you have to allow yourself to be seen to risk being seen is the toughest thing in
risk being seen is the toughest thing in
risk being seen is the toughest thing in the world we’re all very shy of people
the world we’re all very shy of people
the world we’re all very shy of people we’re shy and the emotion is right there
we’re shy and the emotion is right there
we’re shy and the emotion is right there on the surface if you pricked me with a
on the surface if you pricked me with a
on the surface if you pricked me with a pin I would fly around the room that’s
pin I would fly around the room that’s
pin I would fly around the room that’s the risk is that you are showing them
the risk is that you are showing them
the risk is that you are showing them yourself you’re your true authentic self
yourself you’re your true authentic self
yourself you’re your true authentic self and the chances of being rejected are
and the chances of being rejected are
and the chances of being rejected are much more important you know much more
much more important you know much more
much more important you know much more terrifying when I was I guess 15 with
terrifying when I was I guess 15 with
terrifying when I was I guess 15 with his 15 years old and I was looking for a
his 15 years old and I was looking for a
his 15 years old and I was looking for a way into the business and my dad was out
way into the business and my dad was out
way into the business and my dad was out of work there was never any other choice
of work there was never any other choice
of work there was never any other choice you know there’s never any other choice
you know there’s never any other choice
you know there’s never any other choice from an atomic and that I that there was
from an atomic and that I that there was
from an atomic and that I that there was consciousness in the body I was looking
consciousness in the body I was looking
consciousness in the body I was looking at a man named Percy my dad who was the
at a man named Percy my dad who was the
at a man named Percy my dad who was the most incredible character that you’d
most incredible character that you’d
most incredible character that you’d ever meet if you met him for five
ever meet if you met him for five
ever meet if you met him for five minutes you thought you knew him for 50
minutes you thought you knew him for 50
minutes you thought you knew him for 50 years and he wrapped every one that came
years and he wrapped every one that came
years and he wrapped every one that came into our house in stories and jokes I
into our house in stories and jokes I
into our house in stories and jokes I became his calling at a certain point
became his calling at a certain point
became his calling at a certain point and he was always super behind me but
and he was always super behind me but
and he was always super behind me but from the first time I can remember him
from the first time I can remember him
from the first time I can remember him just lighting up the room you know and
just lighting up the room you know and
just lighting up the room you know and him just like wrapping everybody in a
him just like wrapping everybody in a
him just like wrapping everybody in a story or whatever and and going oh
story or whatever and and going oh
story or whatever and and going oh that’s that’s the thing I want to do
that’s that’s the thing I want to do
that’s that’s the thing I want to do well that’s that’s what I want to be
well that’s that’s what I want to be
well that’s that’s what I want to be because he was always there
because I became what was special about
because I became what was special about the family the one thing I like people
the family the one thing I like people
the family the one thing I like people talk about depression all the time the
talk about depression all the time the
talk about depression all the time the difference between depression and
difference between depression and
difference between depression and sadness sadness is just you know from
sadness sadness is just you know from
sadness sadness is just you know from happenstance whatever happened or didn’t
happenstance whatever happened or didn’t
happenstance whatever happened or didn’t happen for you or you know grief or
happen for you or you know grief or
happen for you or you know grief or whatever it is and depression is your
whatever it is and depression is your
whatever it is and depression is your body saying you I don’t want to be
body saying you I don’t want to be
body saying you I don’t want to be this character anymore I don’t want to
this character anymore I don’t want to
this character anymore I don’t want to hold up this this avatar that you’ve
hold up this this avatar that you’ve
hold up this this avatar that you’ve created in the world deep rest your body
created in the world deep rest your body
created in the world deep rest your body needs to be depressed
needs to be depressed
needs to be depressed it needs deep rest from the character
it needs deep rest from the character
it needs deep rest from the character that you’ve been trying to play
that you’ve been trying to play
that you’ve been trying to play I want to challenge your beliefs I want
I want to challenge your beliefs I want
I want to challenge your beliefs I want to challenge the the properness of this
to challenge the the properness of this
to challenge the the properness of this occasion or whatever it is and throw it
occasion or whatever it is and throw it
occasion or whatever it is and throw it on its head in a way that you can accept
on its head in a way that you can accept
on its head in a way that you can accept them and love and look for you so I’ve
them and love and look for you so I’ve
them and love and look for you so I’ve been in the business of freeing people
been in the business of freeing people
been in the business of freeing people from concerning I just think it’s in
from concerning I just think it’s in
from concerning I just think it’s in your nature it isn’t in your nature
your nature it isn’t in your nature
your nature it isn’t in your nature you know it’s like it’s it’s kind of
you know it’s like it’s it’s kind of
you know it’s like it’s it’s kind of want to see the same old thing and I
want to see the same old thing and I
want to see the same old thing and I think there’s a ton of people out there
think there’s a ton of people out there
think there’s a ton of people out there don’t want to see the same old thing and
don’t want to see the same old thing and
don’t want to see the same old thing and it’s very strange because I’ve been
it’s very strange because I’ve been
it’s very strange because I’ve been sharing things that you know lately
sharing things that you know lately
sharing things that you know lately about what I believe in stuff that are
about what I believe in stuff that are
about what I believe in stuff that are really kind of maybe a few years ago
really kind of maybe a few years ago
really kind of maybe a few years ago might have been like okay Jim maybe
might have been like okay Jim maybe
might have been like okay Jim maybe we’ll join you on that planet someday
I’m finding that people are all kind of
I’m finding that people are all kind of in for the most part accepting of
in for the most part accepting of
in for the most part accepting of another kind of way of looking at things
another kind of way of looking at things
another kind of way of looking at things or letting go of character
the river of tears that we all have to
the river of tears that we all have to face and eventually and that we’re all
face and eventually and that we’re all
face and eventually and that we’re all avoiding and how the other side there’s
avoiding and how the other side there’s
avoiding and how the other side there’s you know that your body can survive it
you know that your body can survive it
you know that your body can survive it but you can’t better off without you or
but you can’t better off without you or
but you can’t better off without you or and I think you’re supposed to say you
and I think you’re supposed to say you
and I think you’re supposed to say you know we’re important you’re supposed to
know we’re important you’re supposed to
know we’re important you’re supposed to say it’s all going to be alright and
say it’s all going to be alright and
say it’s all going to be alright and you’re supposed to say that you know
you’re supposed to say that you know
you’re supposed to say that you know whatever you dream can come true and
whatever you dream can come true and
whatever you dream can come true and you’re supposed to say all those things
you’re supposed to say all those things
you’re supposed to say all those things I do believe in manifestation and power
I do believe in manifestation and power
I do believe in manifestation and power of that kind of stuff but I don’t
of that kind of stuff but I don’t
of that kind of stuff but I don’t believe that any of it matters you know
believe that any of it matters you know
believe that any of it matters you know and this mattering is is to me a human
and this mattering is is to me a human
and this mattering is is to me a human construct born out of a need to say the
construct born out of a need to say the
construct born out of a need to say the same need is you have to have you know
same need is you have to have you know
same need is you have to have you know deities and things like that I believe
deities and things like that I believe
deities and things like that I believe in an energy of God energy of you know
in an energy of God energy of you know
in an energy of God energy of you know everything is divine you know there’s
everything is divine you know there’s
everything is divine you know there’s just not there’s no there’s no thing
just not there’s no there’s no thing
just not there’s no there’s no thing that isn’t divine everything is divine
