take that first step [Music]
[Music]
[Music] got to take that first step against the
got to take that first step against the
got to take that first step against the fear against the fear of the thing
if you die today
if you die today what dreams what ideas what books what
what dreams what ideas what books what
what dreams what ideas what books what leadership what voice what story would I
of the dreams the ideas the abilities
of the dreams the ideas the abilities the talents given to you by life but you
the talents given to you by life but you
the talents given to you by life but you for whatever reason you never pursued
for whatever reason you never pursued
for whatever reason you never pursued those dreams you never use those talents
those dreams you never use those talents
those dreams you never use those talents you never use those gifts you never use
you never use those gifts you never use
you never use those gifts you never use those abilities and there they are
those abilities and there they are
those abilities and there they are standing around your bed looking at you
standing around your bed looking at you
standing around your bed looking at you with large angry eyes saying we came to
with large angry eyes saying we came to
with large angry eyes saying we came to you only you could have given us life
you only you could have given us life
you only you could have given us life and now we must die with you forever and
and now we must die with you forever and
and now we must die with you forever and the question is if you died today what
the question is if you died today what
the question is if you died today what dreams what ideas what books what
dreams what ideas what books what
dreams what ideas what books what leadership what voice what story will
leadership what voice what story will
leadership what voice what story will die with you
die with you
die with you [Music]
I said empty your mind be formless
I said empty your mind be formless shapeless like water now you put water
shapeless like water now you put water
shapeless like water now you put water into a cup it becomes the cup you put
into a cup it becomes the cup you put
into a cup it becomes the cup you put water into a bottle it becomes the
water into a bottle it becomes the
water into a bottle it becomes the bottle you’re putting in a teapot it
bottle you’re putting in a teapot it
bottle you’re putting in a teapot it becomes the teapot I want a good flow oh
becomes the teapot I want a good flow oh
becomes the teapot I want a good flow oh it can crash the water my friend
let’s suppose that you were able every
let’s suppose that you were able every night to dream any dream you wanted to
night to dream any dream you wanted to
night to dream any dream you wanted to dream and that you could for example
dream and that you could for example
dream and that you could for example have the power within one night to dream
have the power within one night to dream
have the power within one night to dream 75 years of time or any length of time
75 years of time or any length of time
75 years of time or any length of time you wanted to have and you would
you wanted to have and you would
you wanted to have and you would naturally as you began on this adventure
naturally as you began on this adventure
naturally as you began on this adventure of Dreams you would fulfill all your
of Dreams you would fulfill all your
of Dreams you would fulfill all your wishes you would have every kind of
wishes you would have every kind of
wishes you would have every kind of pleasure you see and after several
pleasure you see and after several
pleasure you see and after several nights of 75 years of total pleasure
nights of 75 years of total pleasure
nights of 75 years of total pleasure each you would say well I was pretty
each you would say well I was pretty
each you would say well I was pretty good
good
good [Music]
[Music]
[Music] let’s have a dream which isn’t under
let’s have a dream which isn’t under
let’s have a dream which isn’t under control
control
control well something is going to happen to me
well something is going to happen to me
well something is going to happen to me that I don’t know what its gonna be and
you would dig that and come out of that
you would dig that and come out of that and say wow that was a close shave
and say wow that was a close shave
and say wow that was a close shave wasn’t it then you would get more and
wasn’t it then you would get more and
wasn’t it then you would get more and more adventurous and you would make
more adventurous and you would make
more adventurous and you would make further and further out Gamble’s as to
further and further out Gamble’s as to
further and further out Gamble’s as to what you would dream
what you would dream
what you would dream [Music]
[Music]
[Music] and finally you would dream where you
and finally you would dream where you
and finally you would dream where you are now you would dream the dream of
are now you would dream the dream of
are now you would dream the dream of living the life that you are actually
living the life that you are actually
living the life that you are actually living today that would be within the
living today that would be within the
living today that would be within the infinite multiplicity of choices you
