Using Play for Everyday Activism | Mattie Brice | TEDxMiddlebury

I know giving current events

I know giving current events this question is on my mind and I have a

this question is on my mind and I have a

this question is on my mind and I have a feeling is on a lot of yours as well

feeling is on a lot of yours as well

feeling is on a lot of yours as well climate change poverty settler and

climate change poverty settler and

climate change poverty settler and native conflicts police brutality labor

native conflicts police brutality labor

native conflicts police brutality labor issues these are all huge epic problems

issues these are all huge epic problems

issues these are all huge epic problems that we all now need to solve it’s easy

that we all now need to solve it’s easy

that we all now need to solve it’s easy to feel discouraged powerless to change

to feel discouraged powerless to change

to feel discouraged powerless to change the world in any tangible way I believe

the world in any tangible way I believe

the world in any tangible way I believe this is a problem when we phrase these

this is a problem when we phrase these

this is a problem when we phrase these as epic scale issues how do I solve

as epic scale issues how do I solve

as epic scale issues how do I solve sexism is there any person you can solve

sexism is there any person you can solve

sexism is there any person you can solve sexism right but somehow we are asking

sexism right but somehow we are asking

sexism right but somehow we are asking us asking ourselves that instead I

us asking ourselves that instead I

us asking ourselves that instead I believe we need to take the more

believe we need to take the more

believe we need to take the more grassroots ordinary people efforts in

grassroots ordinary people efforts in

grassroots ordinary people efforts in order to solve our problems the things

order to solve our problems the things

order to solve our problems the things that are happening in local communities

that are happening in local communities

that are happening in local communities between people instead of these

between people instead of these

between people instead of these worldwide problems and I believe the

worldwide problems and I believe the

worldwide problems and I believe the process for that everyday activism is

process for that everyday activism is

process for that everyday activism is won through play now I’m not the only

won through play now I’m not the only

won through play now I’m not the only person to suggest games and play can be

person to suggest games and play can be

person to suggest games and play can be used for social good about six years ago

used for social good about six years ago

used for social good about six years ago Jane McGonigal gave a very influential

Jane McGonigal gave a very influential

Jane McGonigal gave a very influential TED talk about how everyday gameplay can

TED talk about how everyday gameplay can

TED talk about how everyday gameplay can be used to solve epic problems there’s

be used to solve epic problems there’s

be used to solve epic problems there’s also a whole industry called serious

also a whole industry called serious

also a whole industry called serious games dedicated to social impact games

games dedicated to social impact games

games dedicated to social impact games using play for education and social

using play for education and social

using play for education and social interests

interests

interests there’s even an organization called

there’s even an organization called

there’s even an organization called games for change which has been around

games for change which has been around

games for change which has been around for over a decade committed to endorsing

for over a decade committed to endorsing

for over a decade committed to endorsing games for social impact so how much have

games for social impact so how much have

games for social impact so how much have games actually changed the world we have