that isn’t divine everything is divine
that isn’t divine everything is divine and I’m that and not the body you guys
and I’m that and not the body you guys
and I’m that and not the body you guys and this thing and I’m this thing the
and this thing and I’m this thing the
and this thing and I’m this thing the cameras and it doesn’t matter to me
cameras and it doesn’t matter to me
cameras and it doesn’t matter to me sometimes I still have the groove cut in
sometimes I still have the groove cut in
sometimes I still have the groove cut in me that you know wants my hair to look
me that you know wants my hair to look
me that you know wants my hair to look nice I’m finding that ultimately the the
nice I’m finding that ultimately the the
nice I’m finding that ultimately the the freedom from it is is something people
freedom from it is is something people
freedom from it is is something people are kind of hungry for what they’re like
are kind of hungry for what they’re like
are kind of hungry for what they’re like I don’t want to be me either
I don’t want to be me either
I don’t want to be me either you know and I and I go well it great
you know and I and I go well it great
you know and I and I go well it great cuz you never have been right
the knowledge has been evolving you know
the knowledge has been evolving you know I know I had to I believe that I had to
I know I had to I believe that I had to
I know I had to I believe that I had to become a famous you know idea yeah
become a famous you know idea yeah
become a famous you know idea yeah and get all the stuff that people dream
and get all the stuff that people dream
and get all the stuff that people dream about and and accomplished a bunch of a
about and and accomplished a bunch of a
about and and accomplished a bunch of a bunch of things that you know that that
bunch of things that you know that that
bunch of things that you know that that look like success in order to give up my
look like success in order to give up my
look like success in order to give up my attachment to those things it’s been a
attachment to those things it’s been a
attachment to those things it’s been a part of the evolution of egos is to
part of the evolution of egos is to
part of the evolution of egos is to spend your first half of your life
spend your first half of your life
spend your first half of your life acquiring and adding thinking you can
acquiring and adding thinking you can
acquiring and adding thinking you can add to yourself and and it looks great I
add to yourself and and it looks great I
add to yourself and and it looks great I mean it looks great when you got a cool
mean it looks great when you got a cool
mean it looks great when you got a cool car and you got good nice clothes and
car and you got good nice clothes and
car and you got good nice clothes and you know and you’re and you’ve done
you know and you’re and you’ve done
you know and you’re and you’ve done something that people admire it can
something that people admire it can
something that people admire it can never fulfill you you can ever be happy
never fulfill you you can ever be happy
never fulfill you you can ever be happy you know what I mean it’s not it’s not
you know what I mean it’s not it’s not
you know what I mean it’s not it’s not where happiness comes from and you know
where happiness comes from and you know
where happiness comes from and you know I dealt with depression you know a few
I dealt with depression you know a few
I dealt with depression you know a few years ago and people still think oh he’s
years ago and people still think oh he’s
years ago and people still think oh he’s going through you can tell he’s
going through you can tell he’s
going through you can tell he’s depressed and it’s not I haven’t no
depressed and it’s not I haven’t no
depressed and it’s not I haven’t no depression in my life whatsoever
depression in my life whatsoever
depression in my life whatsoever literally none
literally none
literally none I have sadness and joy and elation and
I have sadness and joy and elation and
I have sadness and joy and elation and satisfaction and gratitude beyond belief
satisfaction and gratitude beyond belief
satisfaction and gratitude beyond belief but all of it is wetter and it just
but all of it is wetter and it just
but all of it is wetter and it just spins around the planet you know it’s
spins around the planet you know it’s
spins around the planet you know it’s not it doesn’t sit on me long enough to
not it doesn’t sit on me long enough to
not it doesn’t sit on me long enough to kill me
this is just everything the happy place
this is just everything the happy place is realizing that you’re everything you
is realizing that you’re everything you
is realizing that you’re everything you know and that there’s no real you
know and that there’s no real you
know and that there’s no real you involved in the first place you know
involved in the first place you know
involved in the first place you know it’s a so it’s a weird little semantic
it’s a so it’s a weird little semantic
it’s a so it’s a weird little semantic jump that you make where it sounds like
jump that you make where it sounds like
jump that you make where it sounds like well that’s totally threatening
well that’s totally threatening
well that’s totally threatening man I can’t I can’t not be me I’ve built
man I can’t I can’t not be me I’ve built
man I can’t I can’t not be me I’ve built this construct yeah you know I’ve from
this construct yeah you know I’ve from
this construct yeah you know I’ve from the time I was given a name and they’re
the time I was given a name and they’re
the time I was given a name and they’re just ideas you know the only thing that
just ideas you know the only thing that
just ideas you know the only thing that separates you from an african-american
separates you from an african-american
separates you from an african-american or an African Canadian is an idea you
or an African Canadian is an idea you
or an African Canadian is an idea you know and and the weather you know I had
know and and the weather you know I had
know and and the weather you know I had the adaption to the climate and whatever
the adaption to the climate and whatever
the adaption to the climate and whatever it is I don’t believe in any of it
it is I don’t believe in any of it
it is I don’t believe in any of it and and so the feeling of wholeness is a
and and so the feeling of wholeness is a
and and so the feeling of wholeness is a different feeling than meanness
so those who wish to masquerade for the
so those who wish to masquerade for the rest of this virtual game sometimes ever
rest of this virtual game sometimes ever
rest of this virtual game sometimes ever made really uncomfortable by it you know
made really uncomfortable by it you know
made really uncomfortable by it you know they’re there like it really looks like
they’re there like it really looks like
they’re there like it really looks like a mask beside somebody who’s not wearing
a mask beside somebody who’s not wearing
a mask beside somebody who’s not wearing a mask you know I don’t really look for
a mask you know I don’t really look for
a mask you know I don’t really look for things and it’s the same with painting
things and it’s the same with painting
things and it’s the same with painting and sculpting and whatever I’ll just
and sculpting and whatever I’ll just
and sculpting and whatever I’ll just start and I and and it happened it
start and I and and it happened it
start and I and and it happened it happens that later on my subconscious
happens that later on my subconscious
happens that later on my subconscious mind told me something just like the
mind told me something just like the
mind told me something just like the scripts tell me something about where I
scripts tell me something about where I
scripts tell me something about where I was at you know and so they find me you
was at you know and so they find me you
was at you know and so they find me you know I and that’s why I disappear for
know I and that’s why I disappear for
know I and that’s why I disappear for long periods of time and plus when you
long periods of time and plus when you
long periods of time and plus when you go away a little bit sometimes you learn
go away a little bit sometimes you learn
go away a little bit sometimes you learn a new stroke you know it’s like you cut
a new stroke you know it’s like you cut
a new stroke you know it’s like you cut you lop your right arm off to learn how
you lop your right arm off to learn how
you lop your right arm off to learn how to write with your left
still you can do the old stuff but the
still you can do the old stuff but the new stuff is there too
you
you I don’t exist so they’re all characters
I don’t exist so they’re all characters
I don’t exist so they’re all characters that I played including Jim Carrey
that I played including Jim Carrey
that I played including Jim Carrey including Joel barish
including Joel barish
including Joel barish including any of those things they’re
including any of those things they’re
including any of those things they’re all characters you know they Jim Carrey
all characters you know they Jim Carrey
all characters you know they Jim Carrey was a less intentional character right
was a less intentional character right
was a less intentional character right because I thought I was just building
because I thought I was just building
because I thought I was just building something that people would like but it
something that people would like but it
something that people would like but it was a character you know so it’s you
was a character you know so it’s you
was a character you know so it’s you know I played the guy that was free from
know I played the guy that was free from
know I played the guy that was free from concerns so that people who watched me
concerns so that people who watched me