infinite multiplicity of choices you
infinite multiplicity of choices you would have we’re here the nature of love
would have we’re here the nature of love
would have we’re here the nature of love is self-abandonment not clinging to
is self-abandonment not clinging to
is self-abandonment not clinging to oneself throwing yourself out that keeps
oneself throwing yourself out that keeps
oneself throwing yourself out that keeps things moving that’s the nature of life
things moving that’s the nature of life
things moving that’s the nature of life so in this idea then everybody is
so in this idea then everybody is
so in this idea then everybody is fundamentally the ultimate reality not
fundamentally the ultimate reality not
fundamentally the ultimate reality not God in a politically kingly sense but
God in a politically kingly sense but
God in a politically kingly sense but God in the sense of being the self that
God in the sense of being the self that
God in the sense of being the self that deep down basic whatever there is and
deep down basic whatever there is and
deep down basic whatever there is and you’re all that only you’re pretending
you’re all that only you’re pretending
you’re all that only you’re pretending you’re not
you would dream the dream of living the
you would dream the dream of living the life that you are actually living today
life that you are actually living today
life that you are actually living today [Music]
[Music]
[Music] people want to know how to stop the
people want to know how to stop the
people want to know how to stop the laziness and they will know how to stop
laziness and they will know how to stop
laziness and they will know how to stop the procrastination and you know they
the procrastination and you know they
the procrastination and you know they have some idea in their head you know
have some idea in their head you know
have some idea in their head you know some kind of a vision what they want to
some kind of a vision what they want to
some kind of a vision what they want to do but they don’t know where to start
do but they don’t know where to start
do but they don’t know where to start then in order to start it you know they
then in order to start it you know they
then in order to start it you know they don’t know where to start
don’t know where to start
don’t know where to start and say they say hey where do I start
and say they say hey where do I start
and say they say hey where do I start and and when’s the best time to start
and and when’s the best time to start
and and when’s the best time to start and I have a very simple answer flat
and I have a very simple answer flat
and I have a very simple answer flat here and now that’s it
here and now that’s it
here and now that’s it you want to improve you want to get
you want to improve you want to get
you want to improve you want to get better you want to get on a workout
better you want to get on a workout
better you want to get on a workout program or a clean diet you want to
program or a clean diet you want to
program or a clean diet you want to start a business you want to write a
start a business you want to write a
start a business you want to write a book or make a movie or build a house or
book or make a movie or build a house or
book or make a movie or build a house or a computer or put together some mobile
a computer or put together some mobile
a computer or put together some mobile application where do you start
you start regular and when do you start
you start regular and when do you start you start right now I had beaten my
you start right now I had beaten my
you start right now I had beaten my habit of hitting the snooze button
habit of hitting the snooze button
habit of hitting the snooze button I couldn’t believe it and I thought wait
I couldn’t believe it and I thought wait
I couldn’t believe it and I thought wait a minute counting backward citizen
a minute counting backward citizen
a minute counting backward citizen dumbest thing I’ve ever heard in my
dumbest thing I’ve ever heard in my
dumbest thing I’ve ever heard in my entire life
entire life
entire life well the next morning I used to get in
well the next morning I used to get in
well the next morning I used to get in at work the next morning I used it again
at work the next morning I used it again
at work the next morning I used it again and a fourth the next morning I used it
and a fourth the next morning I used it
and a fourth the next morning I used it again and it worked and then I started
again and it worked and then I started
again and it worked and then I started to notice something really interesting
to notice something really interesting
to notice something really interesting there were moments all day long all day
there were moments all day long all day
there were moments all day long all day long just like that five-second moment
long just like that five-second moment
long just like that five-second moment in bed where I knew knowledge what I
in bed where I knew knowledge what I
in bed where I knew knowledge what I should do and if I didn’t move within
should do and if I didn’t move within
should do and if I didn’t move within five seconds my brain would step in and
five seconds my brain would step in and