games actually changed the world we have

games actually changed the world we have no idea

so I wish I had a really fancy bar graph

so I wish I had a really fancy bar graph to show you how social issues were

to show you how social issues were

to show you how social issues were before and after games came along but

before and after games came along but

before and after games came along but there’s been very little research on

there’s been very little research on

there’s been very little research on that topic not only do very few

that topic not only do very few

that topic not only do very few developers and companies release data on

developers and companies release data on

developers and companies release data on how much they’ve impacted target

how much they’ve impacted target

how much they’ve impacted target audiences in interests little do that

audiences in interests little do that

audiences in interests little do that data collection in the first place and I

data collection in the first place and I

data collection in the first place and I think this is a huge problem when an

think this is a huge problem when an

think this is a huge problem when an entire media promised to solve these

entire media promised to solve these

entire media promised to solve these epic wide-scale problems so you probably

epic wide-scale problems so you probably

epic wide-scale problems so you probably have seen some things like this right

have seen some things like this right

have seen some things like this right you know this is world of warcraft but

you know this is world of warcraft but

you know this is world of warcraft but you probably have seen things like

you probably have seen things like

you probably have seen things like points levels progression bars quests

points levels progression bars quests

points levels progression bars quests you know they’ve been kind of

you know they’ve been kind of

you know they’ve been kind of infiltrating our sort of everyday life

infiltrating our sort of everyday life

infiltrating our sort of everyday life trying to get us more interested in

trying to get us more interested in

trying to get us more interested in social issues so all these as you may

social issues so all these as you may

social issues so all these as you may might know we’re world of work war comes

might know we’re world of work war comes

might know we’re world of work war comes from is the entertainment product

from is the entertainment product

from is the entertainment product industry of video games video games are

industry of video games video games are

industry of video games video games are really good at engagement getting people

really good at engagement getting people

really good at engagement getting people interested keeping people focused on one

interested keeping people focused on one

interested keeping people focused on one problem to solve they’re not really that

problem to solve they’re not really that

problem to solve they’re not really that great at getting people involved and

great at getting people involved and

great at getting people involved and communicating about complex issues about

communicating about complex issues about

communicating about complex issues about staying in the long term for vague goals

staying in the long term for vague goals

staying in the long term for vague goals that you never know will pan out that’s

that you never know will pan out that’s

that you never know will pan out that’s not good for social activism it’s like

not good for social activism it’s like

not good for social activism it’s like choosing a spoon to cut your steak

choosing a spoon to cut your steak

choosing a spoon to cut your steak that’s not gonna be a really great steak

that’s not gonna be a really great steak

that’s not gonna be a really great steak you’re gonna be pretty upset because you

you’re gonna be pretty upset because you

you’re gonna be pretty upset because you spent a really long time trying to cut

spent a really long time trying to cut

spent a really long time trying to cut that steak instead I want to continue

that steak instead I want to continue

that steak instead I want to continue everyone to consider other opportunities

everyone to consider other opportunities

everyone to consider other opportunities for play play actually is embedded in

for play play actually is embedded in

for play play actually is embedded in our everyday lives think about we play

our everyday lives think about we play

our everyday lives think about we play social roles right gender roles racial

social roles right gender roles racial

social roles right gender roles racial roles class roles ones that we choose to

roles class roles ones that we choose to

roles class roles ones that we choose to have and ones that are forced upon us we