concerns so that people who watched me would be free from concern
your need for acceptance can make you
your need for acceptance can make you invisible in this world
invisible in this world
invisible in this world don’t let anything stand in the way of
don’t let anything stand in the way of
don’t let anything stand in the way of the light that shines through this form
the light that shines through this form
the light that shines through this form risk being seen in all of your glory
my father could have been a great
my father could have been a great comedian but he didn’t believe that that
comedian but he didn’t believe that that
comedian but he didn’t believe that that was possible for him and so he made a
was possible for him and so he made a
was possible for him and so he made a conservative choice instead he got a
conservative choice instead he got a
conservative choice instead he got a safe job as an accountant and when I was
safe job as an accountant and when I was
safe job as an accountant and when I was 12 years old he was let go from that
12 years old he was let go from that
12 years old he was let go from that safe job and our family had to do
safe job and our family had to do
safe job and our family had to do whatever we could to survive I learned
whatever we could to survive I learned
whatever we could to survive I learned many great lessons from my father not
many great lessons from my father not
many great lessons from my father not the least of which was that you can fail
the least of which was that you can fail
the least of which was that you can fail and when you don’t want so you might as
and when you don’t want so you might as
and when you don’t want so you might as well take a chance on doing what you
well take a chance on doing what you
well take a chance on doing what you love that piece that we’re after lies
love that piece that we’re after lies
love that piece that we’re after lies somewhere beyond personality
somewhere beyond personality
somewhere beyond personality [Music]
or as I can tell it’s just about letting
or as I can tell it’s just about letting the universe know what you want and
the universe know what you want and
the universe know what you want and working toward it while letting go of
working toward it while letting go of
working toward it while letting go of how it comes to pass when I say life
how it comes to pass when I say life
how it comes to pass when I say life doesn’t happen to you it happens for you
doesn’t happen to you it happens for you
doesn’t happen to you it happens for you I really don’t know if that’s true I’m
I really don’t know if that’s true I’m
I really don’t know if that’s true I’m just making a conscious choice to
just making a conscious choice to
just making a conscious choice to perceive challenges as something
perceive challenges as something
perceive challenges as something beneficial so that I can deal with them
beneficial so that I can deal with them
beneficial so that I can deal with them in the most productive way you’ll come
in the most productive way you’ll come
in the most productive way you’ll come up with your own style that’s part of
up with your own style that’s part of
up with your own style that’s part of the fun like many of you I was concerned
the fun like many of you I was concerned
the fun like many of you I was concerned about going out into the world and doing
about going out into the world and doing
about going out into the world and doing something bigger than myself until
something bigger than myself until
something bigger than myself until someone smarter than myself made me
someone smarter than myself made me
someone smarter than myself made me realize that there is nothing bigger
realize that there is nothing bigger
realize that there is nothing bigger than myself
than myself
than myself you are ready and able to do beautiful
you are ready and able to do beautiful
you are ready and able to do beautiful things in this world and after you walk
things in this world and after you walk
things in this world and after you walk through those doors today
through those doors today
through those doors today we’ll only ever have two choices love
we’ll only ever have two choices love
we’ll only ever have two choices love choose love and don’t ever let fear turn
choose love and don’t ever let fear turn
choose love and don’t ever let fear turn you against your playful heart
you can spend your whole life imagining
you can spend your whole life imagining ghosts worrying about the pathway to the
ghosts worrying about the pathway to the
ghosts worrying about the pathway to the future but all there will ever be is
future but all there will ever be is
future but all there will ever be is what’s happening
what’s happening
what’s happening the decisions we make in this moment
the decisions we make in this moment
the decisions we make in this moment which are based in either love
which are based in either love
which are based in either love so many of us choose our path out of
so many of us choose our path out of
so many of us choose our path out of fear disguised as practicality
we really want seem to possibly outreach
we really want seem to possibly outreach and ridiculous to expect so we never
and ridiculous to expect so we never
and ridiculous to expect so we never dare to ask the universe for I’m saying
dare to ask the universe for I’m saying
dare to ask the universe for I’m saying I’m the proof
I’m the proof
I’m the proof but you can ask the universe
I can tell you from experience the
I can tell you from experience the effect you have on others is the most
effect you have on others is the most
effect you have on others is the most valuable currency therapies
valuable currency therapies
valuable currency therapies yeah I would visualize yeah this is your
yeah I would visualize yeah this is your
yeah I would visualize yeah this is your life well get four right having
life well get four right having
life well get four right having directors interested in me and people
directors interested in me and people
directors interested in me and people that I respected
that I respected
that I respected saying you know I like your work or
saying you know I like your work or
saying you know I like your work or whatever that is and and I would
whatever that is and and I would
whatever that is and and I would visualize things coming to me that I
visualize things coming to me that I
visualize things coming to me that I wanted or whatever this was in like
wanted or whatever this was in like
wanted or whatever this was in like nineteen eighty seven eighty five yeah
nineteen eighty seven eighty five yeah
nineteen eighty seven eighty five yeah and I had nothing at that time so it was
and I had nothing at that time so it was
and I had nothing at that time so it was like but it just made me feel better it
like but it just made me feel better it
like but it just made me feel better it made me at that time all it really was
made me at that time all it really was
made me at that time all it really was for me was kind of making me feel better
for me was kind of making me feel better
for me was kind of making me feel better I would drive home and think well I do
I would drive home and think well I do
I would drive home and think well I do have these things and they’re out there
have these things and they’re out there
have these things and they’re out there I just don’t have ahold of them yet but
I just don’t have ahold of them yet but
I just don’t have ahold of them yet but they’re out there I wrote myself a check
they’re out there I wrote myself a check
they’re out there I wrote myself a check for ten million dollars for acting
for ten million dollars for acting
for ten million dollars for acting services rendered and I gave myself five
services rendered and I gave myself five
services rendered and I gave myself five years there were three years maybe and
years there were three years maybe and
years there were three years maybe and and I dated at Thanksgiving 1995 and I
and I dated at Thanksgiving 1995 and I
and I dated at Thanksgiving 1995 and I put it in my wallet and I kept it there
put it in my wallet and I kept it there
put it in my wallet and I kept it there and it deteriorated and deteriorated and
and it deteriorated and deteriorated and
and it deteriorated and deteriorated and stuff and and but then just before
stuff and and but then just before
stuff and and but then just before Thanksgiving 1995 I found out that I was
Thanksgiving 1995 I found out that I was
Thanksgiving 1995 I found out that I was gonna make ten million dollars on I
gonna make ten million dollars on I
gonna make ten million dollars on I think it’s all a risk but ya know going
think it’s all a risk but ya know going
think it’s all a risk but ya know going on stage would be wonderful I I
on stage would be wonderful I I
on stage would be wonderful I I I used to you know I did some 15 years
I used to you know I did some 15 years
I used to you know I did some 15 years in the comedy clubs before I really
in the comedy clubs before I really
in the comedy clubs before I really started acting 101 you stand up it’s
started acting 101 you stand up it’s
started acting 101 you stand up it’s just a TV of some kind
just a TV of some kind
just a TV of some kind it’s a PhD of being able to relate to an
it’s a PhD of being able to relate to an
it’s a PhD of being able to relate to an audience for sheer cliff yeah yeah you
audience for sheer cliff yeah yeah you
audience for sheer cliff yeah yeah you know and then handling drunks
know and then handling drunks
know and then handling drunks [Laughter]
this isn’t thing it’s like God you
this isn’t thing it’s like God you better own it you know whatever it is
better own it you know whatever it is
better own it you know whatever it is you better own it you know
of this need for stuff I’m always like