five seconds my brain would step in and talk me out of it every human being has
talk me out of it every human being has
talk me out of it every human being has a five-second window might even be
a five-second window might even be
a five-second window might even be shorter for you you have about a
shorter for you you have about a
shorter for you you have about a five-second window in which you can move
five-second window in which you can move
five-second window in which you can move from idea to action before your brain
from idea to action before your brain
from idea to action before your brain kicks into full gear and sabotages any
kicks into full gear and sabotages any
kicks into full gear and sabotages any change in behavior because remember your
change in behavior because remember your
change in behavior because remember your brain is wired to stop you from doing
brain is wired to stop you from doing
brain is wired to stop you from doing things that are uncomfortable or
things that are uncomfortable or
things that are uncomfortable or uncertain or scary it’s your job to
uncertain or scary it’s your job to
uncertain or scary it’s your job to learn how to move from those ideas that
learn how to move from those ideas that
learn how to move from those ideas that could change everything into acting on
could change everything into acting on
could change everything into acting on look for the job that you would take if
look for the job that you would take if
look for the job that you would take if you didn’t need a job
don’t sleepwalk through life and don’t
don’t sleepwalk through life and don’t don’t say it’s all gonna be great you
don’t say it’s all gonna be great you
don’t say it’s all gonna be great you know I’ll do this and I’ll do that and
know I’ll do this and I’ll do that and
know I’ll do this and I’ll do that and you know I’m just marking time don’t
you know I’m just marking time don’t
you know I’m just marking time don’t need to be older you really want to be
need to be older you really want to be
need to be older you really want to be doing what you love doing and you can’t
doing what you love doing and you can’t
doing what you love doing and you can’t necessarily find it on your first job
necessarily find it on your first job
necessarily find it on your first job [Music]
given all the opportunities that are
given all the opportunities that are there in the world to try and figure out
there in the world to try and figure out
there in the world to try and figure out the thing that actually makes you want
the thing that actually makes you want
the thing that actually makes you want to get up in the morning the thing that
to get up in the morning the thing that
to get up in the morning the thing that you actually love I feel this thing that
you actually love I feel this thing that
you actually love I feel this thing that should exist and you take that leap of
should exist and you take that leap of
should exist and you take that leap of faith that it may work I would still go
faith that it may work I would still go
faith that it may work I would still go home from whatever that day job is and I
home from whatever that day job is and I
home from whatever that day job is and I would try to do it because I love it not
would try to do it because I love it not
would try to do it because I love it not because I really want to make a certain
because I really want to make a certain
because I really want to make a certain amount of money figure out the thing
amount of money figure out the thing
amount of money figure out the thing that makes you tick find that thing
that young people feel like if they
that young people feel like if they don’t know what they’re born to do that
don’t know what they’re born to do that
don’t know what they’re born to do that there’s somehow broken and I think that
there’s somehow broken and I think that
there’s somehow broken and I think that it needs to be looked at differently
it needs to be looked at differently
it needs to be looked at differently which is that it means if you don’t know
which is that it means if you don’t know
which is that it means if you don’t know that thing it means that every door is
that thing it means that every door is
that thing it means that every door is this the possibility and if you can find
this the possibility and if you can find
this the possibility and if you can find that thing and deal with the pressure of
that thing and deal with the pressure of
that thing and deal with the pressure of maybe not making the amount of money
maybe not making the amount of money
maybe not making the amount of money that you would like to yet we’re not
that you would like to yet we’re not
that you would like to yet we’re not getting to the company you’d like to get
getting to the company you’d like to get
getting to the company you’d like to get or not having success with your startup
or not having success with your startup
or not having success with your startup yet these are all things that I think
yet these are all things that I think
yet these are all things that I think you can swallow if the thing you’re
you can swallow if the thing you’re
you can swallow if the thing you’re doing speaks to you it’s that constant
doing speaks to you it’s that constant
