you may you may be seated sorry old habit my wife gets so tired of
sorry old habit my wife gets so tired of
sorry old habit my wife gets so tired of that joke when I tell it anyway and my
that joke when I tell it anyway and my
that joke when I tell it anyway and my name is Jim Reynolds and I am one of the
name is Jim Reynolds and I am one of the
name is Jim Reynolds and I am one of the four District Court judges we have here
four District Court judges we have here
four District Court judges we have here in Broadwater in the Lewis and Clark
in Broadwater in the Lewis and Clark
in Broadwater in the Lewis and Clark counties and I preside over the first
counties and I preside over the first
counties and I preside over the first Judicial District treatment court and I
Judicial District treatment court and I
Judicial District treatment court and I was asked to come here and speak about
was asked to come here and speak about
was asked to come here and speak about the treatment court today and I thought
the treatment court today and I thought
the treatment court today and I thought well do you do all when you hear a bunch
well do you do all when you hear a bunch
well do you do all when you hear a bunch of statistics or did you want to hear a
of statistics or did you want to hear a
of statistics or did you want to hear a bunch of stories and I’m gonna try to
bunch of stories and I’m gonna try to
bunch of stories and I’m gonna try to mix it up and do a little bit of both
mix it up and do a little bit of both
mix it up and do a little bit of both first of all let me tell you a bit about
first of all let me tell you a bit about
first of all let me tell you a bit about myself
myself
myself I’ve lived in Helena for forty five
I’ve lived in Helena for forty five
I’ve lived in Helena for forty five years I was a lawyer for about 30 years
years I was a lawyer for about 30 years
years I was a lawyer for about 30 years down on Last Chance cults we had our
down on Last Chance cults we had our
down on Last Chance cults we had our office at the corner of Lawrence and
office at the corner of Lawrence and
office at the corner of Lawrence and last chance and we were kind of a
last chance and we were kind of a
last chance and we were kind of a storefront law firm helping people that
storefront law firm helping people that
storefront law firm helping people that just regular folks that needed help we
just regular folks that needed help we
just regular folks that needed help we weren’t dealing with a lot of
weren’t dealing with a lot of
weren’t dealing with a lot of corporations we were just dealing with
corporations we were just dealing with
corporations we were just dealing with regular people who were running into
regular people who were running into
regular people who were running into legal problems so I did that for 32
legal problems so I did that for 32
legal problems so I did that for 32 years and then a new position came
years and then a new position came
years and then a new position came available for a district court judge
available for a district court judge
available for a district court judge here in this district and some people
here in this district and some people
here in this district and some people started talking to me about doing that
started talking to me about doing that
started talking to me about doing that because I’ve been in practice for thirty
because I’ve been in practice for thirty
because I’ve been in practice for thirty years and had a pretty pretty broad
years and had a pretty pretty broad
years and had a pretty pretty broad civil practice so they were pressuring
civil practice so they were pressuring
civil practice so they were pressuring me to run and in a moment of weakness I
me to run and in a moment of weakness I
me to run and in a moment of weakness I agreed to and then in a moment of
agreed to and then in a moment of
agreed to and then in a moment of community foolishness you folks elected
community foolishness you folks elected
community foolishness you folks elected me and I just got re-elected for my
me and I just got re-elected for my
me and I just got re-elected for my second term here this past year so I’ve
second term here this past year so I’ve
second term here this past year so I’ve been I’ve been doing it now for about
been I’ve been doing it now for about
been I’ve been doing it now for about six years one of the issues that I
six years one of the issues that I
six years one of the issues that I thought about when I was running was the
thought about when I was running was the
thought about when I was running was the idea of doing a treatment court here a
idea of doing a treatment court here a
idea of doing a treatment court here a drug treatment court we hadn’t had one
drug treatment court we hadn’t had one
drug treatment court we hadn’t had one in this district we have several around
in this district we have several around
in this district we have several around the state and and there have been around
the state and and there have been around
the state and and there have been around the country for about thirty five years
the country for about thirty five years
the country for about thirty five years but we just didn’t have one here and so
but we just didn’t have one here and so
but we just didn’t have one here and so I thought if I’m going to go up here and
I thought if I’m going to go up here and
I thought if I’m going to go up here and be a judge and do it I wanted to do some
be a judge and do it I wanted to do some
be a judge and do it I wanted to do some different stuff I want to try some