of this need for stuff I’m always like afraid almost no I like st. prayers you
afraid almost no I like st. prayers you
afraid almost no I like st. prayers you know make sure you know that I still
know make sure you know that I still
know make sure you know that I still have something to do here because well I
have something to do here because well I
have something to do here because well I really believe in the idea that if you
really believe in the idea that if you
really believe in the idea that if you don’t have something to do here you call
don’t have something to do here you call
don’t have something to do here you call well there’s no hosting you said
well there’s no hosting you said
well there’s no hosting you said something about your parents that this
something about your parents that this
something about your parents that this fascinated me at a certain point they
fascinated me at a certain point they
fascinated me at a certain point they were just waiting for the end yeah yeah
were just waiting for the end yeah yeah
were just waiting for the end yeah yeah and absolutely lovely people right but
and absolutely lovely people right but
and absolutely lovely people right but kind of lost heart you know my father
kind of lost heart you know my father
kind of lost heart you know my father lost his job and that hurt attrition of
lost his job and that hurt attrition of
lost his job and that hurt attrition of life had taken its – yes absolutely and
life had taken its – yes absolutely and
life had taken its – yes absolutely and I think at a certain point they weren’t
I think at a certain point they weren’t
I think at a certain point they weren’t enjoying it anymore they weren’t they
enjoying it anymore they weren’t they
enjoying it anymore they weren’t they were just kind of waiting around
were just kind of waiting around
were just kind of waiting around and I saw that early on and I said no I
and I saw that early on and I said no I
and I saw that early on and I said no I can’t I can’t have that I have to break
can’t I can’t have that I have to break
can’t I can’t have that I have to break that cycle you know so I’m fascinated
that cycle you know so I’m fascinated
that cycle you know so I’m fascinated with that myself and I’m kind of weary
with that myself and I’m kind of weary
with that myself and I’m kind of weary of it myself
of it myself
of it myself about my motivations about
about my motivations about
about my motivations about allegiances about what I’m expressing in
allegiances about what I’m expressing in
allegiances about what I’m expressing in the world you know just my day-to-day
the world you know just my day-to-day
the world you know just my day-to-day you know contact with people the idea
you know contact with people the idea
you know contact with people the idea that you know if people come up to me
that you know if people come up to me
that you know if people come up to me and say I love you you know I I I try
and say I love you you know I I I try
and say I love you you know I I I try extra hard to give them energy you know
extra hard to give them energy you know
extra hard to give them energy you know to make it something that isn’t about me
to make it something that isn’t about me
to make it something that isn’t about me it’s about them and this moment whatever
it’s about them and this moment whatever
it’s about them and this moment whatever it is yeah you know I’m constantly you
it is yeah you know I’m constantly you
it is yeah you know I’m constantly you know trying to figure out where I’m at
know trying to figure out where I’m at
know trying to figure out where I’m at and whether I’m whether I’m corrupting
and whether I’m whether I’m corrupting
and whether I’m whether I’m corrupting myself or or not or I probably just you
myself or or not or I probably just you
myself or or not or I probably just you know really too much about this but it
know really too much about this but it
know really too much about this but it weighs heavy on me alone I believe in
weighs heavy on me alone I believe in
weighs heavy on me alone I believe in manifestation I believe in you know
manifestation I believe in you know
manifestation I believe in you know putting a rocket of desire out into the
putting a rocket of desire out into the
putting a rocket of desire out into the universe and and you get it when you
universe and and you get it when you
universe and and you get it when you believe it you get it when you believe
believe it you get it when you believe
believe it you get it when you believe you have it and that’s the key is like
you have it and that’s the key is like
you have it and that’s the key is like people still they sit around going
people still they sit around going
people still they sit around going when’s it gonna come winds are gonna
when’s it gonna come winds are gonna
when’s it gonna come winds are gonna come when’s it gonna come winds are
come when’s it gonna come winds are
come when’s it gonna come winds are gonna come and that’s the wrong way
gonna come and that’s the wrong way
gonna come and that’s the wrong way you’re you’re facing the wrong way
you’re you’re facing the wrong way
you’re you’re facing the wrong way you’re facing away from it you have to
you’re facing away from it you have to
you’re facing away from it you have to go it’s here it’s here
I used to open my arms I used to sit up
I used to open my arms I used to sit up there you know and open my arms and
there you know and open my arms and
there you know and open my arms and imagine a giant funnel of gifts could
imagine a giant funnel of gifts could
imagine a giant funnel of gifts could come right into the universe honest to
come right into the universe honest to
come right into the universe honest to god I you could you know cut to me there
god I you could you know cut to me there
god I you could you know cut to me there I’m like like this and and if nothing
I’m like like this and and if nothing
I’m like like this and and if nothing else it made me feel more positive about
else it made me feel more positive about
else it made me feel more positive about where I was I I drove down from a
where I was I I drove down from a
where I was I I drove down from a Holland Drive every every night you know
Holland Drive every every night you know
Holland Drive every every night you know that I went up there feeling that I was
that I went up there feeling that I was
that I went up there feeling that I was one of the biggest detectors of
one of the biggest detectors of
one of the biggest detectors of Hollywood I was doing wonderful work
Hollywood I was doing wonderful work
Hollywood I was doing wonderful work that made people happy
that made people happy
that made people happy I was you know I owned all that that was
I was you know I owned all that that was
I was you know I owned all that that was it you know I guess you know what I own
it you know I guess you know what I own
it you know I guess you know what I own when you think about it is is my faith
when you think about it is is my faith
when you think about it is is my faith that’s what I hope that’s about it
that’s what I hope that’s about it
that’s what I hope that’s about it because I started thinking materially
because I started thinking materially
because I started thinking materially and you know those your faith in
and you know those your faith in
and you know those your faith in yourself or you have faith in some a
yourself or you have faith in some a
yourself or you have faith in some a thin the universe faith in myself
thin the universe faith in myself
thin the universe faith in myself yeah that’s it that is at the end what
yeah that’s it that is at the end what
yeah that’s it that is at the end what you are that’s the sense so that’s all I
you are that’s the sense so that’s all I
you are that’s the sense so that’s all I have that you could that’s exactly right
have that you could that’s exactly right
have that you could that’s exactly right you can strip all the stuff away and
you can strip all the stuff away and
you can strip all the stuff away and right and if you have that that sense
right and if you have that that sense
right and if you have that that sense the bait that’s huge and it’s as big as
the bait that’s huge and it’s as big as
the bait that’s huge and it’s as big as if that’s what they huge you know for
if that’s what they huge you know for
if that’s what they huge you know for the most amount ins move in my life so
the most amount ins move in my life so
the most amount ins move in my life so I’ve had just endless gifts and they’ve
I’ve had just endless gifts and they’ve
I’ve had just endless gifts and they’ve all been things that I have at some
all been things that I have at some
all been things that I have at some point sat in and made myself believe
point sat in and made myself believe
point sat in and made myself believe were possible and you did with the check
were possible and you did with the check
were possible and you did with the check four years earlier you did yes right I
four years earlier you did yes right I
four years earlier you did yes right I myself a check when I was up in a mohel
myself a check when I was up in a mohel
myself a check when I was up in a mohel and dry I wrote myself a post-dated
and dry I wrote myself a post-dated
and dry I wrote myself a post-dated check Thanksgiving 1995 for the sum of
check Thanksgiving 1995 for the sum of
check Thanksgiving 1995 for the sum of ten million dollars and again it wasn’t
ten million dollars and again it wasn’t
ten million dollars and again it wasn’t about the money it was about where you
about the money it was about where you
about the money it was about where you are if you’re gonna see anything right
are if you’re gonna see anything right
are if you’re gonna see anything right then what you’re doing because I’ve
then what you’re doing because I’ve