have and ones that are forced upon us we

have and ones that are forced upon us we play with our food we sometimes play

play with our food we sometimes play

play with our food we sometimes play with each other’s hearts

with each other’s hearts

with each other’s hearts we play along with what life gives us we

we play along with what life gives us we

we play along with what life gives us we also very explicitly play in economic

also very explicitly play in economic

also very explicitly play in economic systems choosing why and how and where

systems choosing why and how and where

systems choosing why and how and where we spend our money in fact we play with

we spend our money in fact we play with

we spend our money in fact we play with everyday life more than we play with

everyday life more than we play with

everyday life more than we play with games now you feel like if we’re gonna

games now you feel like if we’re gonna

games now you feel like if we’re gonna focus on games in play we should do what

focus on games in play we should do what

focus on games in play we should do what people are already doing to activate

people are already doing to activate

people are already doing to activate wide-scale change and this is a useful

wide-scale change and this is a useful

wide-scale change and this is a useful practice for us because we’re so used to

practice for us because we’re so used to

practice for us because we’re so used to trying to accomplish the big one and

trying to accomplish the big one and

trying to accomplish the big one and world hunger no change just change the

world hunger no change just change the

world hunger no change just change the world but instead this sort of everyday

world but instead this sort of everyday

world but instead this sort of everyday play it’s small grains of sand though we

play it’s small grains of sand though we

play it’s small grains of sand though we all can use to build up into an

all can use to build up into an

all can use to build up into an impenetrable wall it lets us all be

impenetrable wall it lets us all be

impenetrable wall it lets us all be drops in a wave and I think we need to

drops in a wave and I think we need to

drops in a wave and I think we need to start thinking of ourselves more that

start thinking of ourselves more that

start thinking of ourselves more that way instead of us thinking we need to

way instead of us thinking we need to

way instead of us thinking we need to turn into that wall or turn into that

turn into that wall or turn into that

turn into that wall or turn into that wave by ourselves citing one of my

wave by ourselves citing one of my

wave by ourselves citing one of my favorite theorists queer and performance

favorite theorists queer and performance

favorite theorists queer and performance scholar Jose Esteban muñoz my colleague

scholar Jose Esteban muñoz my colleague

scholar Jose Esteban muñoz my colleague Maricopa’s sees games as models for

Maricopa’s sees games as models for

Maricopa’s sees games as models for utopia so we can imagine our futures in

utopia so we can imagine our futures in

utopia so we can imagine our futures in this imaginary but not completely unreal

this imaginary but not completely unreal

this imaginary but not completely unreal space when we play with one another and

space when we play with one another and

space when we play with one another and we can’t just jump to utopia right away

we can’t just jump to utopia right away

we can’t just jump to utopia right away right we can’t just make our ideals come

right we can’t just make our ideals come

right we can’t just make our ideals come from whatever higher plane that we all

from whatever higher plane that we all

from whatever higher plane that we all observe down to earth instead we can use

observe down to earth instead we can use

observe down to earth instead we can use play as gesturing as signalling to one

play as gesturing as signalling to one

play as gesturing as signalling to one another the new realities the better

another the new realities the better

another the new realities the better futures that we envision because utopia

futures that we envision because utopia

futures that we envision because utopia is not just this end point utopia is

is not just this end point utopia is

is not just this end point utopia is never going to arrive

never going to arrive

never going to arrive I will die and in a racist world and

I will die and in a racist world and

I will die and in a racist world and with games with games now how they’re

with games with games now how they’re

with games with games now how they’re used you’re supposed to win you’re

used you’re supposed to win you’re

used you’re supposed to win you’re supposed to accomplish the goal but I

supposed to accomplish the goal but I

supposed to accomplish the goal but I don’t I’m not a loser and no one else is

don’t I’m not a loser and no one else is

don’t I’m not a loser and no one else is here is a loser so that’s why we need to