different stuff I want to try some
different stuff I want to try some innovative things to deal with some of
innovative things to deal with some of
innovative things to deal with some of the issues that we deal with now again I
the issues that we deal with now again I
the issues that we deal with now again I was a lawyer for thirty years I didn’t
was a lawyer for thirty years I didn’t
was a lawyer for thirty years I didn’t do much criminal work so this whole
do much criminal work so this whole
do much criminal work so this whole issue of drug abuse and how it affects
issue of drug abuse and how it affects
issue of drug abuse and how it affects people how it affects our criminal
people how it affects our criminal
people how it affects our criminal justice system was an eye-opener for me
justice system was an eye-opener for me
justice system was an eye-opener for me I could not I didn’t have that
I could not I didn’t have that
I could not I didn’t have that experience there is an entire culture
experience there is an entire culture
experience there is an entire culture and I’m talking to you folks that maybe
and I’m talking to you folks that maybe
and I’m talking to you folks that maybe don’t have any
don’t have any
don’t have any the experience with the criminal justice
the experience with the criminal justice
the experience with the criminal justice system there’s an entire culture
system there’s an entire culture
system there’s an entire culture subculture in our community of people
subculture in our community of people
subculture in our community of people who are involved with drugs and who’s
who are involved with drugs and who’s
who are involved with drugs and who’s because of their involvement with drugs
because of their involvement with drugs
because of their involvement with drugs they’ve gotten in trouble with the
they’ve gotten in trouble with the
they’ve gotten in trouble with the criminal justice system and and they
criminal justice system and and they
criminal justice system and and they just kind of float under the radar at
just kind of float under the radar at
just kind of float under the radar at least from my perspective they were
least from my perspective they were
least from my perspective they were under the radar but I thought we needed
under the radar but I thought we needed
under the radar but I thought we needed to try something different it didn’t
to try something different it didn’t
to try something different it didn’t appear to me that if we were talking
appear to me that if we were talking
appear to me that if we were talking about drug abuse that from my
about drug abuse that from my
about drug abuse that from my perspective as a disease process not a
perspective as a disease process not a
perspective as a disease process not a criminal process it’s a disease process
criminal process it’s a disease process
criminal process it’s a disease process and we should start looking at it for
and we should start looking at it for
and we should start looking at it for more of a treatment perspective as
more of a treatment perspective as
more of a treatment perspective as opposed to a punitive perspective and
opposed to a punitive perspective and
opposed to a punitive perspective and that’s where the drug treatment court
that’s where the drug treatment court
that’s where the drug treatment court came in in a place that’s what I’m
came in in a place that’s what I’m
came in in a place that’s what I’m talking about when I talk about a
talking about when I talk about a
talking about when I talk about a treatment court it’s it’s a program
treatment court it’s it’s a program
treatment court it’s it’s a program where we are working with people whose
where we are working with people whose
where we are working with people whose whose drug addiction has brought them
whose drug addiction has brought them
whose drug addiction has brought them into contact as a criminal justice
into contact as a criminal justice
into contact as a criminal justice system and as a result of that they are
system and as a result of that they are
system and as a result of that they are constantly being brought back into the
constantly being brought back into the
constantly being brought back into the court system I’m not talking about the
court system I’m not talking about the
court system I’m not talking about the kid who gets picked up with a joint on
kid who gets picked up with a joint on
kid who gets picked up with a joint on the street corner I’m talking about
the street corner I’m talking about
the street corner I’m talking about people who have been at this for a long
people who have been at this for a long
people who have been at this for a long time our participants are rated as high
time our participants are rated as high
time our participants are rated as high risk high needs people and what that
risk high needs people and what that
risk high needs people and what that means is that they are at high risk for
means is that they are at high risk for
means is that they are at high risk for relapsing well either in a drug use or
relapsing well either in a drug use or
relapsing well either in a drug use or inter criminal behavior and they are in
inter criminal behavior and they are in
inter criminal behavior and they are in high needs because they don’t have very
high needs because they don’t have very
high needs because they don’t have very good community or family support and I’m
good community or family support and I’m
good community or family support and I’m going to tell you a couple of