then what you’re doing because I’ve examined that all the way along you know
examined that all the way along you know
examined that all the way along you know when the whole this twenty million
when the whole this twenty million
when the whole this twenty million dollar man business was happening you
dollar man business was happening you
dollar man business was happening you know I’ve examined what my motivations
know I’ve examined what my motivations
know I’ve examined what my motivations are and the fact is I’m addicted to
are and the fact is I’m addicted to
are and the fact is I’m addicted to expressing myself in in certain ways and
expressing myself in in certain ways and
expressing myself in in certain ways and and I have to do it and I would do it if
and I have to do it and I would do it if
and I have to do it and I would do it if I was making twenty cents yeah so it’s
I was making twenty cents yeah so it’s
I was making twenty cents yeah so it’s really about that especially now I have
really about that especially now I have
really about that especially now I have enough money to live 20 lives so I I I
enough money to live 20 lives so I I I
enough money to live 20 lives so I I I can’t stop
I’m fascinated by what creates
I’m fascinated by what creates characters you know what what what
characters you know what what what
characters you know what what what defines people what what creates them
defines people what what creates them
defines people what what creates them what puts them together everybody’s
what puts them together everybody’s
what puts them together everybody’s Frankenstein and they just like as life
Frankenstein and they just like as life
Frankenstein and they just like as life goes on you either you either lose
goes on you either you either lose
goes on you either you either lose pieces of yourself gain other pieces and
pieces of yourself gain other pieces and
pieces of yourself gain other pieces and just that’s the fascinating thing about
just that’s the fascinating thing about
just that’s the fascinating thing about acting it’s like somebody like Andy
acting it’s like somebody like Andy
acting it’s like somebody like Andy Kaufman what is it and I stood by his
Kaufman what is it and I stood by his
Kaufman what is it and I stood by his gravesite you know with his sister and
gravesite you know with his sister and
gravesite you know with his sister and and and she said one thing to me that
and and she said one thing to me that
and and she said one thing to me that cleared it all up and that was that Andy
cleared it all up and that was that Andy
cleared it all up and that was that Andy wasn’t ever part of the club so he
wasn’t ever part of the club so he
wasn’t ever part of the club so he created his own Club that no one else
created his own Club that no one else
created his own Club that no one else could be a part of because I was fully
could be a part of because I was fully
could be a part of because I was fully you know compared to just play out you
you know compared to just play out you
you know compared to just play out you know stand-up comedy and comedy clubs
know stand-up comedy and comedy clubs
know stand-up comedy and comedy clubs yeah but there’s something within you
yeah but there’s something within you
yeah but there’s something within you that constantly pushed the edges of the
that constantly pushed the edges of the
that constantly pushed the edges of the envelope wherever you were well or at
envelope wherever you were well or at
envelope wherever you were well or at least took advantage of the
least took advantage of the
least took advantage of the opportunities that came around and a lot
opportunities that came around and a lot
opportunities that came around and a lot of it has to do with you know just the
of it has to do with you know just the
of it has to do with you know just the courage to jump in I mean you know to do
courage to jump in I mean you know to do
courage to jump in I mean you know to do films that are out of your so-called
films that are out of your so-called
films that are out of your so-called power Ally as they call it is it takes
power Ally as they call it is it takes
power Ally as they call it is it takes nerve you know so I have the nerve you
nerve you know so I have the nerve you
nerve you know so I have the nerve you know and we’ll see if I have the goods
know and we’ll see if I have the goods
know and we’ll see if I have the goods but I have the nerve and yeah I I’m just
but I have the nerve and yeah I I’m just
but I have the nerve and yeah I I’m just excited really about always changing
excited really about always changing
excited really about always changing about crossing me back and forth across
about crossing me back and forth across
about crossing me back and forth across the river and throwing the hounds off
the river and throwing the hounds off
the river and throwing the hounds off the trail
the trail
the trail I love that just whatever you think that
I love that just whatever you think that
I love that just whatever you think that just what we think we’ve got you we know
just what we think we’ve got you we know
just what we think we’ve got you we know you you’re off on another route
you you’re off on another route
you you’re off on another route absolutely and if I feel like I’ve been
absolutely and if I feel like I’ve been
absolutely and if I feel like I’ve been figured out boy look out I will become
figured out boy look out I will become
figured out boy look out I will become something completely different you know
something completely different you know
something completely different you know maybe I might might not want to become
maybe I might might not want to become
maybe I might might not want to become something completely different but
something completely different but
something completely different but express something completely dinner I
express something completely dinner I
express something completely dinner I always felt like if the world is going
always felt like if the world is going
always felt like if the world is going crazy I’ll be calm and if and if they’re
crazy I’ll be calm and if and if they’re
crazy I’ll be calm and if and if they’re calm I’ll be the one hanging
calm I’ll be the one hanging
calm I’ll be the one hanging I mean The Truman Show was a was a
I mean The Truman Show was a was a
I mean The Truman Show was a was a another moment where you know I had to
another moment where you know I had to
another moment where you know I had to kind of deal with well you’re not
kind of deal with well you’re not
kind of deal with well you’re not allowed to do that
allowed to do that
allowed to do that you know you’ve presented yourself one
you know you’ve presented yourself one
you know you’ve presented yourself one way and you know it’s it’s a tough thing
way and you know it’s it’s a tough thing
way and you know it’s it’s a tough thing to convince people that there’s
to convince people that there’s
to convince people that there’s something more or that they might want
something more or that they might want
something more or that they might want to see something different but I’ve
to see something different but I’ve
to see something different but I’ve always believed all the way along I
always believed all the way along I
always believed all the way along I believed that that it was about a spark
believed that that it was about a spark
believed that that it was about a spark right it was about who you are as a
right it was about who you are as a
right it was about who you are as a person it’s about your soul it’s about
person it’s about your soul it’s about
person it’s about your soul it’s about not necessarily mean you do what you do
not necessarily mean you do what you do
not necessarily mean you do what you do so well but there is something about you
so well but there is something about you
so well but there is something about you that that is attractive to people in a
that that is attractive to people in a
that that is attractive to people in a way that they want to sit and watch you
way that they want to sit and watch you
way that they want to sit and watch you for an hour and and and listen to you
for an hour and and and listen to you
for an hour and and and listen to you and list your insights but it’s about
and list your insights but it’s about
and list your insights but it’s about you and who you are
you and who you are
you and who you are what is it worth what is it worth it
what is it worth what is it worth it
what is it worth what is it worth it that’s that’s what I’ve come to so many
that’s that’s what I’ve come to so many
that’s that’s what I’ve come to so many times in my career in my life is that
times in my career in my life is that
times in my career in my life is that I’ve I’ve said the safe road is is is
I’ve I’ve said the safe road is is is
I’ve I’ve said the safe road is is is gonna pay off there are there are many
gonna pay off there are there are many
gonna pay off there are there are many payoffs to it but I can’t be there and
payoffs to it but I can’t be there and
payoffs to it but I can’t be there and and and have my soul be on a completely
and and have my soul be on a completely
and and have my soul be on a completely different track I just it’s always worth
different track I just it’s always worth
different track I just it’s always worth losing to me it’s always worth risking
losing to me it’s always worth risking
losing to me it’s always worth risking and if if if this other side of me is
and if if if this other side of me is
and if if if this other side of me is not a popular one in the scheme of
not a popular one in the scheme of
not a popular one in the scheme of things as far as movie tickets go then
things as far as movie tickets go then
things as far as movie tickets go then you know what I’ll find a way to sneak
you know what I’ll find a way to sneak