here is a loser so that’s why we need to

here is a loser so that’s why we need to change our perspective thinking about

change our perspective thinking about

change our perspective thinking about this everyday play how we interact we’re

this everyday play how we interact we’re

this everyday play how we interact we’re so focused on these large epic scale

so focused on these large epic scale

so focused on these large epic scale issues that we forget the people who are

issues that we forget the people who are

issues that we forget the people who are sitting right next to us the people in

sitting right next to us the people in

sitting right next to us the people in our lives

our lives

our lives when’s the last time you radically

when’s the last time you radically

when’s the last time you radically changed the person next to you something

changed the person next to you something

changed the person next to you something tells me you work tirelessly thinking

tells me you work tirelessly thinking

tells me you work tirelessly thinking trying to do something larger but the

trying to do something larger but the

trying to do something larger but the small bits always kind of run through

small bits always kind of run through

small bits always kind of run through your fingers so instead of winning I

your fingers so instead of winning I

your fingers so instead of winning I want to kind of use a little term called

want to kind of use a little term called

want to kind of use a little term called infinite games not by religious scholar

infinite games not by religious scholar

infinite games not by religious scholar James P cars and infinite games or

James P cars and infinite games or

James P cars and infinite games or infinite play it’s a kind of play that

infinite play it’s a kind of play that

infinite play it’s a kind of play that doesn’t stop it actually perpetuates

doesn’t stop it actually perpetuates

doesn’t stop it actually perpetuates itself think of it as a sort of yes and

itself think of it as a sort of yes and

itself think of it as a sort of yes and from improv right I do something and my

from improv right I do something and my

from improv right I do something and my action leaves a space for you to respond

action leaves a space for you to respond

action leaves a space for you to respond and then you take that space and you

and then you take that space and you

and then you take that space and you respond as well in your unique way and

respond as well in your unique way and

respond as well in your unique way and leave space for me to respond and we

leave space for me to respond and we

leave space for me to respond and we just keep going this is the sort of play

just keep going this is the sort of play

just keep going this is the sort of play I’m thinking about instead of goals

I’m thinking about instead of goals

I’m thinking about instead of goals instead of winning now it’s not a secret

instead of winning now it’s not a secret

instead of winning now it’s not a secret though we have a bit of a diversity

though we have a bit of a diversity

though we have a bit of a diversity problem in the tech sector especially

problem in the tech sector especially

problem in the tech sector especially video games white men take up the vast

video games white men take up the vast

video games white men take up the vast majority of decision-making roles and

majority of decision-making roles and

majority of decision-making roles and even though that’s starting to change

even though that’s starting to change

even though that’s starting to change the vast majority of people who are

the vast majority of people who are

the vast majority of people who are making creating games are white now

making creating games are white now

making creating games are white now coupled with the lack of research and

coupled with the lack of research and

coupled with the lack of research and not a lot of accountability of actually

not a lot of accountability of actually

not a lot of accountability of actually impacting the world we have

impacting the world we have

impacting the world we have affective games at best but most often

affective games at best but most often

affective games at best but most often is very exploitative towards the people

is very exploitative towards the people

is very exploitative towards the people that we’re hoping to help so I want to

that we’re hoping to help so I want to

that we’re hoping to help so I want to share with you some inspiration that

share with you some inspiration that

share with you some inspiration that powers me and hopefully will power and

powers me and hopefully will power and

powers me and hopefully will power and enable you in everyday play the first is

enable you in everyday play the first is

enable you in everyday play the first is from performance our Allan Kaprow coined