going to tell you a couple of
going to tell you a couple of heartwarming stories about some of the
heartwarming stories about some of the
heartwarming stories about some of the participants we’ve had and so you don’t
participants we’ve had and so you don’t
participants we’ve had and so you don’t want to get your Kleenex out this first
want to get your Kleenex out this first
want to get your Kleenex out this first story shows what I mean by high needs
story shows what I mean by high needs
story shows what I mean by high needs and this is one of our first
and this is one of our first
and this is one of our first participants he came into our court when
participants he came into our court when
participants he came into our court when he was 23 years old he’d been using meth
he was 23 years old he’d been using meth
he was 23 years old he’d been using meth since he was 12 he had he had three
since he was 12 he had he had three
since he was 12 he had he had three felony records by the time he was 22 and
felony records by the time he was 22 and
felony records by the time he was 22 and and he’s not a violent guy he hates
and he’s not a violent guy he hates
and he’s not a violent guy he hates deals and he uses drugs he steals to use
deals and he uses drugs he steals to use
deals and he uses drugs he steals to use drugs so he I was talking to him how did
drugs so he I was talking to him how did
drugs so he I was talking to him how did you get to where you are and he told me
you get to where you are and he told me
you get to where you are and he told me and this is where you need to get the
and this is where you need to get the
and this is where you need to get the Kleenex out folks his mother had given
Kleenex out folks his mother had given
Kleenex out folks his mother had given him his first mess shot when he was 12
him his first mess shot when he was 12
him his first mess shot when he was 12 and the reason she did that it’s a
and the reason she did that it’s a
and the reason she did that it’s a heartwarming story is she knew he was
heartwarming story is she knew he was
heartwarming story is she knew he was going to use meth because everybody else
going to use meth because everybody else
going to use meth because everybody else in the family used meth it was he had a
in the family used meth it was he had a
in the family used meth it was he had a brother who was in
brother who was in
brother who was in she used meth his older sister used meth
she used meth his older sister used meth
she used meth his older sister used meth the entire family used meth so she knew
the entire family used meth so she knew
the entire family used meth so she knew he was gonna use meth and she wanted to
he was gonna use meth and she wanted to
he was gonna use meth and she wanted to be sure he knew how to use meth properly
be sure he knew how to use meth properly
be sure he knew how to use meth properly so that’s the kind of folks that we’re
so that’s the kind of folks that we’re
so that’s the kind of folks that we’re dealing with in a large extent they have
dealing with in a large extent they have
dealing with in a large extent they have no no family support no your
no no family support no your
no no family support no your heartwarming story one of our
heartwarming story one of our
heartwarming story one of our participants came in and talked to me
participants came in and talked to me
participants came in and talked to me about her mother calling her up for a
about her mother calling her up for a
about her mother calling her up for a birthday party for her her stepfather
birthday party for her her stepfather
birthday party for her her stepfather and this was the inducement to get the
and this was the inducement to get the
and this was the inducement to get the participant to go to the birthday party
participant to go to the birthday party
participant to go to the birthday party we are going to have some of the best
we are going to have some of the best
we are going to have some of the best dope and the best drugs and the best
dope and the best drugs and the best
dope and the best drugs and the best beer that you can have in to the credit
beer that you can have in to the credit
beer that you can have in to the credit of our participants he said mom I can’t
of our participants he said mom I can’t
of our participants he said mom I can’t come to that I can’t do that don’t you
come to that I can’t do that don’t you
come to that I can’t do that don’t you know I’m trying to get out of that life
know I’m trying to get out of that life
know I’m trying to get out of that life but those are those are kind of things
but those are those are kind of things
but those are those are kind of things that some of our participants face
that some of our participants face
that some of our participants face another one of our early participants
another one of our early participants
another one of our early participants talked about being homeless she had two
talked about being homeless she had two
talked about being homeless she had two kids and she was homeless and she was
kids and she was homeless and she was
kids and she was homeless and she was couchsurfing and she talked to me about
couchsurfing and she talked to me about
couchsurfing and she talked to me about how that was in her mind that was a
how that was in her mind that was a
how that was in her mind that was a great adventure they didn’t know where
great adventure they didn’t know where
great adventure they didn’t know where they were gonna be staying the next