you know what I’ll find a way to sneak it in there out out out I’ll make a plan
it in there out out out I’ll make a plan
it in there out out out I’ll make a plan I will I will show myself you know I
I will I will show myself you know I
I will I will show myself you know I will find a way and even if even if I’m
will find a way and even if even if I’m
will find a way and even if even if I’m not as popular I will live in that area
not as popular I will live in that area
not as popular I will live in that area I will expand myself I mean I have I
I will expand myself I mean I have I
I will expand myself I mean I have I started out with many many desires as
started out with many many desires as
started out with many many desires as far as as far as this business goes and
far as as far as this business goes and
far as as far as this business goes and I’ve so surpassed all of them that I
I’ve so surpassed all of them that I
I’ve so surpassed all of them that I that it it’s not as meaningful to me
that it it’s not as meaningful to me
that it it’s not as meaningful to me anymore I really love the work itself
anymore I really love the work itself
anymore I really love the work itself I’ve examined myself on several
I’ve examined myself on several
I’ve examined myself on several occasions why am I really doing this am
occasions why am I really doing this am
occasions why am I really doing this am I doing this because I want to be famous
I doing this because I want to be famous
I doing this because I want to be famous I think there was an element to that
I think there was an element to that
I think there was an element to that when I started out I wanted to be a
when I started out I wanted to be a
when I started out I wanted to be a Rainmaker we should talk about battling
Rainmaker we should talk about battling
Rainmaker we should talk about battling it further what does that mean that
it further what does that mean that
it further what does that mean that means I think I wasn’t necessarily seen
means I think I wasn’t necessarily seen
means I think I wasn’t necessarily seen as much or as intently as I wanted to be
as much or as intently as I wanted to be
as much or as intently as I wanted to be when I was a kid I had I had a job at
when I was a kid I had I had a job at
when I was a kid I had I had a job at least in my own mind and that was to
least in my own mind and that was to
least in my own mind and that was to make my mother feel better she was kind
make my mother feel better she was kind
make my mother feel better she was kind of a very ill in many ways and so it was
of a very ill in many ways and so it was
of a very ill in many ways and so it was to make her feel better and I think
to make her feel better and I think
to make her feel better and I think ultimately I imitated my father he was a
ultimately I imitated my father he was a
ultimately I imitated my father he was a very funny guy but also I felt some need
very funny guy but also I felt some need
very funny guy but also I felt some need and maybe I don’t know whether they
and maybe I don’t know whether they
and maybe I don’t know whether they created it or I created it but I felt a
created it or I created it but I felt a
created it or I created it but I felt a need to make them feel that their life
need to make them feel that their life
need to make them feel that their life was worthwhile that they did something
was worthwhile that they did something
was worthwhile that they did something special just by the very fact that they
special just by the very fact that they
special just by the very fact that they brought me into the world so from a very
brought me into the world so from a very
brought me into the world so from a very young age I wanted to convince them that
young age I wanted to convince them that
young age I wanted to convince them that I was a miracle and then I wanted to
I was a miracle and then I wanted to
I was a miracle and then I wanted to convince the world that I was a miracle
convince the world that I was a miracle
convince the world that I was a miracle and and now I want to convince the world
and and now I want to convince the world
and and now I want to convince the world that I’m just like them so you went from
that I’m just like them so you went from
that I’m just like them so you went from commissioned first-year miracle and then
commissioned first-year miracle and then
commissioned first-year miracle and then you are just like them yes and how does
you are just like them yes and how does
you are just like them yes and how does that play out today in terms of
that play out today in terms of
that play out today in terms of convincing the world you are just like
convincing the world you are just like
convincing the world you are just like them that you are well what I’m finding
them that you are well what I’m finding
them that you are well what I’m finding is is an interesting thing because I
is is an interesting thing because I
is is an interesting thing because I have a lot of people asking me why are
have a lot of people asking me why are
have a lot of people asking me why are you are you afraid that people won’t
you are you afraid that people won’t
you are you afraid that people won’t accept you and I know that in my life
accept you and I know that in my life
accept you and I know that in my life and at least in my you know the circle
and at least in my you know the circle
and at least in my you know the circle people I know and know my friends that
people I know and know my friends that
people I know and know my friends that know my work it seems like any of the
know my work it seems like any of the
know my work it seems like any of the people I talked to like you it seems
people I talked to like you it seems
people I talked to like you it seems like people are almost waiting for it
like people are almost waiting for it
like people are almost waiting for it that they’ve suspected that there’s
that they’ve suspected that there’s
that they’ve suspected that there’s another level to me in there and they’re
another level to me in there and they’re
another level to me in there and they’re kind of intrigued and interested in what
kind of intrigued and interested in what
kind of intrigued and interested in what that might be
that might be
that might be [Music]
[Music]
[Music] it’s it’s it’s that and it’s an
it’s it’s it’s that and it’s an
it’s it’s it’s that and it’s an addiction obviously I mean I’d love
addiction obviously I mean I’d love
addiction obviously I mean I’d love addiction to just knowing yourself yeah
addiction to just knowing yourself yeah
addiction to just knowing yourself yeah an addiction to trying to figure out and
an addiction to trying to figure out and
an addiction to trying to figure out and maybe this is an impossible task but you
maybe this is an impossible task but you
maybe this is an impossible task but you know everybody’s looking for bliss you
know everybody’s looking for bliss you
know everybody’s looking for bliss you know in some way or another and I think
know in some way or another and I think
know in some way or another and I think I’ve come to the realization lately that
I’ve come to the realization lately that
I’ve come to the realization lately that that that bliss comes in waves and there
that that bliss comes in waves and there
that that bliss comes in waves and there and everybody gets a certain amount of
and everybody gets a certain amount of
and everybody gets a certain amount of it but but in between it’s just hard
it but but in between it’s just hard
it but but in between it’s just hard work being in this body and that it is
work being in this body and that it is
work being in this body and that it is the unwise person to expect Bliss will
the unwise person to expect Bliss will
the unwise person to expect Bliss will be there all day on solute Lee and
be there all day on solute Lee and
be there all day on solute Lee and absolutely but you look for it you look
absolutely but you look for it you look
absolutely but you look for it you look for and you wonder why you’re off the
for and you wonder why you’re off the
for and you wonder why you’re off the beam all the time whatever so I’m
beam all the time whatever so I’m
beam all the time whatever so I’m constantly examining myself I probably
constantly examining myself I probably
constantly examining myself I probably do it too much I’ve always over thought
do it too much I’ve always over thought
do it too much I’ve always over thought everything and when you’re reading
everything and when you’re reading
everything and when you’re reading Emerson and you read yeah yeah all right
Emerson and you read yeah yeah all right
Emerson and you read yeah yeah all right which is like the big the big the big
which is like the big the big the big
which is like the big the big the big thing for me you know in life right now
thing for me you know in life right now
thing for me you know in life right now is the the excerpt from compensation yes
is the the excerpt from compensation yes
is the the excerpt from compensation yes a he did on compensation where it talks
a he did on compensation where it talks
a he did on compensation where it talks about that man would I recognize I would
about that man would I recognize I would
about that man would I recognize I would see the mermaids head but not the
see the mermaids head but not the
see the mermaids head but not the dragon’s tail and these are this is
dragon’s tail and these are this is
dragon’s tail and these are this is something that happens over and over and
something that happens over and over and
something that happens over and over and over in my life and relationships and in
over in my life and relationships and in
over in my life and relationships and in in choices that I make professionally
in choices that I make professionally