doing speaks to you it’s that constant pursuit of the unobtainable which is
pursuit of the unobtainable which is
pursuit of the unobtainable which is kind of magic riddle to approach
kind of magic riddle to approach
kind of magic riddle to approach something with a kind of excitement that
something with a kind of excitement that
something with a kind of excitement that is shared in this weird way where you
is shared in this weird way where you
is shared in this weird way where you just know it makes you happy it’ll say
just know it makes you happy it’ll say
just know it makes you happy it’ll say I’m working on this thing but I don’t
I’m working on this thing but I don’t
I’m working on this thing but I don’t know if Ames gonna like it feels sort of
know if Ames gonna like it feels sort of
know if Ames gonna like it feels sort of like this boring thing that I love you
like this boring thing that I love you
like this boring thing that I love you know and it’s amazing how often that
know and it’s amazing how often that
know and it’s amazing how often that boring thing that you love becomes a
boring thing that you love becomes a
boring thing that you love becomes a sensation I think the key is to do that
sensation I think the key is to do that
sensation I think the key is to do that I would say don’t stress yourself out
I would say don’t stress yourself out
I would say don’t stress yourself out your voice is as important as anyone
your voice is as important as anyone
your voice is as important as anyone elses
so it’s a lot easier to actually write a
so it’s a lot easier to actually write a screenplay than you think it is might
screenplay than you think it is might
screenplay than you think it is might not be good but most people talk about
not be good but most people talk about
not be good but most people talk about writing screenplays but don’t actually
writing screenplays but don’t actually
writing screenplays but don’t actually write them the people who write them
write them the people who write them
write them the people who write them you’re already like in you know the top
you’re already like in you know the top
you’re already like in you know the top 10% because you actually have written it
10% because you actually have written it
10% because you actually have written it I have the same work like someone’s
I have the same work like someone’s
I have the same work like someone’s trying to take it all away from you you
trying to take it all away from you you
trying to take it all away from you you know you actually work like no one’s
know you actually work like no one’s
know you actually work like no one’s spending 24 hours working 24 hours to
spending 24 hours working 24 hours to
spending 24 hours working 24 hours to take it all away from you when sometimes
take it all away from you when sometimes
take it all away from you when sometimes people don’t have the determination the
people don’t have the determination the
people don’t have the determination the will and the steadfast mister tenacity
will and the steadfast mister tenacity
will and the steadfast mister tenacity they are they giving them the slightest
they are they giving them the slightest
they are they giving them the slightest struggle
really viewed myself as particularly
really viewed myself as particularly talented view myself as you know
talented view myself as you know
talented view myself as you know slightly above average in talent and
slightly above average in talent and
slightly above average in talent and where I excel is ridiculous sickening
where I excel is ridiculous sickening
where I excel is ridiculous sickening work ethic you know while the other guys
work ethic you know while the other guys
work ethic you know while the other guys sleeping I’m working a lot of other guys
sleeping I’m working a lot of other guys
sleeping I’m working a lot of other guys eating I’m working you know hard
eating I’m working you know hard
eating I’m working you know hard whoop-ass I put in a hell of a woman
whoop-ass I put in a hell of a woman
whoop-ass I put in a hell of a woman parrot will Paisley I’m sitting at the
parrot will Paisley I’m sitting at the
parrot will Paisley I’m sitting at the top I I poured it all on the line I show
top I I poured it all on the line I show
top I I poured it all on the line I show up I perform and I get the results from
up I perform and I get the results from
up I perform and I get the results from that and discipline doing to hate to do
that and discipline doing to hate to do
that and discipline doing to hate to do but do it like you love it
but do it like you love it
but do it like you love it you know always testing this over
you know always testing this over
you know always testing this over forcing yourself to the limit do you
forcing yourself to the limit do you
forcing yourself to the limit do you have to have some ability
have to have some ability
have to have some ability but then it’s just how much will I
but then it’s just how much will I
but then it’s just how much will I really do think there’s just people
really do think there’s just people
really do think there’s just people underestimate it doesn’t sound sexy
underestimate it doesn’t sound sexy
underestimate it doesn’t sound sexy it doesn’t sound cool how much does one