they were gonna be staying the next
they were gonna be staying the next night she’s got these little
night she’s got these little
night she’s got these little seven-year-old a nine year old kid and
seven-year-old a nine year old kid and
seven-year-old a nine year old kid and they’re going from house to house and
they’re going from house to house and
they’re going from house to house and she said it was a great dude I told him
she said it was a great dude I told him
she said it was a great dude I told him it was a great adventure we don’t know
it was a great adventure we don’t know
it was a great adventure we don’t know where we’re gonna be sleeping tonight
where we’re gonna be sleeping tonight
where we’re gonna be sleeping tonight same participant told me about our
same participant told me about our
same participant told me about our mobile home and she lived in and she
mobile home and she lived in and she
mobile home and she lived in and she said she demonstrated for me
said she demonstrated for me
said she demonstrated for me how she had to walk down the hallway she
how she had to walk down the hallway she
how she had to walk down the hallway she said you had to walk like this yeah in
said you had to walk like this yeah in
said you had to walk like this yeah in the hallway because the floor was rotted
the hallway because the floor was rotted
the hallway because the floor was rotted out in this mobile home that she had
out in this mobile home that she had
out in this mobile home that she had found so those are the kind of folks
found so those are the kind of folks
found so those are the kind of folks that were working with not all of them
that were working with not all of them
that were working with not all of them but that’s the kind of folks that we’re
but that’s the kind of folks that we’re
but that’s the kind of folks that we’re working with and to me it just didn’t
working with and to me it just didn’t
working with and to me it just didn’t make sense what we were going to
make sense what we were going to
make sense what we were going to continually put these people back into
continually put these people back into
continually put these people back into jail over and over again so he came up
jail over and over again so he came up
jail over and over again so he came up with their treatment court and the
with their treatment court and the
with their treatment court and the treatment court consists of a team well
treatment court consists of a team well
treatment court consists of a team well I can talk about this stuff for about an
I can talk about this stuff for about an
I can talk about this stuff for about an hour folks come so it’s a team of law
hour folks come so it’s a team of law
hour folks come so it’s a team of law enforcement
enforcement
enforcement probation officers prosecuting attorneys
probation officers prosecuting attorneys
probation officers prosecuting attorneys defense attorneys a coordinator
defense attorneys a coordinator
defense attorneys a coordinator treatment providers myself treatment
treatment providers myself treatment
treatment providers myself treatment court people have to comfort our
court people have to comfort our
court people have to comfort our participants have to come to court every
participants have to come to court every
participants have to come to court every week every two weeks and talk
week every two weeks and talk
week every two weeks and talk me and you may not know it but I look
me and you may not know it but I look
me and you may not know it but I look kind of intimidating when I got my black
kind of intimidating when I got my black
kind of intimidating when I got my black robe on I’m sitting on advanced up
robe on I’m sitting on advanced up
robe on I’m sitting on advanced up higher so they have to come in front of
higher so they have to come in front of
higher so they have to come in front of me and they have to tell me how their
me and they have to tell me how their
me and they have to tell me how their week is gone
week is gone
week is gone what are you doing they have to be
what are you doing they have to be
what are you doing they have to be involved in the education have to be
involved in the education have to be
involved in the education have to be involved in employment we have had
involved in employment we have had
involved in employment we have had several of our participants get their
several of our participants get their
several of our participants get their GEDs these are not 17 18 year old kids
GEDs these are not 17 18 year old kids
GEDs these are not 17 18 year old kids these are 33 35 37 year old people they
these are 33 35 37 year old people they
these are 33 35 37 year old people they never got through G DS had one guy not
never got through G DS had one guy not
never got through G DS had one guy not too long ago got his driver’s license
too long ago got his driver’s license
too long ago got his driver’s license he’s 32 years old this is his first
he’s 32 years old this is his first
he’s 32 years old this is his first driver’s license he’s ever had in his
driver’s license he’s ever had in his
driver’s license he’s ever had in his life and he comes to court cap tell me I
life and he comes to court cap tell me I
life and he comes to court cap tell me I don’t want to do it judge I can’t I
don’t want to do it judge I can’t I
don’t want to do it judge I can’t I don’t do good on those tests he came to
don’t do good on those tests he came to
don’t do good on those tests he came to court after you guys service times it’s