in choices that I make professionally you know a lot of times you just don’t
you know a lot of times you just don’t
you know a lot of times you just don’t want to believe in the bat but the bat
want to believe in the bat but the bat
want to believe in the bat but the bat is there you know the negativity is
is there you know the negativity is
is there you know the negativity is there or the the the obvious drawback to
there or the the the obvious drawback to
there or the the the obvious drawback to the situation is there but you just go I
the situation is there but you just go I
the situation is there but you just go I want and and that’s that comes down to
want and and that’s that comes down to
want and and that’s that comes down to thy will be done and everything biblical
thy will be done and everything biblical
thy will be done and everything biblical it’s you know it’s so I’m always
it’s you know it’s so I’m always
it’s you know it’s so I’m always struggling with these concepts it’s to
struggling with these concepts it’s to
struggling with these concepts it’s to my desire is my only problem
my desire is my only problem
my desire is my only problem this world your desire yes and to do
this world your desire yes and to do
this world your desire yes and to do your appetite my appetite yeah
your appetite my appetite yeah
your appetite my appetite yeah absolutely yeah to prove everything and
absolutely yeah to prove everything and
absolutely yeah to prove everything and to be everything with you it’s our
to be everything with you it’s our
to be everything with you it’s our intention our intention is everything
intention our intention is everything
intention our intention is everything nothing happens on this planet without
nothing happens on this planet without
nothing happens on this planet without it not one single thing has ever been
it not one single thing has ever been
it not one single thing has ever been accomplished without intention so I
accomplished without intention so I
accomplished without intention so I started thinking about my life and I
started thinking about my life and I
started thinking about my life and I started thinking about this conference
started thinking about this conference
started thinking about this conference and what we’re about and and I looked
and what we’re about and and I looked
and what we’re about and and I looked back and I thought well I was two people
back and I thought well I was two people
back and I thought well I was two people my whole life I was in the living room
my whole life I was in the living room
my whole life I was in the living room entertaining people being a monkey you
entertaining people being a monkey you
entertaining people being a monkey you know doing my thing for the company and
know doing my thing for the company and
know doing my thing for the company and and trying to relieve my mother who was
and trying to relieve my mother who was
and trying to relieve my mother who was suffering she had arthritis and Vitus
suffering she had arthritis and Vitus
suffering she had arthritis and Vitus and everything everything under the Sun
and everything everything under the Sun
and everything everything under the Sun that was nagging at her and she was
that was nagging at her and she was
that was nagging at her and she was depressed and I wanted her to be free
depressed and I wanted her to be free
depressed and I wanted her to be free and I wanted her to realize that her
and I wanted her to realize that her
and I wanted her to realize that her life was worth something because she
life was worth something because she
life was worth something because she gave birth to someone who was worth
gave birth to someone who was worth
gave birth to someone who was worth something
and then I would go into my room and I
and then I would go into my room and I would sit
with the legal pad I was a little kid I
with the legal pad I was a little kid I would sit there but I would try to
would sit there but I would try to
would sit there but I would try to figure out what it meant what it was all
figure out what it meant what it was all
figure out what it meant what it was all about why are we here what is this and
about why are we here what is this and
about why are we here what is this and one day I read something from Buddha
one day I read something from Buddha
one day I read something from Buddha that said that all spirituality is about
that said that all spirituality is about
that said that all spirituality is about relieving suffering and I suddenly
relieving suffering and I suddenly
relieving suffering and I suddenly realized that’s what I’m doing in the
realized that’s what I’m doing in the
realized that’s what I’m doing in the other room
other room
other room and and I’m aligned
and and I’m aligned
and and I’m aligned you know this my purpose is aligned with
you know this my purpose is aligned with
you know this my purpose is aligned with this so I felt incredibly lucky I lose
this so I felt incredibly lucky I lose
this so I felt incredibly lucky I lose sight of that all the time to get caught
sight of that all the time to get caught
sight of that all the time to get caught up in different concerns and ego
up in different concerns and ego
up in different concerns and ego concerns
concerns
concerns but I’m so lucky to be a part of this
but I’m so lucky to be a part of this
but I’m so lucky to be a part of this community and to to do something that is
community and to to do something that is
community and to to do something that is a value
a value
a value I really cherish that and we are all one
I really cherish that and we are all one
I really cherish that and we are all one thing it really is true can I speak to
thing it really is true can I speak to
thing it really is true can I speak to that the person in the last row in the
that the person in the last row in the
that the person in the last row in the very last seat against the wall is there
very last seat against the wall is there
very last seat against the wall is there is there someone back there that can say
is there someone back there that can say
is there someone back there that can say hello what’s your name
hello what’s your name
hello what’s your name Andrea are you aware that do you have
Andrea are you aware that do you have
Andrea are you aware that do you have the distinct palpable feeling that your
the distinct palpable feeling that your
the distinct palpable feeling that your intention created this evening as well
intention created this evening as well
intention created this evening as well as Melissa’s do you understand that that
as Melissa’s do you understand that that
as Melissa’s do you understand that that all of this this entire event is
all of this this entire event is
all of this this entire event is happening inside you
[Applause]
[Applause] [Music]
[Music]
[Music] we’ll just try to feel it for a second
we’ll just try to feel it for a second
we’ll just try to feel it for a second because it’s a trip man
some people go to the Super Bowl I am
some people go to the Super Bowl I am the Super Bowl man I swear my friends
the Super Bowl man I swear my friends
the Super Bowl man I swear my friends are all going to see that play that was
are all going to see that play that was
are all going to see that play that was great I’m like yeah but the energy
great I’m like yeah but the energy
great I’m like yeah but the energy coming out of me right now man is
coming out of me right now man is
coming out of me right now man is unbelievable I’m just sitting there
unbelievable I’m just sitting there
unbelievable I’m just sitting there I’m the stadium on the vendors outside
I’m the stadium on the vendors outside
I’m the stadium on the vendors outside I’m the crack dealer on the corner I’m
I’m the crack dealer on the corner I’m
I’m the crack dealer on the corner I’m everything man there’s no end to it and
everything man there’s no end to it and
everything man there’s no end to it and it’s so much fun it’s so much fun so I
it’s so much fun it’s so much fun so I
it’s so much fun it’s so much fun so I hope you can feel that and I hope you
hope you can feel that and I hope you
hope you can feel that and I hope you understand that you are one of the
understand that you are one of the
understand that you are one of the creators of this evening that your
creators of this evening that your
creators of this evening that your intentions and your desires created this
intentions and your desires created this
intentions and your desires created this evening as well and then I hope you are
evening as well and then I hope you are
evening as well and then I hope you are able to ask yourself why did I get such
able to ask yourself why did I get such
able to ask yourself why did I get such a crappy seat and be okay with it
I mean you’re in the last row in the
I mean you’re in the last row in the last seat and yet you created this
that’s got to be it’s a really selfless
that’s got to be it’s a really selfless thing to do
thing to do
thing to do so understand based on some things that
so understand based on some things that
so understand based on some things that I read about you you know that in the
I read about you you know that in the
I read about you you know that in the end it’s really a lot about self-respect
end it’s really a lot about self-respect
end it’s really a lot about self-respect yes it is because you know yourself yeah
yes it is because you know yourself yeah
yes it is because you know yourself yeah and it is well yeah and self-respect is
and it is well yeah and self-respect is
and it is well yeah and self-respect is certainly one of the major problems in
certainly one of the major problems in
certainly one of the major problems in the world self-esteem is is the reason
the world self-esteem is is the reason
the world self-esteem is is the reason for most ills and you know desiring what