it doesn’t sound cool how much does one
it doesn’t sound cool how much does one work ethic you know and just how badly
work ethic you know and just how badly
work ethic you know and just how badly do you want
that’s what success in general all about
that’s what success in general all about sacrifice for my experience every damn
sacrifice for my experience every damn
sacrifice for my experience every damn person who said I wouldn’t be anything
person who said I wouldn’t be anything
person who said I wouldn’t be anything I’m crushing them every day
not only so the question is how much
not only so the question is how much time you go with
don’t know who you are I don’t know what
don’t know who you are I don’t know what you’re going through I’m not here to
you’re going through I’m not here to
you’re going through I’m not here to pretend that you know I understand what
pretend that you know I understand what
pretend that you know I understand what you’re going through or how you feel in
you’re going through or how you feel in
you’re going through or how you feel in your life I think the biggest disability
your life I think the biggest disability
your life I think the biggest disability that we have as human beings is unbelief
everything starts with a vision and the
everything starts with a vision and the man without vision dies
[Music]
[Music] hate the idea of potential being wasted
hate the idea of potential being wasted
hate the idea of potential being wasted in this world you know how it is if you
in this world you know how it is if you
in this world you know how it is if you didn’t go what you’ve gone through you
didn’t go what you’ve gone through you
didn’t go what you’ve gone through you wouldn’t be who you are today
as I kept trying new things new doors
as I kept trying new things new doors kept opening because you don’t know what
kept opening because you don’t know what
kept opening because you don’t know what your future is you just don’t
[Music]
[Music] you’ll never know what’s gonna happen
you’ll never know what’s gonna happen
you’ll never know what’s gonna happen you never know what the future holds for
you never know what the future holds for
you never know what the future holds for you go for it try it because another
you go for it try it because another
you go for it try it because another thing I am no different than anyone else
thing I am no different than anyone else
thing I am no different than anyone else out there I am NOT here to say I have a
out there I am NOT here to say I have a
out there I am NOT here to say I have a superpower and it was all this
superpower and it was all this
superpower and it was all this it was just tryin go let’s see what
it was just tryin go let’s see what
it was just tryin go let’s see what happened
patience let’s say don’t complain when
patience let’s say don’t complain when you’re waiting in a line you ain’t going
you’re waiting in a line you ain’t going
you’re waiting in a line you ain’t going to growing patience until you put in a
to growing patience until you put in a
to growing patience until you put in a place to wait
there are some times where you’re going
there are some times where you’re going to wish that you could rewind and and do
to wish that you could rewind and and do
to wish that you could rewind and and do things all over again there are times
things all over again there are times
things all over again there are times where you just wish you could forget
where you just wish you could forget
where you just wish you could forget memories and you try to drown those
memories and you try to drown those
memories and you try to drown those memories in alcohol or different
memories in alcohol or different
memories in alcohol or different pleasures and maybe get distracted by
pleasures and maybe get distracted by
pleasures and maybe get distracted by the goals and ambitions of your life and
the goals and ambitions of your life and
the goals and ambitions of your life and try to put the past behind and move
try to put the past behind and move
try to put the past behind and move forward
you should wake up worried terrified
you should wake up worried terrified every morning but don’t be worried about
every morning but don’t be worried about
every morning but don’t be worried about our competitors cuz they’re never gonna
our competitors cuz they’re never gonna
our competitors cuz they’re never gonna send us any money anyway
send us any money anyway
send us any money anyway let’s be worried about our customers and
let’s be worried about our customers and
let’s be worried about our customers and stay heads down focused one of my jobs
stay heads down focused one of my jobs
stay heads down focused one of my jobs as the leader of Amazon is to encourage
as the leader of Amazon is to encourage
as the leader of Amazon is to encourage people to be bold and people love to
people to be bold and people love to
people to be bold and people love to focus on things that aren’t yet working
focus on things that aren’t yet working
focus on things that aren’t yet working and that’s good it’s human nature that
and that’s good it’s human nature that
and that’s good it’s human nature that kind of divine discontent can be very
kind of divine discontent can be very