court after you guys service times it’s
court after you guys service times it’s a smile a mile wide because he’d passed
a smile a mile wide because he’d passed
a smile a mile wide because he’d passed the test these folks do not have those
the test these folks do not have those
the test these folks do not have those kinds of positive experiences in their
kinds of positive experiences in their
kinds of positive experiences in their lives our program lasts for about two
lives our program lasts for about two
lives our program lasts for about two years people go through phases as they
years people go through phases as they
years people go through phases as they do good they blew up to the next phase a
do good they blew up to the next phase a
do good they blew up to the next phase a little bit less restrictive a little bit
little bit less restrictive a little bit
little bit less restrictive a little bit less restrictive they are subject to you
less restrictive they are subject to you
less restrictive they are subject to you your analysis random your analysis I
your analysis random your analysis I
your analysis random your analysis I never used the word urinalysis in my
never used the word urinalysis in my
never used the word urinalysis in my life I got into drug court we talk about
life I got into drug court we talk about
life I got into drug court we talk about your analysis all the time there are
your analysis all the time there are
your analysis all the time there are subjects are at least two of those tests
subjects are at least two of those tests
subjects are at least two of those tests a week on a random basis they have to
a week on a random basis they have to
a week on a random basis they have to report to a probation officer they have
report to a probation officer they have
report to a probation officer they have to report to these treatment groups they
to report to these treatment groups they
to report to these treatment groups they have to participate in self-help groups
have to participate in self-help groups
have to participate in self-help groups what you typically think of as in a or a
what you typically think of as in a or a
what you typically think of as in a or a a type of groups our goal is to turn
a type of groups our goal is to turn
a type of groups our goal is to turn people who have been because of their
people who have been because of their
people who have been because of their drug addiction have been negative
drug addiction have been negative
drug addiction have been negative participants in our community into
participants in our community into
participants in our community into positive participants and turn them into
positive participants and turn them into
positive participants and turn them into good parents and good neighbors and we
good parents and good neighbors and we
good parents and good neighbors and we are having some success it’s hard it’s
are having some success it’s hard it’s
are having some success it’s hard it’s hard work it’s emotional work for the
hard work it’s emotional work for the
hard work it’s emotional work for the participants and for us but we’re going
participants and for us but we’re going
participants and for us but we’re going to keep doing it for a while because we
to keep doing it for a while because we
to keep doing it for a while because we are having some success but you’ve seen
are having some success but you’ve seen
are having some success but you’ve seen people really remarkably turn their
people really remarkably turn their
people really remarkably turn their lives around do through this program and
lives around do through this program and
lives around do through this program and so I actually in order to introduced one
so I actually in order to introduced one
so I actually in order to introduced one of our participants right now well young
of our participants right now well young
of our participants right now well young woman who’s done very well in our
woman who’s done very well in our
woman who’s done very well in our program and Nicole endsville
[Applause]
[Applause] hi my name is Nicole as you all know I’m
hi my name is Nicole as you all know I’m
hi my name is Nicole as you all know I’m in treatment courts I happen for the
in treatment courts I happen for the
in treatment courts I happen for the past 18 months and I’ve been in recovery
past 18 months and I’ve been in recovery
past 18 months and I’ve been in recovery for almost three years now
for almost three years now
for almost three years now I am in no means as public speaker this
I am in no means as public speaker this
I am in no means as public speaker this is not if it’s up to me I’d be running
is not if it’s up to me I’d be running
is not if it’s up to me I’d be running the other way
the other way
the other way however a couple months ago I was asked
however a couple months ago I was asked
however a couple months ago I was asked to speak at home town Helena for youth
to speak at home town Helena for youth
to speak at home town Helena for youth connections on prescription drug abuse
connections on prescription drug abuse
connections on prescription drug abuse it was during that time that I realized
it was during that time that I realized
it was during that time that I realized that my story is like so many others and
that my story is like so many others and
that my story is like so many others and if I could give just one person hope it
if I could give just one person hope it
if I could give just one person hope it was worth me being uncomfortable for a