for most ills and you know desiring what
for most ills and you know desiring what we don’t have I needs to Holderness me
we don’t have I needs to Holderness me
we don’t have I needs to Holderness me or I am Peter Ashe hold on yes how did
or I am Peter Ashe hold on yes how did
or I am Peter Ashe hold on yes how did you mean that well in in the respect
you mean that well in in the respect
you mean that well in in the respect that he has this yearning this yearning
that he has this yearning this yearning
that he has this yearning this yearning that that is more important to him again
that that is more important to him again
that that is more important to him again false gods right when you put something
false gods right when you put something
false gods right when you put something so in the forefront of your life some
so in the forefront of your life some
so in the forefront of your life some desire in the forefront of your life
desire in the forefront of your life
desire in the forefront of your life that everything else starts to suffer
that everything else starts to suffer
that everything else starts to suffer I understand that I understand that
I understand that I understand that
I understand that I understand that because I’ve gone that way and had to
because I’ve gone that way and had to
because I’ve gone that way and had to pull myself back or whatever but it’s
pull myself back or whatever but it’s
pull myself back or whatever but it’s the yearning that that that is can be
the yearning that that that is can be
the yearning that that that is can be something very positive it can create
something very positive it can create
something very positive it can create wonderful things but when it when it
wonderful things but when it when it
wonderful things but when it when it makes you negate your life and the
makes you negate your life and the
makes you negate your life and the people in your life it becomes or you
people in your life it becomes or you
people in your life it becomes or you know again like when it makes you bear
know again like when it makes you bear
know again like when it makes you bear false witness you know and sell somebody
false witness you know and sell somebody
false witness you know and sell somebody out it’s it’s just not worth having you
out it’s it’s just not worth having you
out it’s it’s just not worth having you know that that yearning is the tough
know that that yearning is the tough
know that that yearning is the tough part
part
part the yearning to to kind of have that but
the yearning to to kind of have that but
the yearning to to kind of have that but not make it completely consume you and
not make it completely consume you and
not make it completely consume you and that would be the selling out of his
that would be the selling out of his
that would be the selling out of his friendly out of his friends we’re not
friendly out of his friends we’re not
friendly out of his friends we’re not guilty of anything and he’s living in
guilty of anything and he’s living in
guilty of anything and he’s living in know he’s living in a place of fear of
know he’s living in a place of fear of
know he’s living in a place of fear of loss right you know and that’s always a
loss right you know and that’s always a
loss right you know and that’s always a dangerous character the guy who’s afraid
dangerous character the guy who’s afraid
dangerous character the guy who’s afraid of loss is a dangerous guy because he’s
of loss is a dangerous guy because he’s
of loss is a dangerous guy because he’s the guy in Hollywood the stabs you in
the guy in Hollywood the stabs you in
the guy in Hollywood the stabs you in the back or you know turns on somebody
the back or you know turns on somebody
the back or you know turns on somebody or whatever they you know trying to
or whatever they you know trying to
or whatever they you know trying to protect it’s you know story if you know
protect it’s you know story if you know
protect it’s you know story if you know a man’s fear then you can conquer him
a man’s fear then you can conquer him
a man’s fear then you can conquer him something say truly I mean that’s what
something say truly I mean that’s what
something say truly I mean that’s what the blacklist era was about some
the blacklist era was about some
the blacklist era was about some somebody you know McCarthy sat back and
somebody you know McCarthy sat back and
somebody you know McCarthy sat back and said my gosh what a what a wonderful
said my gosh what a what a wonderful
said my gosh what a what a wonderful fear to take advantage of and and to
fear to take advantage of and and to
fear to take advantage of and and to bring this up to power through it
you know what I believe in the universe
you know what I believe in the universe I believe in the horn of plenty I
I believe in the horn of plenty I
I believe in the horn of plenty I believe in the cornucopia you know so
believe in the cornucopia you know so
believe in the cornucopia you know so I’m not afraid of Tom Cruise and what
I’m not afraid of Tom Cruise and what
I’m not afraid of Tom Cruise and what his movies do and I can enjoy it and I
his movies do and I can enjoy it and I
his movies do and I can enjoy it and I can enjoy Russell Crowe and because
can enjoy Russell Crowe and because
can enjoy Russell Crowe and because there is so much in the universe we all
there is so much in the universe we all
there is so much in the universe we all you know can feed from it and we all we
you know can feed from it and we all we
you know can feed from it and we all we all you know enough for everybody is
all you know enough for everybody is
all you know enough for everybody is that where you are in your head at this
that where you are in your head at this
that where you are in your head at this yes I’m sure some season they’ve got a
yes I’m sure some season they’ve got a
yes I’m sure some season they’ve got a Russell Crowe as a movie out no cruise
Russell Crowe as a movie out no cruise
Russell Crowe as a movie out no cruise as a movie yet you’re saying there’s
as a movie yet you’re saying there’s
as a movie yet you’re saying there’s enough I’m perfectly happy with what
enough I’m perfectly happy with what
enough I’m perfectly happy with what absolutely Jim has been given so much I
absolutely Jim has been given so much I
absolutely Jim has been given so much I mean III would be a green bore at the
mean III would be a green bore at the
mean III would be a green bore at the trough of life you know if I if I
trough of life you know if I if I
trough of life you know if I if I questioned if you wanted at all oh my
questioned if you wanted at all oh my
questioned if you wanted at all oh my gosh I mean you know I I sit down with
gosh I mean you know I I sit down with
gosh I mean you know I I sit down with friends of mine who are in the perfect
friends of mine who are in the perfect
friends of mine who are in the perfect in the acting profession and and they
in the acting profession and and they
in the acting profession and and they say you know these are really good
say you know these are really good
say you know these are really good actors and they say man no one’s really
actors and they say man no one’s really
actors and they say man no one’s really getting the chance to do what you’re
getting the chance to do what you’re
getting the chance to do what you’re getting to do you know I mean this is a
getting to do you know I mean this is a
getting to do you know I mean this is a it’s quite an arc going on that time and
it’s quite an arc going on that time and
it’s quite an arc going on that time and time again I feel so lucky to have it
time again I feel so lucky to have it
time again I feel so lucky to have it but you had to bring something otherwise
but you had to bring something otherwise
but you had to bring something otherwise they would not continue to give you the
they would not continue to give you the
they would not continue to give you the chance and you obviously recognize that
chance and you obviously recognize that
chance and you obviously recognize that you have to allow yourself to be seen
you have to allow yourself to be seen
you have to allow yourself to be seen that’s the risk the risk is especially
that’s the risk the risk is especially
that’s the risk the risk is especially for somebody who’s comedic yeah who has
for somebody who’s comedic yeah who has
for somebody who’s comedic yeah who has that that weapon and its disposal just
that that weapon and its disposal just
that that weapon and its disposal just to go off and rift yeah yeah to risk
to go off and rift yeah yeah to risk
to go off and rift yeah yeah to risk being seen is the toughest thing in the
being seen is the toughest thing in the
being seen is the toughest thing in the world we’re all very shy people you know
world we’re all very shy people you know
world we’re all very shy people you know people who do comedy we’re shy and the
people who do comedy we’re shy and the
people who do comedy we’re shy and the emotion is right there on the surface if
emotion is right there on the surface if
emotion is right there on the surface if you prick me with a pin I would fly
you prick me with a pin I would fly
you prick me with a pin I would fly around the room you know so that’s the
around the room you know so that’s the
around the room you know so that’s the risk is that you are showing them
risk is that you are showing them
risk is that you are showing them yourself you’re your true authentic self
yourself you’re your true authentic self
yourself you’re your true authentic self and the chances of being rejected are
and the chances of being rejected are
and the chances of being rejected are much more important you know much more
much more important you know much more
much more important you know much more terrifying
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