kind of divine discontent can be very helpful but you really you know it’s
helpful but you really you know it’s
helpful but you really you know it’s incredibly hard to get people to take
incredibly hard to get people to take
incredibly hard to get people to take bold bets and you need to encourage that
bold bets and you need to encourage that
bold bets and you need to encourage that and if you’re gonna take bold bets
and if you’re gonna take bold bets
and if you’re gonna take bold bets they’re gonna be experiments and if
they’re gonna be experiments and if
they’re gonna be experiments and if they’re experiments you don’t know ahead
they’re experiments you don’t know ahead
they’re experiments you don’t know ahead of time though they’re going to work
of time though they’re going to work
of time though they’re going to work experiments are by their very nature
experiments are by their very nature
experiments are by their very nature prone to failure but big success is a
prone to failure but big success is a
prone to failure but big success is a few big successes compensate for dozens
few big successes compensate for dozens
few big successes compensate for dozens and dozens of things that didn’t work
I’ve made billions of dollars of
I’ve made billions of dollars of failures at amazon.com literally
failures at amazon.com literally
failures at amazon.com literally billions of dollars of failures because
billions of dollars of failures because
billions of dollars of failures because we know from our past experiences that
we know from our past experiences that
we know from our past experiences that big things start small
the biggest oak starts from an acorn and
the biggest oak starts from an acorn and you’ve got a record
you’ve got a record
you’ve got a record you want to do anything new you’ve got
you want to do anything new you’ve got
you want to do anything new you’ve got to be willing to let that acorn grow
to be willing to let that acorn grow
to be willing to let that acorn grow into a little sapling and then finally
into a little sapling and then finally
into a little sapling and then finally into a small tree it maybe one day it’ll
into a small tree it maybe one day it’ll
into a small tree it maybe one day it’ll be a big business on its own the Amazon
be a big business on its own the Amazon
be a big business on its own the Amazon started as a very small company it was
started as a very small company it was
started as a very small company it was me and a few other people I was driving
me and a few other people I was driving
me and a few other people I was driving all the packages to the post office
all the packages to the post office
all the packages to the post office myself in my 1987 Chevy Blazer you can’t
myself in my 1987 Chevy Blazer you can’t
myself in my 1987 Chevy Blazer you can’t skip steps you have to put one foot in
skip steps you have to put one foot in
skip steps you have to put one foot in front of the other things take time you
front of the other things take time you
front of the other things take time you there are no shortcuts and but but you
there are no shortcuts and but but you
there are no shortcuts and but but you want to do those steps with you know
want to do those steps with you know
want to do those steps with you know passion and ferocity
it’s easy to have ideas it’s very hard
it’s easy to have ideas it’s very hard to turn an idea into a successful
to turn an idea into a successful
to turn an idea into a successful product there are a lot of steps in
product there are a lot of steps in
product there are a lot of steps in between it takes persistence
between it takes persistence
between it takes persistence relentlessness
relentlessness
relentlessness [Music]
is the stress primarily comes from not
is the stress primarily comes from not taking action over something that you
taking action over something that you
taking action over something that you can have some control
do something you’re very passionate
do something you’re very passionate about I wanted to project myself forward
about I wanted to project myself forward
about I wanted to project myself forward to age 80 and say okay now I’m looking
to age 80 and say okay now I’m looking
to age 80 and say okay now I’m looking back on my life I want to have minimized
back on my life I want to have minimized
back on my life I want to have minimized the number of regrets I have and you
the number of regrets I have and you
the number of regrets I have and you know what I knew that when I was 80 I
know what I knew that when I was 80 I
know what I knew that when I was 80 I was not going to regret having tried
was not going to regret having tried
was not going to regret having tried this I was not gonna regret having
this I was not gonna regret having
this I was not gonna regret having wanted you know trying to participate in
wanted you know trying to participate in
wanted you know trying to participate in this thing called the Internet that I
this thing called the Internet that I
this thing called the Internet that I thought was gonna be a really big deal I
thought was gonna be a really big deal I
thought was gonna be a really big deal I knew that if I failed
knew that if I failed
knew that if I failed I wouldn’t regret that
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