was worth me being uncomfortable for a
was worth me being uncomfortable for a few minutes so before I get started I’ll
few minutes so before I get started I’ll
few minutes so before I get started I’ll tell you a little bit about how I grew
tell you a little bit about how I grew
tell you a little bit about how I grew up I’m from Helena I basically lived
up I’m from Helena I basically lived
up I’m from Helena I basically lived here my whole life I came from a
here my whole life I came from a
here my whole life I came from a blue-collar family my parents were both
blue-collar family my parents were both
blue-collar family my parents were both hard-working they taught us a lot about
hard-working they taught us a lot about
hard-working they taught us a lot about responsibility values and good were that
responsibility values and good were that
responsibility values and good were that work ethic they worked hard for
work ethic they worked hard for
work ethic they worked hard for everything we had I was the oldest of
everything we had I was the oldest of
everything we had I was the oldest of six children and with that came a lot of
six children and with that came a lot of
six children and with that came a lot of responsibility I put a lot on myself to
responsibility I put a lot on myself to
responsibility I put a lot on myself to be the best to not make a mistake and to
be the best to not make a mistake and to
be the best to not make a mistake and to be a good role model every time I made a
be a good role model every time I made a
be a good role model every time I made a mistake I went to shame and there’s a
mistake I went to shame and there’s a
mistake I went to shame and there’s a lot of difference between guilt and
lot of difference between guilt and
lot of difference between guilt and shame guilt is kind of like that guilty
shame guilt is kind of like that guilty
shame guilt is kind of like that guilty conscience in your head that says don’t
conscience in your head that says don’t
conscience in your head that says don’t do that that’s bad it kind of keeps us
do that that’s bad it kind of keeps us
do that that’s bad it kind of keeps us from making mistakes shame on the other
from making mistakes shame on the other
from making mistakes shame on the other hand it doesn’t tell us that that action
hand it doesn’t tell us that that action
hand it doesn’t tell us that that action is bad but that we are bad so growing up
is bad but that we are bad so growing up
is bad but that we are bad so growing up every time I made a mistake I went to I
every time I made a mistake I went to I
every time I made a mistake I went to I am bad I’m a failure
am bad I’m a failure
am bad I’m a failure I will never amount to anything and so I
I will never amount to anything and so I
I will never amount to anything and so I lived in shame for a lot of years as I
lived in shame for a lot of years as I
lived in shame for a lot of years as I grew up I feel like I had a lot of
grew up I feel like I had a lot of
grew up I feel like I had a lot of friends but I never felt okay I never
friends but I never felt okay I never
friends but I never felt okay I never felt like I fit in it was my freshman
felt like I fit in it was my freshman
felt like I fit in it was my freshman year of high school and I got my first
year of high school and I got my first
year of high school and I got my first boyfriend he was popular he was on the
boyfriend he was popular he was on the
boyfriend he was popular he was on the football team and for the first time in
football team and for the first time in
football team and for the first time in my life I felt okay I felt like I had
my life I felt okay I felt like I had
my life I felt okay I felt like I had finally I finally fit in he quickly
finally I finally fit in he quickly
finally I finally fit in he quickly became my identity or so I thought
became my identity or so I thought
became my identity or so I thought we dated over the next three years with
we dated over the next three years with
we dated over the next three years with ups and downs and it was my senior year
ups and downs and it was my senior year
ups and downs and it was my senior year he passed away in a motocross accident
he passed away in a motocross accident
he passed away in a motocross accident it was at the beginning of my senior
it was at the beginning of my senior
it was at the beginning of my senior year and I felt like all eyes were on me
year and I felt like all eyes were on me
year and I felt like all eyes were on me waiting to see what was gonna happen
waiting to see what was gonna happen
waiting to see what was gonna happen next so I kept pushing through I never
next so I kept pushing through I never
next so I kept pushing through I never really dealt with it I continued with
really dealt with it I continued with
really dealt with it I continued with high school I graduated I signed up to
high school I graduated I signed up to
high school I graduated I signed up to go to college
go to college
go to college and I continued working my job two years
and I continued working my job two years
and I continued working my job two years into college I developed a pack-a-day
into college I developed a pack-a-day
into college I developed a pack-a-day cigarette habit and was drinking daily
cigarette habit and was drinking daily
cigarette habit and was drinking daily two years into it I decided something
two years into it I decided something
two years into it I decided something had to change so I moved back home I
had to change so I moved back home I