from performance our Allan Kaprow coined

from performance our Allan Kaprow coined a term called happenings these are kind

a term called happenings these are kind

a term called happenings these are kind of anti art performance that takes place

of anti art performance that takes place

of anti art performance that takes place and it’s almost indistinguishable from

and it’s almost indistinguishable from

and it’s almost indistinguishable from everyday life so the programs for these

everyday life so the programs for these

everyday life so the programs for these performances they would have rules of

performances they would have rules of

performances they would have rules of what the performer would be doing very

what the performer would be doing very

what the performer would be doing very specific time location duration and the

specific time location duration and the

specific time location duration and the performer would go out usually in public

performer would go out usually in public

performer would go out usually in public and perform their piece and very often

and perform their piece and very often

and perform their piece and very often people around them had no idea they were

people around them had no idea they were

people around them had no idea they were doing that performance I really think

doing that performance I really think

doing that performance I really think that that’s fascinating that someone is

that that’s fascinating that someone is

that that’s fascinating that someone is expressing something about our lives and

expressing something about our lives and

expressing something about our lives and maybe we don’t notice it in the noise

maybe we don’t notice it in the noise

maybe we don’t notice it in the noise but it’s affecting us what power that is

but it’s affecting us what power that is

but it’s affecting us what power that is everyone can do that I think that the

everyone can do that I think that the

everyone can do that I think that the formal nature of these programs of

formal nature of these programs of

formal nature of these programs of happenings are a great starting point

happenings are a great starting point

happenings are a great starting point for creators people and institutions to

for creators people and institutions to

for creators people and institutions to start making everyday play so a bit ago

start making everyday play so a bit ago

start making everyday play so a bit ago there was a DIY revolution in video

there was a DIY revolution in video

there was a DIY revolution in video games punctuated by the publishing of

games punctuated by the publishing of

games punctuated by the publishing of the rise of the video game zine stirs by

the rise of the video game zine stirs by

the rise of the video game zine stirs by Anna Anthropy and what this was was

Anna Anthropy and what this was was

Anna Anthropy and what this was was putting light on game making tools that

putting light on game making tools that

putting light on game making tools that didn’t require programming sometimes

didn’t require programming sometimes

didn’t require programming sometimes didn’t require you being an artist of

didn’t require you being an artist of

didn’t require you being an artist of visual or audio and as we know

visual or audio and as we know

visual or audio and as we know programming knowledge and game making

programming knowledge and game making

programming knowledge and game making knowledge is deeded it’s not very

knowledge is deeded it’s not very

knowledge is deeded it’s not very diverse inside those gates so what

diverse inside those gates so what

diverse inside those gates so what happens when all of a sudden everyone

happens when all of a sudden everyone

happens when all of a sudden everyone can make a game well as you might expect

can make a game well as you might expect

can make a game well as you might expect we got a lot of different kinds of play

we got a lot of different kinds of play

we got a lot of different kinds of play so instead of winning and challenges and

so instead of winning and challenges and

so instead of winning and challenges and quests we got games about self-care we

quests we got games about self-care we

quests we got games about self-care we got games about prison abolition game is

got games about prison abolition game is

got games about prison abolition game is about consensual and safe sex practices

about consensual and safe sex practices

about consensual and safe sex practices now but you know trying to think about

now but you know trying to think about

now but you know trying to think about the last time you went to Walmart to

the last time you went to Walmart to

the last time you went to Walmart to pick up a videogame that had any of

pick up a videogame that had any of

pick up a videogame that had any of those themes in them right

those themes in them right

those themes in them right it’s just when we use this sort of small

it’s just when we use this sort of small

it’s just when we use this sort of small scale model and if you pick up on the

scale model and if you pick up on the

scale model and if you pick up on the title zine like it kind of calls in the

title zine like it kind of calls in the

title zine like it kind of calls in the 90s of radical queer feminist

90s of radical queer feminist

90s of radical queer feminist communities who use scenes to

communities who use scenes to

communities who use scenes to communicate to one another we can use

communicate to one another we can use

communicate to one another we can use games for that too it’s also super

games for that too it’s also super

games for that too it’s also super useful to use design outside of games in

useful to use design outside of games in

useful to use design outside of games in order to imagine these new futures in

order to imagine these new futures in

order to imagine these new futures in particular I’m interested in transition

particular I’m interested in transition

particular I’m interested in transition design out of Carnegie Mellon now it

design out of Carnegie Mellon now it

design out of Carnegie Mellon now it comes from trying to use service design

comes from trying to use service design

comes from trying to use service design or experience design in order to deal

or experience design in order to deal

or experience design in order to deal with the fact that climate change is

with the fact that climate change is

with the fact that climate change is here it’s happened and we have to deal

here it’s happened and we have to deal

here it’s happened and we have to deal with it not we can’t stop it we’re

with it not we can’t stop it we’re