had to change so I moved back home I enrolled in college in Helena I started
enrolled in college in Helena I started
enrolled in college in Helena I started work again at my old job and I started
work again at my old job and I started
work again at my old job and I started seeing a doctor well antidepressants led
seeing a doctor well antidepressants led
seeing a doctor well antidepressants led to prescription pain pills and
to prescription pain pills and
to prescription pain pills and prescription pain pills led to more
prescription pain pills led to more
prescription pain pills led to more prescription pain pills it was in 2009
prescription pain pills it was in 2009
prescription pain pills it was in 2009 that I got my first I got into my first
that I got my first I got into my first
that I got my first I got into my first wreck while under the influence of
wreck while under the influence of
wreck while under the influence of alcohol and prescription pills and I
alcohol and prescription pills and I
alcohol and prescription pills and I decided something needed to change so I
decided something needed to change so I
decided something needed to change so I stopped drinking alcohol problem solved
stopped drinking alcohol problem solved
stopped drinking alcohol problem solved right I started justifying my pill use
right I started justifying my pill use
right I started justifying my pill use because I was prescribed them so I tell
because I was prescribed them so I tell
because I was prescribed them so I tell you this to say that I struggled with
you this to say that I struggled with
you this to say that I struggled with smoking alcohol and prescription dark
smoking alcohol and prescription dark
smoking alcohol and prescription dark abuse for almost ten years
abuse for almost ten years
abuse for almost ten years it slowly robbed me of my dignity my
it slowly robbed me of my dignity my
it slowly robbed me of my dignity my self-worth my ability to be a mother and
self-worth my ability to be a mother and
self-worth my ability to be a mother and a wife and a sister and a daughter um
a wife and a sister and a daughter um
a wife and a sister and a daughter um slowly weeks turned into months and
slowly weeks turned into months and
slowly weeks turned into months and months turned into years and while I
months turned into years and while I
months turned into years and while I wanted a way out I didn’t know how at
wanted a way out I didn’t know how at
wanted a way out I didn’t know how at that point I didn’t want to stay in it
that point I didn’t want to stay in it
that point I didn’t want to stay in it but I saw no way out of it
but I saw no way out of it
but I saw no way out of it but I’m here today to tell you that
but I’m here today to tell you that
but I’m here today to tell you that there is hope I feel like everyone
there is hope I feel like everyone
there is hope I feel like everyone struggles with something whether it’s
struggles with something whether it’s
struggles with something whether it’s low self-esteem depression anger
low self-esteem depression anger
low self-esteem depression anger addiction whatever it may be there is
addiction whatever it may be there is
addiction whatever it may be there is hope and I found that in my Savior Jesus
hope and I found that in my Savior Jesus
hope and I found that in my Savior Jesus Christ today I feel like I am forgiven
Christ today I feel like I am forgiven
Christ today I feel like I am forgiven I have a new purpose to my life as I’ve
I have a new purpose to my life as I’ve
I have a new purpose to my life as I’ve gone through the treatment program
gone through the treatment program
gone through the treatment program everyone that’s helped me along the way
everyone that’s helped me along the way
everyone that’s helped me along the way the judge counselors the treatment team
the judge counselors the treatment team
the judge counselors the treatment team they all think I’m a success story and
they all think I’m a success story and
they all think I’m a success story and they don’t know how I’m doing it and
they don’t know how I’m doing it and
they don’t know how I’m doing it and I’ll tell you I’ve had a lot of support
I’ll tell you I’ve had a lot of support
I’ll tell you I’ve had a lot of support from family from my husband who’s never
from family from my husband who’s never
from family from my husband who’s never given up on me throughout this entire
given up on me throughout this entire
given up on me throughout this entire journey even though it’s been nothing
journey even though it’s been nothing
journey even though it’s been nothing anything but easy he’s been by my side
anything but easy he’s been by my side
anything but easy he’s been by my side the whole time and with us too and our
the whole time and with us too and our
the whole time and with us too and our faith in God we’ve gotten through it and
faith in God we’ve gotten through it and
faith in God we’ve gotten through it and I just stand here today to tell you that
I just stand here today to tell you that
I just stand here today to tell you that there is hope there’s freedom from
there is hope there’s freedom from
there is hope there’s freedom from addiction or whatever you’re struggling
addiction or whatever you’re struggling
addiction or whatever you’re struggling with and I just want to say thank you to
with and I just want to say thank you to
with and I just want to say thank you to everyone who has helped me along the way
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