with it not we can’t stop it we’re already kind of done enough so what do

already kind of done enough so what do

already kind of done enough so what do we do to transition from today in our

we do to transition from today in our

we do to transition from today in our practices into a future that everyone

practices into a future that everyone

practices into a future that everyone can do now I’m really interested in this

can do now I’m really interested in this

can do now I’m really interested in this sort of design because it doesn’t have

sort of design because it doesn’t have

sort of design because it doesn’t have an end it’s more concerned with wicked

an end it’s more concerned with wicked

an end it’s more concerned with wicked problems or problems that require a

problems or problems that require a

problems or problems that require a whole bunch of messy things to be taken

whole bunch of messy things to be taken

whole bunch of messy things to be taken account that can’t be easily solved like

account that can’t be easily solved like

account that can’t be easily solved like trying to change the behavior and

trying to change the behavior and

trying to change the behavior and thoughts of a large group of people like

thoughts of a large group of people like

thoughts of a large group of people like a nation so I want to show a couple of

a nation so I want to show a couple of

a nation so I want to show a couple of examples and I don’t really believe that

examples and I don’t really believe that

examples and I don’t really believe that everyday play has to be these discretes

everyday play has to be these discretes

everyday play has to be these discretes art objects and in fact I think they

art objects and in fact I think they

art objects and in fact I think they should be more subliminal more active

should be more subliminal more active

should be more subliminal more active through between us but I want to show

through between us but I want to show

through between us but I want to show you some experiments that I did the

you some experiments that I did the

you some experiments that I did the first is my own zine like game mainichi

first is my own zine like game mainichi

first is my own zine like game mainichi I made this for my best friend who after

I made this for my best friend who after

I made this for my best friend who after her and I know he spend a lot of our

her and I know he spend a lot of our

her and I know he spend a lot of our time together who was still confused

time together who was still confused

time together who was still confused about my mental state wondering why I’m

about my mental state wondering why I’m

about my mental state wondering why I’m depressed so I made a game about what it

depressed so I made a game about what it

depressed so I made a game about what it took for me to go get a cup of coffee

took for me to go get a cup of coffee

took for me to go get a cup of coffee with her as if it was just another day I

with her as if it was just another day I

with her as if it was just another day I showed the choices I had to make as

showed the choices I had to make as

showed the choices I had to make as someone who’s trans someone who’s black

someone who’s trans someone who’s black

someone who’s trans someone who’s black my appearance and show her what happens

my appearance and show her what happens

my appearance and show her what happens when I make those decisions what happens

when I make those decisions what happens

when I make those decisions what happens to me on the street what happens to me

to me on the street what happens to me

to me on the street what happens to me when I’m trying to buy a cup of coffee

when I’m trying to buy a cup of coffee

when I’m trying to buy a cup of coffee and she went through and toiled and went

and she went through and toiled and went

and she went through and toiled and went through all the choices and saw all the

through all the choices and saw all the

through all the choices and saw all the outcomes and you know there’s some

outcomes and you know there’s some

outcomes and you know there’s some things you just can’t explain with words

things you just can’t explain with words

things you just can’t explain with words and I think play helps us bridge that

and I think play helps us bridge that

and I think play helps us bridge that gap now after my Nietzsche was published

gap now after my Nietzsche was published

gap now after my Nietzsche was published in back in 2012 we’ve seen a lot of

in back in 2012 we’ve seen a lot of

in back in 2012 we’ve seen a lot of empathy experiences with technology

empathy experiences with technology

empathy experiences with technology these are supposed to be interactive

these are supposed to be interactive

these are supposed to be interactive experiences in which help you empathize

experiences in which help you empathize

experiences in which help you empathize with others but when I start to notice

with others but when I start to notice

with others but when I start to notice that this was happening to my work where

that this was happening to my work where

that this was happening to my work where people would take my game that I made

people would take my game that I made

people would take my game that I made for my best friend and say learn about

for my best friend and say learn about

for my best friend and say learn about being trans you know learn about being

being trans you know learn about being

being trans you know learn about being black that’s that’s this wasn’t for you

black that’s that’s this wasn’t for you

black that’s that’s this wasn’t for you and so I made a my game empathy machine

and so I made a my game empathy machine

and so I made a my game empathy machine where I use physical computing to make

where I use physical computing to make

where I use physical computing to make my body a game controller and had people

my body a game controller and had people

my body a game controller and had people play my game as I tried to reenact my

play my game as I tried to reenact my

play my game as I tried to reenact my everyday life now at first I tried to do

everyday life now at first I tried to do

everyday life now at first I tried to do the whole you know like cool artist

the whole you know like cool artist

the whole you know like cool artist thing I didn’t talk you know I didn’t

thing I didn’t talk you know I didn’t

thing I didn’t talk you know I didn’t make eye contact but then I started to

make eye contact but then I started to

make eye contact but then I started to notice that people were reaching out to

notice that people were reaching out to

notice that people were reaching out to speak to me and eventually started to

speak to me and eventually started to

speak to me and eventually started to talk to them and there was a

talk to them and there was a

talk to them and there was a vulnerability there I mean sure yes I’m

vulnerability there I mean sure yes I’m

vulnerability there I mean sure yes I’m the one who’s bear you know mostly naked

the one who’s bear you know mostly naked

the one who’s bear you know mostly naked you know being touched and groped but

you know being touched and groped but

you know being touched and groped but they were also being vulnerable doing

they were also being vulnerable doing

they were also being vulnerable doing that in a space

that in a space

that in a space but that is unacceptable taking a chance

but that is unacceptable taking a chance

but that is unacceptable taking a chance to be like there’s something here and

to be like there’s something here and

to be like there’s something here and it’s super uncomfortable but I’m gonna

it’s super uncomfortable but I’m gonna

it’s super uncomfortable but I’m gonna try something and you know I think we

try something and you know I think we

try something and you know I think we could use that moment more in our lives

could use that moment more in our lives

could use that moment more in our lives to beckon that from one another and the

to beckon that from one another and the

to beckon that from one another and the last one I’ll share with you is called

last one I’ll share with you is called

last one I’ll share with you is called eat its back to those programs of rules

eat its back to those programs of rules

eat its back to those programs of rules I made this for ex-partner of mine who

I made this for ex-partner of mine who

I made this for ex-partner of mine who had trouble understanding what it’s like

had trouble understanding what it’s like

had trouble understanding what it’s like to be saddled with student debt and not

to be saddled with student debt and not

to be saddled with student debt and not in a market that is looking to hire me

in a market that is looking to hire me

in a market that is looking to hire me and I’m sorry if that’s too soon for

and I’m sorry if that’s too soon for

and I’m sorry if that’s too soon for many of you here but I have to I wanted

many of you here but I have to I wanted

many of you here but I have to I wanted to communicate this feeling what not

to communicate this feeling what not

to communicate this feeling what not only what does it mean not to get a job

only what does it mean not to get a job

only what does it mean not to get a job into how like a lot of money to pay back

into how like a lot of money to pay back

into how like a lot of money to pay back to people I don’t know but what does it

to people I don’t know but what does it

to people I don’t know but what does it mean to be a woman that has to do that

mean to be a woman that has to do that

mean to be a woman that has to do that black trans all these things living in

black trans all these things living in

black trans all these things living in San Francisco what does that mean so I

San Francisco what does that mean so I

San Francisco what does that mean so I made a program and I had him follow some

made a program and I had him follow some

made a program and I had him follow some rules during his everyday life to maybe

rules during his everyday life to maybe

rules during his everyday life to maybe catch a glimpse now he doesn’t

catch a glimpse now he doesn’t

catch a glimpse now he doesn’t understand my experience he never will

understand my experience he never will

understand my experience he never will because I lived it and were too

because I lived it and were too

because I lived it and were too different but there was a connection

different but there was a connection

different but there was a connection there was a place for conversation there

there was a place for conversation there

there was a place for conversation there was a place for sharing in sometimes we

was a place for sharing in sometimes we

was a place for sharing in sometimes we need that just to get to the heart of it

need that just to get to the heart of it

need that just to get to the heart of it we’re too built up about being morally

we’re too built up about being morally

we’re too built up about being morally good to really admit to other people you

good to really admit to other people you

good to really admit to other people you know we up we do these we

know we up we do these we

know we up we do these we participate in these systems and we

participate in these systems and we

participate in these systems and we don’t know how to stop you have to be

don’t know how to stop you have to be

don’t know how to stop you have to be honest about those things and I believe

honest about those things and I believe

honest about those things and I believe this sort of everyday play is gonna help

this sort of everyday play is gonna help

this sort of everyday play is gonna help us get there so I want to leave you with

us get there so I want to leave you with

us get there so I want to leave you with this you’re not a loser forced not

this you’re not a loser forced not

this you’re not a loser forced not solving epic problems because that’s not

solving epic problems because that’s not

solving epic problems because that’s not how it works instead

how it works instead

how it works instead I want you to consider what it will take

I want you to consider what it will take

I want you to consider what it will take to connect with the people in your life

to connect with the people in your life

to connect with the people in your life to radically change the people you love

to radically change the people you love

to radically change the people you love and care about and then after that

and care about and then after that

and care about and then after that people that you don’t know people on the

people that you don’t know people on the

people that you don’t know people on the outskirts of your community I really

outskirts of your community I really

outskirts of your community I really believe that people like me need others

believe that people like me need others

believe that people like me need others who are advantaged to start doing this

who are advantaged to start doing this

who are advantaged to start doing this because I need help there’s many of us

because I need help there’s many of us

because I need help there’s many of us that need help and we need you to reach

that need help and we need you to reach

that need help and we need you to reach out thank you

out thank you

out thank you [Applause]